Okay this tip is going to come in handy a bit in this chapter and the next. In case you don't know, I believe if the body goes into an intense state of fear, you can lose your reality of time. Okay you can read now!

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Riza's hand gently hit the off button on her alarm a mere second after it began to sound. It really had been useless, it wasn't as though she slept. Her hand slid back to her side, eyes cast up to stare at the ceiling. Her eyes were empty and lifeless, yet so full of pain. Slowly she forced herself from the safety of her bed and into the shower. The water was hot, almost to the point of burning her skin but it was comforting. The drops slid down her cheeks, taking the place of the tears that refused to fall. The shower soon turned off and Riza stepped out of the warmth. Her body, showing its first sign of life, shivered at the sudden drop in temperature as she wrapped a towel around her body. She glanced at herself in the mirror but looked away quickly. The mirror didn't show Riza Hawkeye, First Lieutenant, expert marksman. It showed a younger girl, eyes scared and lost, eyes of merely Riza.

Stepping out of the bathroom her mind barely registered as her body went through its daily actions. Her military uniform was replaced with a loose button up white blouse and a soft blue skirt that came down past her knee. Her eyes stared straight ahead as her hands moved on their own, pulling a brush through her soft blonde hair. It hung loose, just below her shoulders. Glancing at the clock she knew the time was coming closer. She pulled a coat out of the closet along with a small purse. Sanity stepped in, only for a moment, to remind her to bring a gun, even if she didn't have the strength today to pull the trigger. Casting a final glance around her house, she stepped out the door and into the morning air. The cold wind hit her full force, but she walked along unfazed, why would she be? She was already numb. After a short while she arrived at a small bus station. Heading for her bus, she handed the driver the ticket she had purchased earlier in the week and took a seat. The bus left shortly and Riza took a deep breath preparing herself. It was February 12th and now there was no turning back.

Roy's eyes perked up as he watched Riza step out of her house. Wow its only nine, she sure gets going early for a day off. Havoc, Fuery, and himself were currently sitting in a parked car, down the street from Riza's home. They had all camped out at Havoc's house, since he lived the closest. The night had been interesting to say the least. First, a nasty call had come from Havoc's mother complaining about how her son had deserted her. Then Roy had to use his alchemy to burn something that seemed to be growing in the refrigerator. To top it all off, a woman Havoc had 'gotten acquainted' with a few nights ago showed up in tears, begging him to stay with her.

The men watched Hawkeye as they followed in the car. When they came to the bus station, Fuery slipped out and returned a few minutes later with her bus number. After twenty minutes, the bus pulled out of the lot, Havoc driving the car a safe distance behind. Becoming uncomfortable in the silence, Fuery spoke from the backseat.

"Where do you think she is going?"

Roy remained silent, turning to look out the passenger seat window. Havoc shrugged his shoulders, lifting one hand to remove his cigarette to speak.

"Knowing Hawkeye, buying extra deadly bullets or something."

Fuery shook his head doubtfully and leaned back in his seat as the car ride continued on in silence. After a bit less than an hour, the bus pulled into a small town to let off several passengers, Hawkeye included. Havoc parked the car and looked around.

"Where are we?"

Roy shrugged his shoulders, leading the other two men as he left the car and followed Hawkeye on foot.

Riza stared out the window, a sad look set upon her fragile face. Her mind was lost in memories while the bus hurried along. As the bus slowed to a stop, she pulled herself back to reality and exiting the bus. The drive seemed to last only a few minutes but it always did. Taking a deep breath, Riza looked around at the familiar stop before her feet began to move themselves down the sidewalk.

Eyes taking in her surroundings, memories of more pleasant times began to flow back. A small smile came to her face as she noted how little had changed. Passing by small stores she watched people dart from one place to another, trying to avoid the cold air as much as possible. Riza continued down her path as she came across a school, pausing shortly to glance at the classrooms she knew were full of young students, anxious for the bell to ring releasing them to the freedom of the weekend. Closing her eyes, she opened them slowly before walking again.

Her walk continued for several minutes, allowing her to take in the sounds around her. Soon she came to a building that was too familiar. Stopping at the beginning of the road, her eyes followed the street, finally resting on the white hospital building. Fingers clutching her purse, she counted up four floors and found the seventh room down from the end. She nodded her head before continuing on her way, hoping the last woman in that room had better luck than she did.

Eyes cast down, she could feel herself coming closer. She passed it every year, she knew she would. Some would say it wasn't healthy, tell her to take another path but she never did. Her steps slowed as she drew nearer, noticing the trees becoming denser. Her eyes closed as she stopped on the walkway in front of it. She listened for others, hearing none, she finally brought her eyes up. Some would laugh at her, others just think her strange for it but it was true. Riza Hawkeye was scared of what children loved. The playground in the city park.

"Can we go back now? She's fine!" Havoc whined as he watched Hawkeye from behind a tree with the others. Roy glared at him but Fuery frowned and shook his head.

"What do you mean she's fine? Is this how Hawkeye usually acts? Walking aimlessly around, stopping at random places for a few moments. Look at her!" He turned his head back, watching as Hawkeye swung freely on a small swing, eyes cast down.

Havoc crossed his arms and was silent for a moment. He soon felt small raindrops falling on his head and he looked up, "It's starting to rain! I'm leaving!" He turned to leave but was stopped by Fuery who latched onto his arm. The two pulled, struggling for a moment before Roy slapped them apart.

"Stop it you two! You're making to much noise, she will know we are here!" Roy turned back to Hawkeye, hoping their cover hadn't been blown. He noticed she seemed more tense now, her grip on the swing robes very tight. They waited awhile longer until it started raining harder. Glancing around the park, Roy noticed that Hawkeye was still alone. Where is her date? Thinking back on the day, he realized that she had not talked to anyone. Had he been wrong? A smile came to his face, but was quickly replaced by a confused frown. If she wasn't meeting anyone, then what was she doing?

Roy was interrupted from his thoughts as Havoc began to complain again. Roy and Fuery finally agreed they should go back, only Hawkeye didn't seem to think so. Roy stared at her, unsure what to do.

"Should we go get her? I don't want to be shot either but... we can't just leave her out here? It doesn't look like she even notices the rain," Fuery gestured to Hawkeye who hadn't moved an inch since the rain began.

Havoc shook his head no but Roy finally agreed. Slowly the three men made their way to her from behind. Slowly Roy reached out one hand to lay on her shoulder to get her attention.

"Hello."

Riza slowly made her way from the sidewalk to the swing. She lay her purse on the ground as she lightly kicked back and forth, swaying slowly. Her thought seemed to slow until they fell onto a single memory. She lost track of time as it replayed over and over in her mind. Her grip tightened as her eyes began to water slightly though she refused to cry. Long ago she had cried, not now. Though it didn't seem that long ago. She could still hear them behind her, tree's rustling under their footsteps. Her eyes flew open as her body froze.

Her mind began to race, her heat beating faster and faster. She heard them, she knew she did. Their voices muttering, standing there waiting. A small piece of her was yelling, telling her grab the gun in her purse, but she couldn't. Slowly that rational piece of her mind was gone as fear filled her body. She was lost, no longer herself but a young girl frozen in terror. Her mind was running. Did they know she was here? Could they hear her heart as it beat?

Her muscles tensed as she heard it, the footsteps. Step by step they came closer, sealing her fate once again. She could feel them, even as her eyes fell shut, willing herself to be anywhere but here. It seemed as though her heart stopped beating as they came behind her. Her body was paralyzed with fear as the hand came to rest on shoulder, a deep voice cutting into the silence. Mind overwhelmed, her body fell back unconscious.

Well this chapter messed up soI had to delete it and repost it. I am sorry for the long wait but after the holidays new classes kicked in full force, along with track (so painful), then when I got home I was too tired to write and...why am I going on? You don't care! lol well please take a look at my Royai oneshot, kinda cute. Thanks again for reading and please review! I write faster when I think people actually want to read! Sorry this chapter is a little short but I wanted to update!