Hey, this is a super long chappy, so I divided it into parts. There still all on this update though.
Thoughts of Marriage
Part 1
Marriage. Every time I hear that word I think back to our marriage. Me and Sirius, we never got a chance. A few months, but that's it. Luckily I never got pregnant, we wanted to wait awhile, enjoy our life together, before we got into all that. Lily and James of course got into it as soon as they could. Lily always said she wanted a 'Big, Happy Family'. She got a husband and a baby boy, but never got to really enjoy even that. Becca and Remus got married and that was it. Only I knew otherwise. A few day's before she went missing she started getting missed periods and morning sickness. Lily was in hiding with James and the baby so she never knew, and I doubt Becca would've told Sirius. I know for a fact that she never told Remus; she wanted to wait for a while, until she was sure. I was almost positive she was pregnant though. How was I supposed to tell Remus? After all he was going through, I just couldn't. I never did.
-Flashback-
"YOU LOOK GORGEOUS!" Lily screamed as she ran into the room.
"Your 5 minutes late Lil' and you look like you just woke up," Becca stated dryly.
Lily blushed and I snickered. I have a feeling I knew exactly what (or WHO) made her look that way. Lily glared at me playfully.
"Well EXCUSE me but I wasn't the one whining like a baby for Sirius at the Bachelorette party last night," Lily stated with a laugh.
"Well It was boring, and I mean come ON, what where you guy's thinking when you got those disgusting male strippers?"
"Hey, the blonde one was hot," Becca commented.
"Uh," I murmured, suppressing a shutter at the creepy mental pictures.
"Need a barf bucket?" Lily asked.
"No, I learned the Anti-hang-over spell from Siri in 6th year."
"Thought so."
"Mhm."
"So, where's the bridesmaid dresses?" I asked.
"Bec's mom's bringing them."
I nodded but cringed slightly. Becca's mother was SO picky; she made us try on about a billion bridesmaid dresses from EVERY store in the muggles mall that had them. The cake… well I don't even want to remember how much cake got shoved into my face when we where trying to pick out the wedding cake. And she finally settled on Forget-me-nots for the flowers after looking at numerous other flower bouqets.
Lily went a little green which made me burst out laughing.
They both looked at me weirdly.
"I don't even want to know," Becca said putting on some lipstick.
About 10 minutes later Becca's mom came in.
"Hello ladies! Oh Rebecca-dear you look absolutely marvelous!"
Lily and I rolled are eyes but both said polite greetings.
"Hello."
"Morning' Mrs. Grates." (AN – Please note I'm making Becca's last name 'Grates' because I don't think I gave her one)
"Oh yes. Here are your dresses girls." She gave us both the peacock yellow cocktail-like dresses. (Personally I thought they were a little over-the-top for a wedding but that's Becca.)
"And girls you better get ready soon, I've got to go check in with the caterer but Mr. Grates will be here in a half an hour for Rebecca."
And with that she opened the door but called back, "Oh and Lillian, dear that hair ribbon is crooked." And then shut the door.
A half an hour later, the 3 of us where sitting on the small couch where Lily and I were urging Becca to breathe since she had almost had a panic attack two minutes earlier.
"Hun, really it's not a big deal if the caterer is a little late. It'll all work out just fine," Lily said in a soothing voice.
"Sorry guys, its just so friken stressful!" Becca said strangling an invisible person in front of her.
I snorted, "Maybe having all of our weddings in the same month was a little stupid."
"Just a little," Lily commented dryly.
There was a knock at the door. Lily got up and let Mr. Grates in.
"You girls look great," he said encouragingly. "Come on Beccy dear, I need to deliver you to Mr. Lupin, can't keep that one waiting, no, definitely not."
He looked down at his watch while Lily and I exchanged looks of amusement at Becca's nickname. Becca rolled her eyes.
"Come on dad," She said leading us out the door.
I watched as the little flower girl, Kalia, walked down first, her cute little ponytail bouncing on her way down.
I felt a hand slip into mine and didn't even have to look to know whom it was. I recognized his hands, which was weird.
"Come on sexy, we need to go now," Sirius whispered close to my ear.
I giggled and smoothed my dress over.
"You look beautiful." Sirius scoffed and placed my hand back in his.
I walked down the aisle, Sirius pulling me close to him whenever a guy turned to look at me.
I smiled to myself, enjoying the feeling of being protected.
We got to the front and Sirius gave me a quick kiss before he walked the other way and grinned cheekily over his shoulder.
I rolled my eyes and grinned back. Lily came and stood next to me, I watched as she exchanged love-filled looks with James. Sirius was watching them smiling too. He looked over at me and gave me a look that I will never forget.
I looked just in time to see Becca making her way down to Remus. When she got there her dad placed their hands together and clapped Remus on the back as he walked to his seat.
The rest of the ceremony was a blur, other than my feet aching, nothing really happened except the priest droning on about only god-knows-what.
Finally they got to the "I do's" and finished with a rather intimate kiss as the people clapped. When they finished they both ran down the aisle together and out the door to do only god-knows-what.
Part 2
It was the 17th of September, Lily and James wedding. They where having it at James parents house. James's mom was so nice! She of course welcomed Lily with open arms, and was absolutely thrilled that they where having it at their house. The back yard was covered with Calla lilies. Ever table had a beautifully arranged bouquet.
Currently the 'bride-to-be' was pacing the room muttering things that could go wrong under her breath. While I was resting on the couch rolling my eyes when she muttered:
"What if there's an attack!" in a wavering voice.
"Oh relax!" I yelled for the fifth time that day.
Becca walked in with 3 coolers.
"Thank god," I murmured.
"Think fast Lil," Becca said tossing a cooler at her, which she turned and caught in the nick of time.
"Nice catch, James's obviously been rubbing off on you," I commented.
She went red and nodded, her face going all dreamy for a moment. "Thanks for this Becca, I needed it."
Becca nodded and threw me one that I almost dropped.
Lily snorted, "and obviously Sirius hasn't been rubbing off on you."
"Yeah well we prefer to do other things in are free time, wink wink, nudge nudge."
"1, 2, 3- pop." We all popped the top of the cooler in unison and burst out laughing.
"Nice," I said as the alcohol fizzed over my hand.
"Hey, you must have got the one I shook," Becca laughed.
"Bitch," I said licking the fizz off.
"GIRRRRLLLLSSSSSSS." We heard a yell that was unmistakably Sirius. "I'm coming in, make sure you're decent! Well except Riley because I see her nude everyday."
"We are!" Lily yelled back raising her eyebrow at me.
"Idiot," I muttered, shaking my head,
He came in looking absolutely yummy in his white tux.
"Hello Ladies, and may I say Lil, Bec, you both you look absolutely stunning today." He turned and looking me over causing me to go beet red. Even though I'd known him for so long, I still blushed whenever he looked at me like that.
He smirked in a good-natured way.
"And Ri, that shade of red you're donning is beyond beautiful."
I rolled my eyes at his mock-flattery.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Why are you just assuming something is wrong?" Sirius countered back.
"Well you obviously came to ask or tell us something, I'm assuming it's bad because your complimenting us like it's your last day to live."
"Oh," he said shortly.
"Cough it up cupcake," Lily ordered.
"Hey! I'm a man, a man does not respond to the name 'cupcake'!"
The three of us looked at him flatly.
"OH F-I-N-E, the Priest is stuck in traffic; apparently some one ran over a cow. Now its dead carcass is rotting it up in the middle of the street. They're bringing in a dump truck and crane to move it."
We all yelled out while Sirius snorted.
"EW!"
"GROSS!"
"TOO MUCH INFORMATION!"
After I had hit Sirius across the heads for being so disgusting, Lily asked nervously.
"How long will he be?"
"Hopefully not to long, but a half an hour at the latest"
We all groaned loudly, Lily's being the loudest.
"Stupid fucking idiot," Lily yelled, banging her head against the wall.
"It's not the person's fault the cow just happened to be in the middle of the road!" Sirius protested.
"Not that, ME! I should have got a backup!"
Becca patted her back soothingly. "Look at it this way Lil', at least you can have the wedding cake."
The three of us gave her weird looks as she stared off into space.
"Yeah..." Sirius said, "Well I'm going to go check on James, make sure he hasn't killed himself yet."
We nodded; I took a loooong sip of my cooler.
I was walking down the second aisle in a month. Goosebumps were trailed up my arm and down my legs. It wasn't even cold out. I have this thing where even its 30 degrees out, I'm still freezing cold as soon as the sun starts to go down. I shifted closer to Sirius as he smirked at me.
"Cold?" He muttered almost incoherently.
I nodded, looking forward at the priest who was scrambling to find the right page in his bible.
"Wow, I almost feel sorry for the poor sod, James said he'd curse him into eternity if he didn't give them a great service."
I snorted quietly. We were now approaching the front. Sirius gave me a kiss on the cheek and let go of my hand as we parted ways.
I stood there grinning at Becca as she and Remus parted and she strolled over to me. She was grinning back as we turned to watch as Lily came in her wedding dress that was almost like a sundress with buttons up the middle. It swayed this way and that as she walked. Her hair was left down – apparently that was the way James liked it. It kept getting in her face and I could almost here her muttering cuss words, annoyed, I saw the priest looking at her wearily.
"Why the hell did they decide to keep her bloody hair down?" Becca muttered.
"That was James's brilliant idea," I muttered back looking at the boys, which were all trying to control their laughter. Except James of course, who was now enjoying the wrath of Lily's glare.
She got near to the front but not before tripping several times on her high heels and banging into a seat once. Her mother looked absolutely horrified. Her sister hade a sneer on her face and would snort every time she tripped. By the time Lily got to the front she was almost in tears. James took her hand and hugged her close.
I smiled at her sadly.
The priest was giving her a sympathetic look, as was every other person in the room. Excluding Lily's sister who still had that horrible smirk on her face.
The vows and such were all said. Lily said something like "and I think I loved him even when I hated him…" This made everyone who knew them and how they use to be with each other laugh loudly.
When everything else was done they said their "I do's" and ran down the aisle. Everyone clapped, beaming. Except, of course Lily's sister who now was wearing a rather annoyed sneer.
"She looks like Snape," Becca commented.
"Hey! She does sort of look like him you know," I said back. "And if you squint she even has the same nose."
We both burst out laughing totally ignoring the suspicious glare she threw at us.
"What are you two laughing about this time?" Remus asked.
"Well we think Lil's sis looks a bit like Snape, don't you think?" Becca asked.
He raised his eyebrow and turned to look at her.
"Hmm. Yeah I guess she does resemble him a bit."
We started another round of laughing while Remus rolled his eyes and went to talk to Sirius.
"Wonder what Lil's doing?" Becca asked me.
"Uh I don't really want to know," I said wrinkling my nose up.
Lily came out 10 minutes later her hair a bit scruffed up and her lipstick smudged; I had to bite my lip to keep from laughing. Becca turned her snickering into coughing.
"Err Lil' you might want to take a look in the mirror," I said passing her my compact.
"Ah!" Lily shrieked looking at herself "Thanks." With that said, she practically ran out of the room.
"RIIIIIILEY!" Sirius moaned in my ear.
"SIIIIIRRRRRRRRRIIIIIUUUSSSS" I moaned back.
"You know that name sounds very sexy coming out of your mouth," Sirius said smirking playfully as I turned around to face him.
"Ass," I muttered under my breath.
"And you love it!" Sirius muttered back pulling me in for a kiss.
"Your right, I do," I whispered as we took another.
There was a catcall as James, Remus and Peter came out of nowhere.
Peter was looking at us in that creepy worshiping way again. It was starting to piss me off.
"Peter where's your date?" Sirius asked knowing I was getting annoyed with him. Almost as if he could read my mind.
"Uhh well…." He trailed off.
"She's probably in the washroom."
"No…" He started "She left; she had to go to her ballet."
'EW, now that's a disturbing image.' I thought suppressing a shutter. Let's just say Peters date wasn't quite up for a Miss. United Kingdom pageant. The huge boil on her forehead that pussed over a few minuets was… Disgusting.
Sirius had a grin on his face and was obviously suppressing laughter, as was James. Remus had mysteriously vanished. I knew he wasn't that good at holding in laughter. He probably made a trip to the bathroom, to either burst out laughing or puke.
"Well… That's nice. Is she into dancing and all that?" I asked politely. That was obviously the limit for the two guys though. They erupted in merciless laughter as Peter sat there looking confused.
Becca and Lily walked over.
"What are they laughing about now?" Lily asked as Becca rolled her eyes.
"Peter's date does ballet," I explained quickly.
Lily's face stayed straight. Becca's face twitched from amusement to disgust but soon she was back at a straight face.
"What's so funny about that, a lot of girls like ballet, and frankly I think the boil is cool. Remember she said something about having it since birth. That's quite an interesting fact."
The boys howled with laughter while Lily frowned at them. Peter still looked confused.
Part 3
Sirius and I had a beautiful wedding. We decided to have in the Caribbean. Sirius was friends with a guy in the ministry who did the Port Key's then so he got us some to use. We had it on a beach with white tiger lilies everywhere. The sand was warm beneath my feet. I remember it like it was yesterday.
"What's Siri like in bed Ri?" Becca asked like it was an everyday question.
Lily and I turned to her looking stunned.
"Uhhh…" I said with a red face "Good?"
She laughed.
"You've never had it have you?" Becca said with a smirk and a raised eyebrow.
"Shit. I have to do that tonight." I sat with a million questions popping into my head. We HAD never done it. I told him I wanted to wait till we were married. Not that I was afraid to get a child, in the wizarding world there was only a simple spell you had to do after you were done and nothing would happen. I just didn't want to deal with it on top of everything else.
"No shit Sherlock," Lily said shaking her head. "So young, so naïve."
I was now blushing to the roots of my hair.
"You guys scare me," I said seriously.
"Aw come on Riley, you guys are both totally attractive and together you'll be even better," Becca said soothingly.
"Just remember to do the spell after," Lily put in.
I grinned.
"SO, how were your guy's honeymoons?"
"Great!" Becca spilled.
"Yuck, we didn't need to know that Bec," Lily said.
"Come on Lily, you prude," Becca teased.
"Fine mine was amazing. Happy?"
We nodded, laughing.
Walking down the aisle was one of the scariest things I've ever done. Including fighting Death Eaters and looking at Peter's dates boil. I did it though.
I was walking down the aisle alone since my father was gone. Those thoughts made tears come to my eyes. I looked up at Sirius as I walked in following Lily and Becca. Sirius was beaming at me with sparks going up in his eyes every time I took a step closer.
It seemed like forever to get down there.
It also didn't help that Sirius was pretty much devouring me with his lovely eyes.
When I finally got up there I slipped my hand into his and gave him an excited beam, to which he returned with a wink.
We stepped up onto the platform where the priest was checking his watch.
"Hem" Sirius murmured.
"Oh yes ------"
He went on with all the normal vows and so on.
-A half a hour later-
"You may now kiss the bride."
Sirius lifted the veil over my head and stepped toward me with a wicked grin playing on his face.
He leaned forward and captured my lips with his and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me up closer to him. I melted into his grip and wrapped my arms around his neck, vaguely hearing the catcalls being thrown at us.
We stayed like that for as long as possible. Which in my mind was an hour, but in reality only like 3 minutes.
We broke away, both smiling like we'd won the muggle's lottery.
"I love you," He whispered in my ear.
"I love you too," I whispered back.
"Want to go have some fun?" He asked with a devilish smirk.
I nodded eagerly.
"Let's go then," He said picking me up and running down the aisle with me in his arms.
-End of Flashback-
No one really understood the connection we had with each other. Then again who would care? I only spent a year or so with him. It flew past like a cheetah on crack. (AN - wouldn't that make it go slower? Lol, sorry back to the story…) we were by no means the "perfect couple". We fought over stupid things, but we'd make-up and are back on the high road after ever stupid little fight. And the most important thing was that we loved each other so much. I knew as soon as I got on that plane heading to where I am today that it was stupid. I was young though. Everything just happened at once and I was crushed with all of it. I will never forget though, because when you forget you lose stuff so important to you, you could never truly live again.
Hey people,
Oh, so much fluffy happiness! Too bad it will all end in the chapter to come. MUAHAHAHAH…. Lol, sorry I suck at being evil. Anyways, jezz THAT was a long chapter, VERY long. I'll try to get the next chapter up soon. Thanks for… well I didn't get any reviews for last chapter. I realize however that since I switched the AN's with the new chapter that it doesn't send out a notice though. So yeah, I guess all get back to my real life now. See yah!
PS – Did I go over the limit with the "talk" Lily, Becca and Riley had? I don't really think so but who knows?
PPS – Did I mention that this was 12 fricken pages on word (Editor's Note: it was 20 on mine!)! (AN – Lol, I mixed that up it was 20! Lol)
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