Hey everyone, sorry I haven't updated in ages! My friend Anne made me update! Lol! Only kidding…but she actually did! Confusing, I know! Hope you like this chapter!

So Messed Up

Jesse's POV

Oh no, what am I doing? I am at another girl's house BUT I am only helping with math and not doing anything out of the ordinary! I should not feel guilty but I do. It feels as if a part of me is cheating on Susannah anyway because I am thinking suck naughty thoughts. Get them out of your mind, De Silva! You have a beautiful girlfriend do not ruin that relationship!

A voice spoke out from nowhere and asked, "Would you like something to drink?"

I snapped out of my reverie and found Greer looking at me expectantly and I remembered I was at her house. Silly me. "Yes, just a glass of water please."

She then went to the kitchen. What am I even doing here? Tutoring another girl. Nothing wrong there!

Greer came back in and she sat next to me. She was leaning very close so her thigh leaned on mine and I was feeling a little excited. She then asked me how to do one of the math equations on the book, and then I remembered that I was supposed to be tutoring her math. Every time she pointed to a question, her arm would brush onto mine and sometimes stay there. I wanted to kiss her so badly.

No JESSE! YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND! But a little kiss won't hurt will it?

Suddenly, Greer slipped on something and accidentally banged into me. I was knocked of the couch and Greer landed on top of me. Somehow in that collision, her lips met mine and I was so overcome with passion that I started kissing her.

To my surprise, she started kissing me back with as much passion as I felt, maybe even more so. The kisses were amazing and she was a fantastic kisser. I couldn't think of anything else but then there was my nagging conscience that kept telling me I had Susannah, mi querida. I was too far gone to care about that anymore. Greer was amazing and her hands started feeling up my chest. All these fireworks exploded inside my mind and I couldn't help realizing that I really, really liked Greer. Maybe not love yet but it might blossom to that. I realized that I would have to deal with Susannah too, that I would have to break it off with her.

I cringe at the very thought. She is not going to take it well. If I felt this much lust for someone who is not Susannah then I must not be in as much love as I thought I was. I will tell her soon but now I must get to know Greer better. Hmm…how shall I get to know her better? I know, how about dinner at my house tonight? I pat myself on the back. Great thinking De Silva. So I ask her and she obliged. I am elated! I cannot wait…

We arrive outside my apartment holding hands; I know that I was technically cheating on my girlfriend, therefore that meant I was cheating on Susannah. I put her to the back of my mind even though I feel really guilty. Is it normal for a guy to keep 2 girls at the same time? Nombre de dios, I'll think about it later but now I think I'll just enjoy my time with Greer.

We had dinner and were settling down to watch TV when Greer looked at me with a devilish glint in her eyes, which I interpreted as a good sign, I HOPE! She grabbed the collar of my shirt and pecked my lips. Which made me want more so we started making out on the couch. I had a better idea and I decided to go through with it but I didn't know if Greer would like it. The couch was rather uncomfy so I carried her into my bedroom to do some naughty things. She was giggling the whole way. I can't believe I caught such a great girl even though I already had a girlfriend. Shut UP! Nagging consciences, think they know everything. Pst. (A/N Sorry all Jesse/Suze lovers, please don't kill me!)

Suze's POV

Ah. No one's home, how great is that? I get to spend a blissful time on my own. I wish Jesse were here. I know I'll call him and tell him to come over!

Rriiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnggg……

"Hello, this is Jesse, I cannot take your call right now as I am busy, please leave a message." Beeeeppp.

Sigh, he's not answering. I can't believe it! First I don't see him at all today but find out he's studying with that blond biatch and now he's completely blown me off! I know! I'll go over to his apartment and surprise him! He will not know what hit him and I'll wear a cute but sexy outfit too! That is just perfect, I can't believe I never thought of that.

I wore a black halter top with said beautiful across the chest region and a black leather mini. I loved my outfit. I press down my skirt to look presentable, god I sound like a mum, hehe. I knocked on the door but no one answered. I tried the doorknob and surprisingly it opened easily. I eased in so I could give Jesse a big surprise! I heard noise coming from his bedroom; well at least I wouldn't have to get him away from his studying to the bedroom as he's already there! I padded along the floor as quietly as I could just to see his face when I give him a fright. I peeked in through the door just to make sure he's studying but I can't believe my eyes when I saw what was happening in his room. This cannot be happening. I see Jesse kissing another girl madly. Jesse's with another girl and that girl is…

Jesse's POV

I hear a noise at the door so I look up and I couldn't believe what I saw, it was Susannah and her eyes where filled with tears. Nombre de dios, I can't believe I made her cry. She was looking stunning in the clothes she was wearing. I'm so confused. Who do I have feelings for, Greer or Susannah? Susannah looked at me and I saw all the hurt and grief I had caused her.

She was turning to leave when I realized I couldn't just let her go like this so I called out to her. "Susannah, don't leave, this isn't what it looks like." I didn't want to lie but I couldn't think of another excuse. Greer looked at me but she had a look of understanding in her eyes as she realized that I had not yet broke it off with Susannah.

Susannah turned around to look at me and I was astonished to see that there were no more tears in her eyes but her eyes were distant and cold and also filled with anger.

She said, "It isn't what it looks like? Then what does it look like to me Jesse? Here you are snogging the face off another girl when I could only think of you. I love you, Jesse but guess what I get tossed back in my face for liking you? You cheat on me with the worst girl ever. I can't believe you would do this to me! No one will understand you the way I do. Can you not see that? I feel betrayed that you would even do this but if you want her, that's fine. I now can see that you're not any different than all the other guys I've dated. They always end up stabbing me in the back but for you, that's literally. You know what? I don't even have to be doing this. I'm going to transform all the love I had for you into hate. I hate you for doing this to me Jesse. I hate you, I hate you, I hate you! Don't even talk to me again because I won't be talk to you!" With that she burst out of my apartment.

What have I done? Greer gave me a hug and offered me comfort to which I was thankful for. How am I going to fix this with Susannah? I never meant to hurt her in any way but things just kind of got out of hand. What am I to do? I can't bear to see Susannah like that but at the same time, I am kind of glad as I can go out with Greer now. What am I thinking? Why does everything have to be so confusing?

Suze's POV

Why would Jesse to a thing like that to me? I thought he loved me. Tears are springing like a fountain out of my eyes. I sit down on a park bench to recollect what I just saw. It was such a horrible scene; I wish I hadn't seen that. I just can't seem to stop crying! Why did he have to leave me like this? Heartbroken. That's the word to describe me. I feel hollow like nothing exists anymore. I just cannot believe Jesse would do such a thing! I wish I could erase everything that just happened in the last 10 minutes. I just wish I could. I can't see anything now. My world is all blurry and I am filled with too much emotions.

I thought Jesse and I were perfect but I guess it was not meant to be. I guess I look a wreck if anyone walked by and saw. I was then overcome with another tide of pain and sadness as I just registered again in my mind what happened. Why did this have to happen to me?

I then felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned around. I saw a person looking down at me. In a soft voice, I heard the person ask what the matter was. It only then registered in my mind that I was looking at the face of………

Author's Note

Hey, see aren't you glad now that I have updated? Please R&R! I have done a very long chapter by my standards! I hope you all liked it! Sorry, I left it a cliffy but I guess you can all guess who the person is going to be! Please review! Remember, the more reviews I get, the faster I shall update!

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