Tony stood beside Kate's grave. He had seen images of her in his mind since she died. Most of them were of her in a Catholic school girl uniform, and sometimes, even naked. But that was not how he wanted to remember her. He knew he had to come to grips with his real feelings eventually, but it hurt so much. It hurt so much he could barely breathe. He stood there at her graveside for a long time until he finally spoke to her.

"I know I treated you terrible while you were alive Kate. I teased you, bugged you, even blackmailed you. But I always loved you." He stopped because he was fighting back tears, the same tears that had welled up in him when he finaly realized she was dead or when he sat at her funeral only a few days before.

"That's why I did all that stuff to you, to get your attention, to get you to notice me. I loved you. I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone in my entire life, and you left me. You left me here alone." Tears were flowing freely down his cheeks, but he didn't care. He didn't care who saw him cry at this moment. He needed to tell Kate how he felt.

"You left me here alone. Alone to catch your killer. Alone to see your empty desk everyday. Alone with no one to help me torture Probie. Alone with no one to run cases with!" He was yelling by now. "And worst of all, you left me alone with no one to love!"

He collapsed in a fit of tears onto her grave. He knelt there and cried for sometime. Finally he stopped crying, placed a kiss on her headstone and stood up, sniffling.

"I loved you Kate." He said. "I loved you so much and I will never stop loving you."

He put the flowers he had brought her down in front of the headstone, then reached into his pocket and pulled out a necklace.

"I was going to give you this on my first day back" He looked down at the charm on the gold chain. "A brush with death can change a man. I was going to tell you how much I loved you. I never had the chance to, you died before I had the chance." He kissed the charm and placed the necklace on the ground over the flowers. It was a gold heart outline with the words 'I love you' written in gold inside the heart.

He stood again in silence, thinking about her. He looked over at a tree nearby and he could see her, like he had for days after she died. Only this time she was different. She was dressed as she usually did when she came to work. The beauty that he had fallen in love with in the first place.


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