The Gift
By Misty Fortner
A Robin/Raven story
I don't own Teen Titans, just borrowing the characters.
Chapter 2: Blue Christmas
I'll have a blue Christmas, that's certain, and when that blue heartache starts hurting,
"You'll be doing all right with your Christmas of white, but I'll have a blue, blue Christmas."
Raven sat alone in her room. She was happy to be alone. That was who she was, a loner. No matter what the idiot Santa said. Being alone made her happy. After all she had her friends, what else did she need? She had learned along time ago that she would always be mostly alone. That's how she liked it.
She kept repeating these things to herself, it was becoming harder and harder to convince herself of these things. She would watch Starfire and Robin together and wonder what she was missing. Even more now that she had defeated her father and knew that she didn't have the dark destiny she'd always believed. She wondered what it would be like to have a boyfriend. Raven thought about the little girl at the mall. Maybe, one day she would even want to have a child. Raven frowned, even if she did want more she was too different. No man would love her, or want to have a family with her.
Raven sighed, and pulled out the packages she had bought at the mall. She never had found anything for Robin. She only had a week till Christmas. She would have to go back out shopping, but this time she would leave Star at home. Raven really did care about her best friend, but there was only so much of Starfire Raven could handle at once. Starfire had been the easiest titan to buy for. She had gotten her a snow globe, with a girl building a snowman inside it. Little things like that amused Star. Cyborg was a little more difficult, but she had pre-ordered a video game for him. As she got into the bag of books, she realized she had forgotten to put the romance novel back on the shelf. She laid her horror books to the side, and put the romance novel on top. She grabbed the gift wrap, and wrapped each of the packages she had. She would put them under the tree tomorrow, after she picked up something for Robin.
Raven took the sapphire night gown out of the bag. It was really beautiful. She took off her cloak and leotard. Looking in the mirror at her naked form she grimaced. She was so pale and her breasts were small. She wished she had Starfire's body. Raven slid the nightgown over her head. She liked it. It made her feel a little attractive.
She climbed into bed and picked up the romance novel and opened it. "I bought it, so I should at least read it. I'll just keep it in here. It wouldn't do for the Titans to see me reading a corny romance novel" Raven quickly became enticed by the book. She didn't pay the least bit of attention to the fact that her imagination had cast herself in the roll of the heroine and Robin as the male lead.
"Robin, I am worried about Raven. We need to go confirm that she is alright" Starfire looked at her boyfriend with worried eyes. Starfire had been upset from the moment her and Raven had returned from the mall of shopping. Robin had been trying to assure Star that Raven had just had enough of shopping, and wanted to be alone. That had been hours ago. Now, it was after ten and Raven hadn't emerged from her room at all. She didn't even come out for dinner. Even, he was beginning to get worried.
"I will go check on her if it will make you feel better." Robin hoped his girlfriend didn't tag along for the check-up. He knew Raven was probably irked at Starfire for making her get a picture with Santa. Though Robin had to admit, the picture of the two of them sitting on Santa's lap was great. It was amazing how the two women, both so different could both be so beautiful. Of course Robin couldn't tell Star that he thought Raven was beautiful. Heck, he couldn't even tell Raven that she was beautiful. Starfire waited in Robin's room as he went to check on their friend.
Robin walked down the hallway to Raven's room. He wondered if she would even answer the door. She could be so moody some times. He finally arrived, and knocked on her door. He waited a couple minutes and was about to knock again, when she slightly opened the door, and stuck her head out.
"Hello Robin."
"Hey, Raven. Star and I were getting worried. You never came down for dinner. After the way you teleported home after the shopping trip….."
"As you can see, I'm fine" Raven responded coldly
"Well, I might have believed that until now. But I can sense that you're shaken up by something. I'm not leaving till you talk to me. I know what happens when you bottle up your feelings."
Raven sighed, and opened the door. She let Robin in her room. He was the only Titan she'd let in her room. After Robin stepped in, the door closed behind them. Robin's mouth fell open, and his eyes widened. Raven looked at him strangely, then she remembered that she was wearing her new negligee. Robin quickly tried to snap out of it, and looked at her face. "So what happened, Rae?"
"Nothing happened really. The Santa Clause was lying idiot. First he told a little girl that he'd bring her mother someone special for Christmas and then he told me that I needed to have faith and believe so I can find love and happiness."
"I think you should listen to him. You deserve to find happiness and love." Robin said. He was having a hard time staying focused though. Raven looked so hot in the nightgown she had on. It took every ounce of willpower inside him not to rip it off her, and see out what was hiding underneath. "Maybe you and B.B. should go out on a double date with me and Star sometime."
Raven frowned. Me and Beast Boy! Never happen! I could never be romantic with someone that immature. I mean B.B. is great as a friend, just not a boyfriend."
Robin smiled and was extremely happy inside. Starfire had wanted to hook the two of them up. He had insisted it couldn't work between them, but Star had wanted to try. This way he could assure Star that he had tried, but it wouldn't work.
"Besides," Raven continued as she sat on her bed, "Even if I could date someone like B.B., I doubt he'd be interested. I'm too different. I'm not girlfriend material. After all, no one has ever even looked at me that way, let alone do something like try to kiss me."
Robin sat down beside her. How could he make her see how wrong she was? He wanted to kiss her right now. He wanted to kiss her and do so much more. But he couldn't. Robin picked up Raven's hand. "Any guy would be a fool not to make you his girlfriend."
Two violet disbelieving eyes looked at him. "Really?"
Robin took a deep breath. He was having a very hard time holding himself together right now. His mind was racing with thoughts that he shouldn't be having. He tried to stop himself from touching her in an effort to comfort her. He knew feeling her soft skin or sweet smelling hair would be very dangerous right now. But he failed at stopping himself. He ran his fingers through her silky hair and ended with a hand on her shoulder. "Raven, I promise you that it's true. You are very desirable."
Raven looked at him for a moment. He could tell she was obviously searching for a sign to prove what he was saying. Unable to stand it any longer, Robin pulled Raven to him. He bent his head down and kissed her. The moment their lips met sparks ignited within them both. The kiss was not a quick friendly kiss, but was a hot all consuming kiss. In Raven's room, the lights blew out, followed by her window, and mirror. The heavy running down the hallway pulled them both out of their trance
Robin looked at Raven in the now darkened room. "I'm sorry, Raven, I shouldn't have done that. I need to leave now. I'll talk to you some more tomorrow"
"Just make sure they don't come in to check on me, please" she said emotionless
"Raven, are you alright?" came Cyborg's voice from the hall.
Robin stepped into the hall. "Raven was showing me a new form of meditation. Obviously it didn't work that well. We should let her be"
Cyborg and Beast Boy accepted their leader's story. They returned to their video game.
Robin returned to his room and Starfire in a very frustrated state of mind. Starfire had the most physically satisfying nights of sex she had ever had. Unfortunately for Robin, as hard as he tried he could not find any real pleasure or fulfillment that night.
