In His Touch

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Click, and smothering darkness surrounded me. I fumble around a bit, trying to find my way to the bed, which I cannot see. My hand runs over a soft lump under the covers, and in the darkness, I smile. It happens every time I just cannot help it. He makes me smile, even if I try my hardest not to, he makes me. Something about him, I cannot explain it.

I step carefully over him, and slide under the covers. I turn toward him and wait for him to move his arm for me, seeing that it is my rightful place beside him. Sure, he may turn over in the night, but I do not care, just so long as he holds me for a little while, I will be happy. Once he moves his arm up, and I slide next to him, laying my head on his shoulder. He wraps his arm around me, and in the darkness, I hear him say the three most beautiful words in the world. "I love you." He whispers.

"I love you too." I respond, smiling some. I love you more than you'll ever know, I think. I throw my freehand around his shoulder and snuggle up as closely as I can, while I still can. I move my head a bit, so I can hear his assuring heartbeat, steady and strong. With a sigh, I close my eyes and grasp onto his shoulder. Let me die now, if I am going to die. I will never ask for anything ever, just let me die with next to him, and then I can die happy.

Before I actually have a chance to drift off into sleep, I allow my mind to wander a bit. I begin to think about many things I have done, and the things I might possibly do in the future, and he is the one solid thing I can see. I will never let him leave, and I will never leave him. If only I could tell you exactly how I feel, if you could only possibly have the slightest inkling. After I think that, I know that I am glad I can never explain, and there is a good reason for that.

The darkness surrounding us begins to become even darker as I slip into sleep. In my half-conscious state, I reach up and grasp his shoulder tightly. Like a child, I grasp for dear life, with out even thinking about it. Right before I slip into a sound sleep, I hear his voice call out to me.

"It's okay, I've got you. I've got you." Thank god for that, because I do not want to fall just yet, so hold on for dear life, my love. You have me, and I have you too. It is in his touch.