Summary: Set after "Bridesmaids Revisited". Lorelai decides to make one last effort to repair her relationship with Luke but could end up losing everything.

Disclaimer: Lorelai, Luke and their entire relationship do not belong to me.

Notes: So apparently I'm making a trend of sad LL stories where they break up or in one case Luke dies. I try my best to get them back together in the end (of course when Luke was dead that was kinda impossible). But without conflict, there would really be no story. I guess it all comes from where GG is right now, or at least where Luke and Lorelai are right now, causing me to either jump through my TV and actually yell at TV characters or just write about them doing what they should do instead of continuing to be stupid. Anyways, no one really cares what I'm writing here, so here's the next chapter.

Her Biggest Mistake

Rory runs up the stairs at home, almost taking flight with how fast she's going. When she gets in the doorway to Lorelai's room, she stops, gasping for breath. Lorelai is curled up on her side of the bed, facing away from the door. "Mom," Rory calls softly. She climbs onto the bed next to Lorelai, but is surprised to find no tears on Lorelai's face. "Mom, what happened?"

Lorelai turns over on her back, looking up at the ceiling, folding her hands over her stomach. "It's over," she says quietly. Rory looks confused as she tucks a piece of hair behind her ear.

"With Luke?" Lorelai nods. "What happened?" Lorelai shrugs.

"I was really stupid," Lorelai says vaguely. She sighs. "I stopped taking my birth control but that's not the stupid part, the stupid part comes when I told him. I told him." She giggles a little hysterically. "I told him. I mean, I was an idiot. I could have just not told him, gotten pregnant and then he would never know the reason. Things happen. But I told him. I'm like that big hairy guy from Harry Potter who goes and says things to Harry and then realizes he shouldn't have said them."

"No you're not," Rory assures her, lying down next to her. Rory's face is facing Lorelai.

"And I'm a hypocrite. I told Christopher that just because I was pregnant with you, didn't mean things were going to work out for us. And I was right. So, I, Lorelai Gilmore, of all people, should know that getting pregnant isn't enough to keep two people together!" Rory reaches out and rubs Lorelai's arm, not saying anything. Lorelai lifts up her hand, again seeing her bare left ring finger and a tear runs down her cheek. Rory stares at Lorelai's hand.

"Are you guys not getting married?" Rory asks. Lorelai shakes her head. "Because of the birth control thing?" Lorelai sighs, but shakes her head. Rory looks confused. "Then why? What happened, Mom?" Lorelai frowns, trying her best to hold herself together.

"We fought. Not like any fight we had before because neither of us was really listening to the other. And when it was over, Luke said that it was too much for him and left," Lorelai says. Her right hand is playing with her left ring finger as if the engagement ring were still there. "So last night, I went to the diner, to – I don't know what I was going to do…"

"You wanted to tell him that you wanted to be with him?" Rory asks. Lorelai shrugs, still seeming conflicted.

"Well I didn't say that, in fact I didn't really say anything. April was there and I didn't really want to start anything in front of her. But I did apologize, for the whole birth control thing, but he didn't want to listen, or at least he wanted to continue not listening." Lorelai covers her face with her hands. "So I left."

"You left? You didn't even try to get him to talk?"

"April was there," Lorelai reminds Rory. "I don't want her to hate me."

"No one could ever hate you, even Hitler would call you his friend," Rory tells her. Lorelai smirks. "So you went home?" Lorelai shakes her head.

"No, I was going to go home, but I could feel its darkness and emptiness and I just wasn't ready for that. So I ended up on the bench in the gazebo, where Luke found me not long after. And he held me, no words, no sounds, just him and his arms, surrounding me, just as he had always done before," Lorelai says, feeling his arms once again around her. Rory smiles softly, knowing how happy Luke has made her mother.

"Well that's good, isn't it?"

"Yeah, it was. But he thought that fixed everything, I mean he even thanked me for apologizing. The nerve!" Lorelai shakes her head angrily. "So I told him he was wrong, everything was not fixed. The birth control had just been my stupid solution to our much bigger problem. He had been pulling away and, I don't want to blame April, but it started around the time she showed up. Luke lied to me, Rory, and I know I said I understood but he lied to me! I mean I guess it wasn't actual lying but we promised, no secrets. Over and over he made me promise, but I guess I should have made him take the oath too. And then he wouldn't let me in and it sucked, I was being shut out of his life, his life with April, everything. He used to know me, and not just in the biblical sense, I mean really know me." Lorelai crosses her arms over her chest. "Rory, you remember, even before we were dating, he knew me."

"I remember," Rory replies softly.

"He claimed it was because he thought I didn't really want to be with him, to which I reminded him that I was the one who proposed and he claimed that was to fill the gap you had left."

"Wasn't it?" Rory asks. Lorelai glances over at Rory for the first time, suddenly realizing that Rory was thinking the same thing as Luke all along and wonders for a moment if that's what everyone has been thinking. She sighs, looking back at the ceiling.

"A little. But I wanted to marry him, that much was true. I told him I proposed because I loved him," Lorelai tells Rory.

"That's good." Lorelai shrugs.

"I said loved, past tense."

"Oh."

"Oh is right." Lorelai rubs her forehead. "So then I told him I shouldn't have apologized and I shouldn't have gone to the diner at all and left, because I couldn't take it anymore. I was standing there loving a man who I didn't know, who wasn't actually there anymore. Pod Luke."

"Like Invasion of the Body Statchers?" Lorelai nods.

"Exactly." She sighs. "I just keep thinking about what he said – the first thing he said – when he walked into the gazebo – he said I am Heathcliff. And the whole time he was holding me, it was all I could think about."

"Heathcliff, like from Wuthering Heights?" Rory asks.

"Or the cat."

"I don't think Luke was saying he's a cat."

"True, although I never really saw Luke reading Wuthering Heights either," Lorelai responds.

"Huh, true, so Luke is Heathcliff?" Lorelai shrugs. "Huh."

"I keep remembering Heathcliff's line, 'I cannot live without my life, I cannot live without my soul'," Lorelai recalls sadly.

"Emily Bronte was amazing."

"She still is. I mean if Luke is Heathcliff, then I'm Catherine Earnshaw. She couldn't live without him either. She said that to Nelly, when she said she couldn't marry him because he was more her than she was. She said that 'whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same'." Lorelai presses her lips together. "So true." Another tear drifts down Lorelai's cheek.

"Then I'm Cathy Linton?" Rory asks, trying to lighten the mood. Lorelai glances over at Rory and nods. "And I'm supposed to marry Luke's son, who is…?" Lorelai wrinkles her nose, thinking.

"April?"

"Gross!" Rory exclaims. Lorelai smiles and pats Rory's arm.

"We don't have to take it that far, Sweetie." Lorelai looks back at the ceiling, recrossing her arms. "He couldn't live without her and she couldn't live without him, but she had to because he didn't stay one more second to hear her say that she loves him, because he left her alone on the heath." Lorelai laughs suddenly. "What is a heath anyways?"

"I think it's like a moor or something," Rory answers. They hear a loud noise outside and share a look. Rory gets up off the bed and walks over to the window.

"A moor… well that was really helpful," Lorelai responds.

"Oh my God!" Rory exclaims.

"What?"

"There's a moving truck outside!"

"I thought you and Paris were moving all of your stuff to her place not here," Lorelai recalls.

"Mom, I don't think this is for me," Rory says, glancing back at Lorelai, who gives her daughter a strange look.

"Why?"

"Because Luke and a girl, who I would presume is April unless Luke is even stranger than I imagined, are getting out of the truck," Rory responds. Lorelai sits up.

"What?" Lorelai walks over and looks out the window. From there she can see Luke opening the back of the truck. He helps April climb inside and glances up at Lorelai's window. Seeing the girls watching him, Luke nods. Lorelai raises a hand in a wave, a bewildered look on her face.