Answers Chapter 1: Tell Me Why, a lost fanfic

Title: Chapter 1- Tell me why

Rating: M

Pairing: Jack/Kate

Summary: First chapter based on upcoming Jate Jungle Trek in episode 17-Lockdown. Not meant to be realistic but rather idealistic ;)

Warnings: Slight spoilers for episode 9 WKD & episode 11 THP. Not wanting to give the whole story away but it may quite possibly involve erm...non-verbal copulation...

Status of fic: Work In progress

Author's Notes: Bear in mind when you read this that firstly it is not meant to be realistic and secondly it is my first attempt at serious fan fiction as my speciality is writing the weirdest LOTR parody ever created...so don't be too harsh please :p Also I had trouble writing the certain scene in the middle so any suggestions for improvement are welcome!

Disclaimer: I currently don't own Jack, Kate or lost but I am planning on stealing them shortly...

Tell me why

"Jack when are you are you going to stop this?"

He didn't turn around but kept walking ahead of her.

"Jack?"

"Stop what Kate?"

"Ignoring me all the time"

"Just leave it Kate"

"No I won't just leave it!" She shouted, pulling him round to face her, needing him to understand, "I said I was sorry! I said I was wrong! I didn't mean to hurt you Jack. I didn't mean…Just what the hell do you want me to do!"

"What do I want Kate!" he shouted back, emotion consuming his voice- was it hurt, anger, even hatred? She didn't know. "I want you to stop lying to me! I want you to stop pretending there is nothing between us! I want you to stop running! I want you to tell me why!"

She could see tears building up in his eyes and she could finally read him- she saw hurt, she saw how betrayed he felt and tears began to form in her own eyes.

"I can't Jack" she pleaded, turning away from him

"Oh yes you can Kate. You're not running from me again- not this time. Just tell me, tell me why" he demanded grabbing her arm & forcing her to face him again.

"Jack don't! I can't to this! I just can't"

"Just tell me why you kissed me Kate! Tell me why you ran! Tell me why you came after us!"

"Because I wanted to! Because I was afraid of what I felt! Because I couldn't bare the thought that you could be hurt! I still got your back Jack- that's why"

"Then why do you keep shutting me out! You regret it don't you?"

"No of course I don't- I just don't want you to die!"

"Why would I die Kate?"

"Forget it. It's nothing. I just…Do you regret it? And why the hell wouldn't you let me come with you?"

"There you go again Kate; you're not trusting me. I couldn't bare the thought that you could get hurt or even killed! No I don't regret it the kiss, I just regret not kissing you back properly…" He admitted looking deep into her green eyes. She returned the depth of his gaze.

"Jack…"

"Kate I'm so sorry. I've been such an ass. Come here"

He pulled into his arms, holding her safe, his warm embrace enveloping her and making her feel wanted again, making her feel needed. He started to rub her back up and down, the bare skin of his hands meeting the bare skin of her back, burning her and sending a shiver down her spine at the same time. After standing there for some time they reluctantly pulled apart- they needed to find somewhere to make camp for the night.

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She couldn't sleep. She sat up leaning against a tree, hugging her knees tight to her body, shivering in the cold that their small fire was failing to relieve her from. He was lying down on his side on the jungle floor, facing away from her. She knew he was awake too, wished she was lying down next to him, feeling his strong arms hold her gently to him, but she couldn't let him in- he deserved so much better.

A cold wind whipped past her, making her gasp loudly. Jack sat up immediately and looked over at her, concern apparent on his face in the fire light.

"Hey" he said softly, "You look cold. Come here"

She had wished for it only minutes before, but was still reluctant to give in, reluctant to give in to this emotion that she had promised never to allow herself to feel again.

"Don't worry Jack, I'm fine. I just can't sleep that's all"

"Well you're not going to succeed if you sit there shivering Kate. Come here."

She looked into his eyes, seeing that he cared and seeing something else too, something much more profound- did he feel what she did? It was those eyes that forced her to relent and walk over to lie down next to him. He wrapped his sweatshirt round her shoulders and pulled her to him tight causing her heart to beat hard and fast and goosebumps to form all over her body. She breathed deeply trying to calm her racing heart and mind. She thought she felt his heart's pace match her own against her back. He placed a slow kiss on her cheek, and then another on her jaw his lips just grazing her neck.

"Kate…" he breathed her name softly against her neck massaging her shoulders at the same time.

Long restrained passion leapt from them both and she turned to face him desperately seeking sweet release. His hand cupped her cheek and he gently massaged it with his thumb, his breath becoming heavy. He moved his hand to the back of her neck and pulled her head forward so that his lips would meet hers, kissing her softly with just his lips at first, but then placing his tongue in to collide with hers deepening the kiss. Desperate need for each other soared through them both and their kiss became harder and more passionate as Jack pushed Kate down underneath him. Jack moved his lips away from hers as they sought her neck, his tongue grazing her skin and causing her to groan with pleasure. He moved down to her collarbone and her hands sought the buttons on his shirt, yanking it from him to expose his naked flesh as he pulled her tank top over her head at the same time so they could feel their skin against each other.

Jack returned his lips to hers kissing passionately as he unhooked her bra. He had been moving his hand down her sides but now they cupped her breasts, his thumbs rotating around them, increasing Kate's need to feel him inside her. She could feel him hard underneath the denim that preventing them both from coming together. She grabbed at his pants and pulled them down, followed by his boxers revealing him at last. He moved his hands to remove her own pants and knickers, while his mouth now nibbled at her right nipple and sucked gently. As he grabbed her thighs and was about to move into her, realisation struck.

"Jack" she gasped. He looked up her, his need to be within her covering his face. "Jack we don't have protection"

His expression became one of distress and he looked pleadingly at her. "Kate I need you"

"I know Jack. I need you too. I don't care- let's risk it"

"You sure?" he looked at her questioningly trying to control his desperation in an attempt to be sensible.

"It's a risk worth taking"

"But what if-"

She silenced him by pulling him to her again, putting her tongue back into his mouth where it belonged and he kissed back with an increased passion she wouldn't have though possible. He rubbed up and down her thighs and then thrust up into her, moving rhythmically and sending electrifying sensations through her body. Their hands had become uncontrollable and desperately sought every inch of each other's exposed flesh. Kate groaned as Jack increased the speed and force of his thrusts, and his lips reached her neck once more. She reached her climax and cried out his name. His eyes turned to hers piercing hers with their intensity. She finally knew it for sure- he felt it too.

"Kate…" he moaned, then began to slow, continuing to explore her body as he did so. Finally hey pulled apart, gasping for breath and finally feeling fulfilled.

Jack placed his arms around Kate's waist and she placed her forehead against his chest kissing it gently. He placed his hand under her chin and pulled her head up to look at him.

"I love you Kate" he said simply with complete conviction, but she knew it anyway without his tone or even his words- his expression or even his silence was enough; she felt it.

She just stared up at him, willing herself to say the words out loud to him, willing herself to confirm what she already knew, but at the same time forcing herself not to. She just didn't want him to get hurt. Everyone she ever cared about, everyone she ever loved got hurt or died.

"Jack…" she said slowly, "I don't want to lose you"

"You're not gonna lose me Kate, I'd have though you'd have realised that by now. I'm here, I love you"

"Jack everyone I have ever loved has got hurt or died. I can't let that happen again"

He looked at her, pitying the struggle she was going through. He wrapped his arms tightly round her, caressing her back.

"Don't be afraid to give in Kate" he whispered.

Slowly she started to count- 1…2…3…4…5

"I love you too Jack"

There she had said it. She had given in and allowed herself to feel again. She felt him smile against her neck and then his lips found their way home confirming the love they had both felt for some time but had tried in vain to suppress.

They both knew it wouldn't be easy. They still had a lot to talk about, a lot they needed each other to know, but for now they would just sleep soundly their bodies entwined in a warm embrace, Jack's hand placed on Kate's toned abdomen, caressing the skin that protected the new life they had jus created unknown to them both.

End of part 1

Okay that was a lot longer on word and it consisted of a sex scene and not much else I'm sorry! The next two parts will have more to them I promise & more good old Jate angst!

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