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Adam's POV

I could barely contain the eye roll as the girl hanging on my arm babbled away about how her roommate borrowed a shirt of hers. I pretended to listen as best I could, wondering why I'd gone on this date.

I wasn't interested in Kelly. Sure she was nice and all, but definitely not who I wanted to be with. I looked down at her and thought for the millionth time why I'd even asked her out. She was definitely the opposite of what I wanted.

Light blonde hair, dark brown eyes, and skin almost as light as mine.

'It wouldn't be so bad if her hair was darker and her eyes were blue…' I thought then stopped myself. 'No, no doing that Adam. You can't compare everyone to him. It's not right. You can't compare every girl to Charlie.' I wanted to scream but knew not only would it scare Kelly, but everyone around us as we headed to the movie theater.

Yeah me, Mr. Perfect in my parent's eyes and one of the star players for the JV hockey team at Eden Hall was in love with the team captain. How did I know I was in love? I had to hold in the laugh as I thought about the conversation I had with my older brother a few months ago.

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"Hey Danny, do you love Melissa?"

My older brother Danny picked his head up off his pillows, smiled at me and nodded a bit. "Yeah I think I am Adam. Why?" he asked sitting up more and motioning for me to close the door and come sit on his bed with him.

I closed the door and walked over, laying across the blankets next to him on my stomach, propped up on my elbows. We'd always talked like this when we were younger I kind of missed it. "What's it like?" I asked.

I watched his smile grow a bit, his eyes closing shut. "Amazing Adam. I don't know how to describe it."

"How do you know?" I asked.

"Why Adam. Think you're in love?" He asked opening his eyes and tilting his head to look at me. I nodded sheepishly. He smiled a bit and ruffled my hair. "Anyone I should know about?" He asked.

I shrugged. "I just want to know. In case I am I'll know what I should feel instead of being stupid about it," I said explaining. He nodded and put his head back down, focusing his eyes on the ceiling.

"You kind of can't breathe when you first see them and you feel really nervous, like you're the biggest dork on the planet, and you're afraid to do anything or say anything stupid. You get those damn butterflies in your stomach that don't go away anytime soon," he said looking over at me. "Anyone make you feel that way Adam?"

I nodded slowly. "Is it Charlie?" Danny asked. I almost fell off the bed. "Holy shit Adam!" Danny yelled and I jumped over him, covering his mouth with my hands. Danny was the only one who knew I was gay; I'm still shocked that he's okay with it.

When he stopped struggling to talk I pulled my hand away. "Adam, I didn't know Charlie was gay," Danny hissed, staring at me.

I slunk back and off of him. "He's not," I mumbled and pulled a pillow over my face.

"Oh shit, Adam, man I'm sorry," Danny said pulling the pillow away.

"How'd you know? Am I that obvious?" I asked nervously.

"No, but Adam I've known you since you were born and the only hint that it was Charlie was that when you and him got in that fight about the Varsity team you came home crying, mumbling about how Charlie turned his back on you."

I nodded slowly, realizing I had been pretty obvious that night. I didn't even care about the rest of the team hating me, only Charlie.

"It'll be okay Adam," Danny said his arms going around me comfortingly. I sighed and closed my eyes thinking about Charlie.

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Danny was right being in love was amazing. But it hurt so much when the person you were in love with was not only your best friend and team captain, but that they didn't even notice you romantically.

As we approached the doors of the theater I pulled my arm away from Kelly and opened the door for her, offering her the best smile I could muster. She returned the smile and walked inside, me following behind and buying the tickets as I thought about Charlie.

"Come on Adam, let's go find a good seat," Kelly said as we entered the theater, looking for a place to sit among the crowd. We eventually found two seats that were near the right wall, about halfway back. I let her get in first after she told me she wanted the wall seat though that's where I always sat when I came with the Ducks.

I thought about the Ducks as the movie started, watching in shock as one of the actors in the movie reminded me of Charlie. At least I could daydream about him while pretending to be interested in the movie.

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"Thanks for taking me out tonight Adam," Kelly said as we walked into the quad.

"Yeah, thanks for coming, it was fun," I said managing to pull off the lie.

She nodded and kissed my cheek before walking off towards her dorms. I sighed and kicked a pebble heading towards mine.

I walked into my dorm and was shocked to see Charlie scribbling something down, a history book open in front of him. "Charlie Conway doing homework," I said drawing attention from my roommate. Yes, I shared a room with Charlie. Amazing how fate works, isn't it? "Now I've seen everything," I said laughing and clapping my hand on his shoulder.

"Hey Banks," Charlie greeted only offering me a quick glance away from his paper. "How was your date?"

"It was okay."

"You going to ask her out again? She seemed nice." Charlie said.

"I don't know. I don't think she's my type," I said shrugging my coat off and hanging it up.

Charlie let out a small laugh. "What is your type Banks?"

"I'm not sure yet. I'll let you know when I figure it out," I said taking a deep breath and gathering up things to go take a shower. With one last glance I looked over at Charlie and thought, 'You're my type. Too bad you're not interested.' I walked into the bathroom and closed the door and locked it, leaning my head against the wooden frame.

"Things never get easier," I whispered before turning on the water.