A/N-Thanks to those who reviewed Chapter 2, Thanks to my muse/friend forgottenangel and thanks to my Beta Masucree.

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Chapter 3-Rin's P.O.V right after death.

I suppose I had my death coming. I disobeyed one of the greatest rules of my kind. But I get ahead of myself. My story with Sesshie starts back in the time of Inutaishou.

If it weren't for me Sesshomaru would never have been born.

For Inutaishou was just as cold and icy as his son was also, proud, arrogant and extremely cold to everyone around him. Then a young girl by the name of Kayia came into his life. She followed him and provided him with companionship he hadn't known he needed, even when it wasn't wanted. Slowly she melted his heart and made him ready for his first wife Kida and then for Izayoi. But the day before he met Kida she vanished from his life.

Kayia was I. Who am I? An angel. I am sent by the Kamis to melt the hearts of those who are too hardened to feel the gentle brush of love. I'm designated to thaw them, then vanish just before they meet who they are destined to love.

The sad part is we are not allowed to actually fall in love ourselves. It is believed that will distract us from our jobs.

With Inutaishou I was informed from the beginning the consequences of falling for him and him falling for me. I knew that if I interfered the slightest bit, fell in love the slightest bit…I would be taken from him before my mission was done. And he would freeze up again and reject, not only Kida, his soul mate but also Izayoi. If Izayoi had been rejected, Inuyasha never would have been born, Kikyo would have lived out her live in peace, free from Naraku's stain and Kagome would have never existed. Events destined to take place at the dawn of time would not come to pass, throwing the world into an upheaval.

So conscious was I of this fact that, while I appeared a cheery companion, inside I remained emotionally detached as I possibly could.

Then I was given Sesshomaru as an assignment. It seemed to be the same basic thing that I had done with his father, melt him until he was capable of falling in love with someone.

But when is life ever that simple?

For this time I lacked the foresight of the consequences of love I had been given with his father. I didn't know the long-range consequences that would happen if Sesshie turned his newly unfrozen gaze on me. And so I forgot to remain detached, and committed my- according to the Kamis- fatal sin.

It is repeated over and over in my head, just before I go to sleep at night. A message from where I belong. "Do not fall in love with him. If you fall in love with him you will be killed and his heart will freeze over again. You will fail" wraith-like voices whispered to me. What was, for the longest time, a gentle reminder became a recurring nightmare. For I had failed at this. I had fallen.

One kiss. The Kamis allowed him to kiss me once before they completed vengeance upon me. "I'll come back you." These mockeries rang in my ears as my mortal eyes shut. To come back I would need to directly defy the Kamis, something that has never been done by one of my kind. Infinite pain as my immortal soul-my angelic being- is torn from my mortal body.

I was standing now, looking down on him, hugging my fallen body. He was being wrongfully punished for a crime I committed. How could they do this to him even if I had defied them? There was something wrong with this 'no forgiveness' mentality.

Suddenly I was no longer alone. Three specters accompanied me, Inutaishou, his first wife Kida and his second wife Izayoi. "Kayia." Inutaishou said in his deep voice, calling me by his name for me. "I'm sure you know exactly why this mortal body of yours has expired."

I just kind of floated there, not aware of anything he was saying, uncertain of what exactly was going on until Kida reached out and gently touched my shoulder. Only then did my waiflike body slump to the ground, defeated by the situation, tears pouring down my cheeks. She took me into her arms and said "Hush" in her mother like voice. I spoke through the sobs "I love him Kida. I need to stay with him. I don't care about the consequences."

Izayoi broke into my revere with a soft, gentle reminder "If you defy them…you, better than any of us know the cost."

Something inside me snapped and I found my soul to be beyond caring about 'consequences' and 'costs' at this point. My very being just cried out to stay with him, and to forget moving on. Using a bit of my power I made the walls transparent so that any spirits could see straight through them. Across the palace was a woman going into labor. I sensed the child and, upon discovering it was female, raced to the mother's side.

I placed my translucent hand on the swollen mother's belly and drew out the soul of the child. She looked at me with some degree of confusion before I explained the situation. She gladly took from me all but a shard of my powers-these I used to create a seal in my memories so that I would forget all of my past memories, in essence starting fresh with this new baby.

Just as I was finishing Kida came into the room. She saw the look of determination on my face and a expression of resignation crossed her own visage. "We'll protect you as best we can."

5 minutes later Kieko bore into the world a new baby girl. The exhausted new mother, along with the anxious father named her Riki.

Izayoi, ever the voice of caution said "Kida you promise too much. What will happen to us for hiding this deception?" Kida sighed and said "I have no idea." The silver haired female Inu sent a side-long glance at the raven haired beauty on the other side of her mate. "Wouldn't you do the same if this was Inuyasha and Kagome?" Izayoi was caught off-guard with this and said no more. Kida turned back to the new little family. "May the Kamis reserve judgment on her whose only crime was loving him too much."