I'm back! Didn't take that long, did it? But don't expect me to be this fast all the time; this chapter was almost done when I published the first one… so before you get any ideas I just wanna make it clear to everyone that…. I'M NOT A MACHINE! So don't expect too much of me…
Disclaimer: I don't own digimon
Warnings: ...um...a sad Yamato?
Now, ladies and gents, your story is served!
Chapter two
Man, was I freaked out! I was worried about what he was thinking, what he would do, what was going to happen, etc, etc.
I wanted to talk to him; still I wanted to avoid him.
I wanted to die; still I wanted to knock some sense into him.
I wanted to be a girl, and at the same time I wanted to let the world know that there was nothing wrong with me.
Wait…was there something wrong with me? Is it just simply wrong to fall in love with the same sex?
What makes it wrong? Huh? Who decided that? Someone must have started, and then made everyone listen.
Or maybe it's simply because it's different. Yeah, of course it's because it's different. It's new, it's not normal. It's wrong!
Tai thought so too.
He didn't know me anymore. Even though I hadn't changed. Even though I was still the same Matt. Somehow he just didn't recognise me anymore. Somehow our friendship was gone.
I hated him.
I thought he was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
I HATED him.
I wanted him to kiss me.
I've never hated anyone that much. Ever.
I never stopped dreaming.
He was the same Tai he'd always been. He laughed and smiled, talked to everyone, played football and encouraged his playmates. High fives, cheer ups, doing The Winners-dance. Still not mean against the losers.
That's Tai. Always nice. Always happy. Everyone's favourite.
He never shot me death glares, he didn't roll his eyes when I walked past him. He didn't tell anyone that I was gay.
At some point I was actually disappointed. I wanted to have a reason to be mad at him, to yell at him. I couldn't just walk up and say 'Why aren't you talking to me? Why don't you say hi or hang out with me?'
I had no reason to yell, or blame. He didn't bother me, he didn't threat me, he didn't mock me or spread rumours about me... He was innocent. I was the ugly, gay one who kissed boys when they are sleeping.
So that was it. Yamato Ishida and Taichi Yagami were no longer best friends. Nobody seemed to mind. Tai had lots of other friends (not to say fans) and I… Well, I just went back to the way I was before Tai and I became best friends.
Alone.
I was pretty shoked by how easy it was to go back to that. I mean Tai and I had been mates for what –10 years? Well, maybe 9…nine and a half…
Whatever, my point is; I immediately fell back into the Lonewolf-role. It suited me, somehow.
I stopped going to parties. I didn't fall in love. I didn't call anyone to ask if we could Hang Out Or Somethin'. I didn't ask my dad if I could spend the night at Tai's. I walked home alone. I spend the Friday nights doing homework, playing TV games or watch TV.
After a couple of weeks my dad –out of nowhere- bought me a puppy. Well, it was actually one year old and it could already sit and role and bark.
I'd never asked for a puppy. But it was cute and I loved it.
So I started take him out for walks. I trained him, I played with him, I even talked to him. He was like a new Tai. With a tail.
One day I was walking Sally –yes, that's my dog's name. For almost a week I thought she was a he and called her Spike- down the street and saw my ex friend. He was walking alone –witch was highly unusual- carrying a football. He didn't see me and I considered turning around and walk somewhere else so that we wouldn't have to meet, but after thinking for a while I realised it was too late. He briefly looked at me. He had a sort of relaxed, natural expression with a small smile in the corner of his mouth, showing that he was a happy person with a happy life. Then he saw Sally and stopped. Sally ran into him and wagged her tail, sniffing and wanted to be patted. He bent down and patted her,babbling things you usually say to dogs. I stood and watched, feeling awkward.
"What's his name?" Tai suddenly asked, not looking up at me. I changed foot nervously.
"Uh… it's a girl. Sally" I mumbled.
"Hi Sally!" Tai chirped, and ruffed her fur. Sally licked his face and he laughed. I looked at the scene. I wished I was a cute dog and could do that.
Tai finally stood up, looking at his shoes and stamping his foot against the ground.
"So what's up?"
"Uh… nothin'…" I said and immediately regretted it. Now there was nothing left to say. I was just about to go when he said
"Do you wanna come and play football?"
I looked at him strangely. I don't know why, but I wanted to say no. Then it hit me that if I did, he'd just find someone else to play football with.
I nodded. "Okay."
"Cool."
We walked in silence. Sally ran between us, back and forward, stopped once in while to… uh, you know, do her stuff.
It felt like I was walking beside a stranger. A stranger I had to impress, like on a blind-date.
I hate blind-dates…
He asked me a little about Sally and I answered very briefly. Yes. No. Yeah. I don't know. Okay.
Every time I'd said something I hated myself. I wanted to say something better, something more laid-back or something nicer. He must've thought I was the most boring person in whole universe. Why didn't I just say something more? How hard could that be?
After a while we reached the park. To my disappointment I noticed that some kids were already playing on the small football ground. Tai just went right over and placed the football on the ground. All the kids were chasing their ball on the other side. They hadn't noticed Tai. Yet.
Soon they turned, running against the other goal where Tai was kicking and doing all kinds of tricks.
"Hey! We're playing here, man! You can't just-"
"Fuck off!"
I just gaped at him. Did he actually say that? Although those kids were certainly not older than us, they weren't that much younger either. And there were at least twelve of them.
"What did you say?"
Tai hadn't even bothered to look up at them, he just continued kicking his ball back and forward, up on the knee, and then heading the ball into the goal.
"I'm talking to you, buttface!"
The others gathered around the guy who was trying to get Tai's attention. They all seemed to wait for the two of them to start fighting. Tai finally showed some attention as he turned around and faced him.
"Yes?"
"I said you can't play here, we're playing"
Tai started walking towards him.
"Yeah. I heard." Tai stopped right in front of him, gazing challenging at him. "But I said; fuck. Off."
All the others held their breath, thinking the same thing.
'Fight, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight…!'
Tai and the leader continued glaring at each other, both refusing to back off. However, it seemed (to me, at least) that Tai wasn't gonna be the first one to give up, since he actually seemed to enjoy this. He had a small smirk on his face, obviously having fun mocking the guy. As seconds slowly went by, the leader looked more and more frustrated and uncomfortable. After thirty seconds, he growled and turned away from Tai's smirk.
"Let's go." he muttered to the guys as he passed them. They followed, looking very disappointed.
I looked at Tai who immediately had started to kick the ball again.
"You're insane." I informed him.
"I knew he didn't have the balls for it. What a chicken."
"He's like ten years old! You're a real bully." I said, feeling sorry for the guy.
"Give me a break! He'll be playing here again tomorrow. And the next day, and the next… it's not like I destroyed his football, or sommin."
"No, but his self-esteem." Tai looked up.
"What's up your ass? C'mon, I scared the kids away, let's play!"
I didn't say anything, suddenly remembering that I didn't have the right. Why was I being such a bitch about this? This was my only chance to be with him. Maybe tomorrow it would all go back to the way it was yesterday and he would never speak to me again. This way a great opportunity.
If today was the last time I got to spend some time with my best friend why should I spend it on pissing him off?
I tied Sally's leash to a bench and walked out on the grass.
"You'll be the goalkeeper, okay?"
I sighed. Not only did I hate football, I was afraid of balls. Eheh, footballs, I mean.
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"Matt, for fuck sake! You're supposed to catch it, not run away from it!"
"Hey, I'm doing my best y'know!"
Tai sighed deeply, letting me know how disappointed he was at me. I felt really ashamed.
"Alright let's switch then," he muttered.
"Um… okay." I mumbled, not taking my eyes off my shoes. As we passed each other, he patted my shoulder, like I always saw him doing to his playmates when they were playing. I've always been jealous of them.
"C'mon Matt, I know you suck at football."
I stopped and turned around, wondering if he'd been serious. Hearing that from him hurt me more than anything. Why did he keep mocking me?
Then I saw him grinning at me. After two seconds of staring, I grinned back.
Okay, so maybe we weren't completely strangers after all. We were back to best friends. At least for now, when no one was there to catch the football-star hanging out with the fag.
Well, that's it! Chapter nr two XD please review people, it means a LOT to me
PS, I made some small changes on this one too, but it's nothing huge, except that I changed the number of years Tai and Matt had known each other. Other than that I just spell-checked a little.