Hey guys, I hit triple digits! -dances- I feel so proud!
If anyone is reading this story and wondering if I'm gonna update the other, the answer is no. Sorry, I'm just way too tired. The chapter will be horrible if I write it now... -yawns- I shopped for six and a half hours straight today, so give me a break... I only got one thing, 'cause it costed all my money: Rurouni (sp? too lazy to remember...) Kenshin DVD. And the store is closing, so I can't return it. Plus, the disk was scratched... TT I hope it works...
Anyways, I think I'm improving on my writing skills.The chapters are getting longer, and I'm actually enjoying proofreading them.
Some of you may be wondering, "Why did you include kidnapping in this? It doesn't make sense!" Well, I kind of did the whole first thing so that Tohma would be friends with Shuichi. (Yeah, stupid huh?) But it made it seem more realistic and detailed, don't ya think? The reason had development and purpose behind it.
Well, this is sort of a two-part story. I should've just done a sequel after Yuki saw Shuichi, but I'm an idiot. (Chapter 11 I think... Not sure...To sleepy to look it up...)Let's leave it at that, kay? READ AND REVIEW!
Warnings (yes, there are warnings!): There is slight swearing,(OMG!) and talk of rape. (NOOOO!)
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. -is to tired to think up some excuse or pointless reason...-
Chapter 16: Hatred and Love
Shuichi drifted into a deep, deep sleep. Not even a train could awaken him now. And part of him didn't even WANT to wake up. He would have to face so many things, like the kidnappers and Yuki. What would he tell his precious Yuki? 'He's mad at me' Shuichi thought in his feverish dream. 'I pushed him away… I'm so evil…' He let out a groan and closed his eyes tighter. Memories of the kidnappers plagued his mind.
Meanwhile, Yuki let the recent events register in his mind. He found Shuichi in another room, unconscious and blood stained. Then, Shuichi woke up. When Yuki tried to comfort Shuichi, Shuichi pushed him away and fainted into his arms. Why? And then, something happened that broke his heart. HIS Shuichi was suffering through some sort of nightmare, and Yuki couldn't wake him up.
Shuichi's breaths were fast and labored. He was covered in more sweat than before, and he was shaking. He rolled around the floor, thrashing and kicking Yuki. Yuki didn't mind. Shuichi seemed troubled by something that Yuki couldn't name.
Yuki tried once again to awaken the singer. He hated seeing him like this. It was like the end of the world, because Shuichi was suffering, and he could do absolutely NOTHING, except try to wake him up, which hadn't succeeded yet. He definitely couldn't bring his singer's high fever down, because he didn't even have a cloth or a bed. So he couldn't help him that way either.
Yuki shook Shuichi with frustration. 'I'm his lover!' Yuki yelled inside his mind. 'And I can't do anything to help him! What the heck is he dreaming about anyway?' Yuki waited for some kind of response to the shaking. There was none. Yuki sighed angrily.
"Shuichi…" he whispered flatly. "Please…wake up, will ya? You're creeping me out…" He paused and looked at Shuichi's face. He noticed that his lips were starting to move, as if he was trying to say something…
"P-p-please…s-s-stop…" Shuichi whimpered. "D-don't…" Yuki cringed. Shuichi's pleas had no hope behind them. It was as if he was saying them just because he felt he had to. It was earth shattering and….sad. Yuki had no clue what Shuichi was talking about, but he was determined to find out.
"N-n-no!" Shuichi said, with a little more strength. "No…" And then, he stopped talking entirely. But that just increased his struggling. He was thrashing and kicking harder than before, trying to make Yuki release him. 'Why does he want to get away from me, even in his sleep?' Yuki wondered sadly. 'Does he truly hate me because I left him?'
"N-n-n-n-not again, please, no…" Shuichi whimpered. Apparently, he was talking again, so there was less struggling. Yuki almost sighed in relief. His stomach was getting sore from the thrashes… 'Wait, not AGAIN?' Yuki wondered. 'What does that mean? It happened before… But WHAT happened exactly? Oh, I hope the brat wakes up soon. This is frustrating!' He growled furiously.
Shuichi kicked Yuki hard in the stomach, causing the novelist to fall backwards. "What the--?" He groaned and clutched his stomach. "Why'd ya do that?" he demanded. He looked at Shuichi and frowned. Shuichi was still unconscious, much to Yuki's surprise. He thought that such force could only come from conscious people. Apparently, he was wrong…
Shuichi shook with fear, his eyelids still blocking his view of the world. He only saw darkness and figments of the past, not the present. They made him cry out and aimlessly thrash around, until he finally calmed down. He started whimpering again, and tears dripped down from his face.
"Shuichi!" Yuki called. He was no longer in pain, and attempted to grab Shuichi. He didn't want the idiot to hurt himself. "Snap out of it!" He clutched Shuichi again, this time not even letting go if he was kicked very hard. He held on, and hoped for the best.
Shuichi fell limp into Yuki's arms, and stopped stirring. Yuki thanked God for that, because he too was getting tired. He sighed and hugged Shuichi lightly. He closed his eyes and waited for Shuichi to wake up.
Meanwhile, Tohma's private cell phone rang. Tohma growled and set down his latest document. It was about a new band that was trying to get signed to NG called Four-Leaf Clover. Tohma had read the paper with little interest. Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper were so popular that he doubted any band would be able to get as far. If the band couldn't do great, Tohma would put them up as opening bands. That was all they would be good for. Just by looking at them, he could tell they wouldn't get anywhere good.
"Hello?" Tohma asked politely as he answered the phone, using his famous smile and voice. It annoyed some people, but came in use during fancy parties where everyone like a rich man with a nice grin.
He wondered who called. He thought it could be one of the following: Eiri, Tatsuha or Mika. He knew that it probably wasn't Eiri, since Eiri only called during emergencies. And he knew it wasn't Mika because she was supposed to be at a movie theater. (No cell phones allowed!) Unless something happened at the theater, she couldn't exactly find out bad news either. No one could call her and tell her something. She was an unlikely suspect.
So he immediately thought it was Tatsuha, asking for Ryuichi's autograph or something… Tatsuha had never called before, because he always thought Mika would ask Tohma for the autograph or get Mika to have Ryuichi sign something and give it to him. But, maybe he decided to go right to the source this time. Maybe Tatsuha found his brain in his closet somewhere. Who knew?
Or maybe it was an emergency, and any one of them called. Tohma didn't show his worry though; he was quite good at doing so, unless Eiri was involved. Then Tohma turned into a nervous wreck, sort of like Sakano on a normal day.
"Hello" a stern, masculine voice said huskily. "Is this Tohma Seguchi?" Tohma raised a brow in confusion. It was masculine, so it couldn't be Mika. And Eiri was never so polite. He usually just said, "Get over here, nitwit, or I'll rip your head out!" So, it had to be Tatsuha, right? Wrong. Tatsuha had a more cheerful and carefree voice, so it wasn't him. Who was it?
"Yes, it is" Tohma said slowly. He listened carefully for a response. There was heavy breathing and laughter in the background. Tohma frowned. "Who is this, might I ask?" The laughter became louder, causing Tohma to narrow his eyes.
"It's a friend" was all the man said. He seemed very confident in whatever he was about to say. "And I have some very bad news for you."
"Who is this?" Tohma repeated as calmly as possible. "I have many friends. Which one are you?"
"I'm the power-hungry one who has just kidnapped Yuki Eiri and Shuichi Shindou" the man said happily. Tohma gasped. 'This is just a prank' Tohma thought. 'How could they get kidnapped? They're in a hospital for god's sake! I should have this man reported to the police! And now I have to change my cell phone number…' Tohma sighed angrily. 'I can't have people calling me while I'm supposed to be working!'
"I'm sorry, but that can't be correct" Tohma said matter-of-factly. "Eiri and Shindou are currently at the hospital right now. There is no possible way that you kidnapped them in such a public area without someone seeing or catching you." There was another laugh.
"Ha-ha!" the man said. "Check for yourself! You won't find them here, because I have them. And when you realize that I'm not joking, sign NG over to me, Soubi Seguchi, or I don't think either of your friends will survive." The line immediately went dead. Tohma frowned and gasped. 'Soubi?' he thought. 'How could he? No, this is all a joke he's playing on me… Yes, but just to be sure…' He picked up his other phone.
"Hello, Ms. Burns, can you have someone personally check the hospital for Shuichi Shindou and Yuki Eiri?" Tohma asked nervously. He paused. "This is very important. Send someone NOW. And have them report back to me immediately. Yes, thank you Ms. Burns." Tohma hung up the phone and sighed. 'I hope he's lying,' Tohma thought, 'for Shuichi and Yuki's sake, and his.' He had always been worried about Eiri, but now he also cared for Shuichi. That made the phone call a 'double whammy'. Two people who were very important to him could be in danger. Tohma clenched his teeth together, waiting for someone to tell him that Shuichi and Yuki were, indeed, at the hospital. Or at least that's what he wanted to hear.
Meanwhile, Yuki let go of Shuichi and let him collapse on to Yuki's stomach. He sighed heavily and touched Shuichi's forehead. He let out a gasp. Shuichi's temperature had risen, that was for sure. Yuki bit his lip. He didn't know what to do. He felt helpless and unneeded.
"Hmm!" Yuki thought. He carefully placed Shuichi on the ground and walked over to the hundreds of baskets in the room. "Maybe there's a cloth or something that I can use in one of these boxes…" He trailed off and started opening boxes.
An hour later, he found some useful items. Looking at them in a different situation, he would've never used these things to bring down Shuichi's fever. But that was all he had, and he was desperate. Desperate people like Yukifind ways, if there are any.
Yuki found a baby doll's bib that he could use as a cloth. He also found small toy fish tanks with real water inside them. He pondered as to why someone would be stupid enough to put water in play fish tanks. Wouldn't the water get dirty after awhile or spill? Yuki scowled.
'Oh well, it's not my problem that everyone at that company is an idiot' Yuki thought. He also found some small blankets to keep Shuichi comfortable. He didn't find a thermometer, some food and water, or a doctor, but that was expected. He took his findings and placed them next to Shuichi.
Yuki put two blankets below Shuichi to make him comfortable, and one on top of him. He dampened the bib and placed it on Shuichi's forehead. Then he sat there, not knowing what else he could do. Suddenly, Shuichi opened his eyes.
Shuichi examined his surroundings carefully. His vision was still blurry, so he could only make out the basic shape of everything. He came across a figure, a man to be exact. Before he could squint and try to see the man's face, a mask appeared on the man. It was black, meaning the kidnappers were here again. Only the man became clear. He was tall and looked tough. Shuichi winced as the man progressed towards him with a wicked smile on his lips
"Shuichi" he said with relief. "You're finally awake." The voice seemed sinister, as if the man was planning something. Shuichi shuddered and tried to sit up and run away. But he couldn't. He was so weak and tired. He started to panic.
"G-get away!" he cried, crawling away from the man. "Please, go away….!" He took a deep breath and watched the man frown. The man said nothing. He just stared at Shuichi with those eyes, which seemed red in Shuichi's mind, red with anger and hatred. "Please, leave me alone!" Shuichi started to cry. He didn't know what to do. The man was still staring at him, seemingly in disbelief. Images of the recent assault ran through his mind. He shuddered and crawled further away from the man.
"P-please, don't do it again…" Shuichi pleaded with all his might. "Don't hurt me again…" Shuichi closed his eyes and took a deep breath. When he opened his eyes, the kidnapper was….hugging him? "Huh?" He looked carefully at the man, since his vision was now clear. "Y-Yuki!" Shuichi cried. "It's you!"
"Who did you think it was?" Yuki asked softly. His face was wet. 'Was he crying?' Shuichi wondered. "Answer me, brat." Shuichi gulped.
"I thought you were…him" Shuichi said in a low voice. Yuki growled and separated himself from Shuichi.
"Who is "him"?" Yuki demanded. His eyes shone with anger and hatred. 'Does he hate ME?' Shuichi thought frantically. He started to cry again as the assault flashed through his mind. He could no longer help himself, and he threw himself into Yuki's arms.
"Please don't let him do it again!" Shuichi pleaded. "Please! Don't let him hurt me… Make him stop… Make him go away… Please…" Yuki's eyes narrowed. He examined Shuichi's clothes again and frowned. Something in his mind clicked.
"Who is he?" Yuki demanded through clenched teeth. His eyes almost seemed red, and he looked ready to kill. Shuichi didn't say anything. He only continued to cry, louder than before. 'It all makes sense now…' Yuki thought angrily. 'His clothes, his urge to get away, and why he pushed me away…. It was because whoever kidnapped us, raped him as well…'
"I said, who is he?" Yuki yelled. "Who the heck raped you, Shuichi? Answer me, darn it!" Shuichi froze. His cries ceased and he looked up at Yuki. He seemed nervous, and maybe even a bit embarassed.
"All of them" he said with a shudder. Yuki glared at Shuichi, though not directly the hatred to him.
"So,you got raped more than once?" he asked in a quiet voice. "They each had a turn, is that right?" Shuichi nodded slowly, almost regretfully. He embraced Yuki and started to cry again.
"Make them stop…" he cried. "Make them go away! Don't let them hurt me, again, please…!" He clutched Yuki's shirt in fear. Surprisingly, Yuki hugged him back, and even tried to soothe the terrified boy. Shuichi just kept on crying, letting Yuki rub his hair. He no longer feared Yuki's touch. Yuki was different. Yuki wouldn't hurt him…
Yuki was furious, but sad. His brat had gotten raped again, several times. Yuki knew how it felt to be raped, and after just one time, he broke. Shuichi got raped several times; would he be able to go back to his happy-go-lucky self? Did these monsters take away his spirit for good? This only angered Yuki further. He had failed to help Shuichi when he needed it most. He was supposed toprotect the brat, and he did a pretty bad job so far.And now he had to watch Shuichi suffer.
'I'll make them pay, Shuichi" Yuki thought with a growl. 'No one is allowed to hurt my brat. And as I said, I will kick anyone's ass who tries to kidnap my boy without permission. (1)" He paused. 'Especially because of what they did to you, Shuichi…' He advised them in his mind to never come back again, for their own safety.
Only one thing was certain to Yuki: These kidnappers had hell to pay.
(1): This came from the manga. Yuki says that, "I've decided, starting now, to kick anyone's ass who kidnaps my boy without my permission." This was after someonekidnapped Shuichi and took him to America, if I recallcorrectly.LOL! Yuki's hilarious!
A/N: So, how'd ya like it? I hope you say, "I love it!" and review,but I guess that would be a dream, huh? Well, please do review! It makes me feel special! (not like special ed!) Oh, and read AND reviewmy other story, Returning Relations, because it's the same kind of genre. (angst and drama! yayness!) Thanks!
Deji: I'm so tired, I can't think of anything to say...
Yuki: Then why are you still typing and adding pointless comments, nitwad? -rolls eyes-
Deji: Because I can't sleep knowing I haven't bugged you.
Yuki: How sweet. You're just like the brat...
Shuichi: I am not a brat!
Yuki: You practically just admitted you were by responding to that name as if it were yours.
Shuichi: -blushes- Shut up!
Deji: Wow, I made all this up as I typed it? Cool... -falls asleep-