Title: Bad timing?

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Jack/Kate

Summary: Jack & Kate find out about you-know-what….

Warnings: Some language & sexual references

Author's Notes: Well here's part 2- may change it again as I'm not happy with one part of it, but here it is anyways…

Disclaimer: I still don't own Jack, Kate or Lost dammit!

Bad Timing?

She felt it rise within her again. She ran from the tent to the trees nearby and let it all come out. Why did this keep happening? She leant against a tree and slid down to the ground. She had been feeling so tired lately- it wasn't like her to get exhausted so easily, so why? She put her head in her hands and tried to block out the thought that kept nagging at her.

He woke feeling cold in the absence of the warm body that was usually pushed up against his. He jumped up in panic and left the tent looking around frantically. Where was she?

Footsteps approached bringing her back out of her thoughts. She knew it was him- she'd know that tread anywhere. She felt him place his hand gently on her shoulder.

"Kate?" Jack sounded anxious, "What's wrong? You okay?"

She smiled at him. "Yeah I'm fine" she replied unconvincingly, " I'm just tired that's all"

She got up slowly, breathing deeply while Jack supported her. He handed her a bottle of water which she drank immediately, but the feeling returned and she leant over to be sick once again. Jack placed his hand on her back and rubbed it gently.

"Kate you're not okay. Stop lying to me"

"I just keep feeling sick that's all. And tired too. And I think my feet have doubled in size!"

"Kate…"

She looked up at him suddenly, her face shocked.

"Jack! I'm late" she gasped. Slowly she looked down and placed her hand on her stomach stroking it gently. Then she looked up at Jack wearing the same expression that had haunted him for so long after she had kissed him in the jungle.

"We're having a baby?" he asked nervously.

She nodded her head, her worried eyes never leaving his.

"Oh god…" he turned away from her, running his hand through his hair. He was terrified and couldn't bring himself to look at her. He couldn't be a father, not now. He was so afraid of failure and what if the others or hell a rescue boat came- could he really protect her and their child? He couldn't lose her- he wasn't strong enough.

"Jack..." he felt her place her hand on his arm. "Jack, talk to me…please"

He forced himself to turn around and face her. "How did we let this happen Kate? Why were we so damn stupid!"

"We needed each other Jack. Needed to be as close as we possibly could"

"Yes but why weren't we more careful? Why didn't we go about this sensibly? Why didn't we try and prevent this from happening?"

"Well you could have gone and asked Sawyer if he had any protection if you were really that worried, but no guess your stubborn male pride got in the way. You could have taken control that day in the jungle and told me not to be stupid, that we needed to be careful, but you didn't!"

"Well I didn't hear you complaining at the time! In fact it's because of you that we didn't stop. It's probably because of you that we're in this mess right now!"

"Don't you dare try and put all the blame on me! You are as much to blame as I am"

"Kate we can't have a baby right now. We can't"

"Well when you find the local abortion clinic, please do inform me and I'll get rid of it, but I think we may have to accept this is happening, that we can't escape from it, can't run from it"

She was crying now as she shouted at him, pouring her soul into their clashing of words.

"Oh well I'm glad something good will come out of this nightmare- you'll finally learn to stop running, because you can't run from something that's a part of you Kate!"

"How dare you! I stopped running the day I let you hold me and love me in the jungle. I dropped all my defences and all the pretence and gave myself to you and now you're saying that I'm still running?"

"Kate you are still running! Every time we're alone together, you're always detached somehow; you never let me in completely, never give all of yourself over to our love. You're always holding back and you always need to get away after we spend long periods of time together"

"Everyone needs space Jack! Just because I like to be alone sometimes does not mean I am running, and I'm not running now! I have been running off every morning to throw up because I'm pregnant Jack! I'm not ready to be a mother, but who will take care of this baby if not me 'cos clearly you're not going to be here for it; you've made that pretty damn clear!"

"Kate I just can't bear the thought of failing. I'll never be able to be the father I want to be. And what if the others come and take you like they took Claire. What then?"

"Well I'm not too happy about the prospect of them coming either funnily enough! What if they hurt our baby? What if they take our baby away?"

"That's exactly what my point is Kate. This is bad. What happens if a rescue boat comes- you're a fugitive honey"

"I KNOW! And don't you dare honey me- I am this close to showing you just what I am capable of 'cos you are f------ p------ me off right now!"

"Well at least you'll finally open up to me then!"

"Shut the f up Jack! Have you ever thought for one second that maybe by not telling you what I've done I'm protecting you? That I may know a lot better than you what being a fugitive means. That I'm the one who has the most to lose if we get rescued?"

"How?" he demanded

"I lose my freedom Jack! I lose my baby and I lose you"

"Well I'm glad to know that you actually care!"

Kate began to cry more loudly, but he couldn't bring himself to hold her, to tell her it was going to be alright, because honestly right now he didn't think it was. How could they get through this? He was so afraid.

"Maybe we made a mistake Kate. Maybe we shouldn't be together. I'm sorry- I just don't see how we can work this out. I-"

"OH NO YOU DON'T YOU SELFISH SON OF A BITCH! YOU CANNOT WALK AWAY FROM THIS! I'm pregnant Jack! I need you to be here, be here for us both. I need you to stop being such a pessimistic bastard and support me. This is your baby too Jack; I can't do this alone"

He saw the pain in her eyes, and she saw the remorse in his- he loved her, he was just scared and she knew it.

"I just can't bear the thought of losing you Kate"

"Then just be here for us both"

"I'll try Kate. I'll try"

"That isn't enough Jack. I need you to promise me you won't get hurt trying to protect me. If anything happens to me, I need to know that you'll be okay, be alive to look after our baby. If our baby is taken I need you to be around to get her back"

"Her?" he enquired smiling.

"I've just got a feeling that she's a girl that's all. But promise me Jack"

"I promise- I'm not going anywhere. I was being an idiot honey. It's my fault- we shouldn't be feeling like this- this is supposed to be a happy moment"

"It's okay Jack; I know you have issues, just like I do, but I just need to know that no matter what I can trust you to do the right thing. Trust you to-"

Her fears were silenced by his lips colliding with hers. He kissed passionately, his tongue meeting hers in that familiar way, as she returned the kiss equalling his intensity. They were trying to quench the desperate thirst for each other that had built up in the heat of their argument. Their lips were crushed against each others, their tongues moving through their territory and their bodies pressed up tight. Jack pushed Kate against a tree in an attempt to gain increased proximity, his hands travelling round her back as she ran hers through his hair. She sighed, but the forced them to come apart, both of them gasping for breath.

"Jack…If we don't stop now we may not be able to, and I don't know about you but I'm not too thrilled at the prospect of the other's finding us or hearing us for that matter"

"No I don't really like the sound of that" he giggled, "But you know my shift at the hatch starts pretty soon and you could always join me…we'd be alone… and there is a shower and a bed…"

She grinned, "I could use a shower…but you know I always have trouble reaching my back. Do you think you could assist me Doctor Shephard?"

"Happy to be of service; I'll try me best!" he grinned too, "Come on let's get going"

He held out his hand, and she grasped it, their fingers intertwining like two pieces in a puzzle.

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"So what do you want- a girl or a boy?" she asked as they walked through the jungle.

"Both" he replied grinning.

She giggled, "No seriously- a girl or a boy?"

"Both" he said again, starting to giggle too, "What about you?"

"A girl, but you are being incredibly annoying Jack. It's a simple question and all I want is a straight answer- so boy or girl?"

"Both" he said again stubbornly and giggling even louder, but before she could retort he added, "I've always wanted a son, you know to play sports with and be a miniature version of his daddy (she raised her eyebrows at this), but I also want a little daddy's girl too- so both"

"What makes you so sure she'll be a daddy's girl?"

"Well all first born daughters are aren't they?"

"No…not all" she said sadly.

"Kate I'm sorry…I didn't mean…"

"Don't worry about it Jack- we're happy remember?"

"Yeah we're happy" he smiled and put his arm round her shoulders, pulling her closer as they walked, and she slid hers around his waist.

"What about Jade for a girl?" she suggested, "'Cos it kinda sounds like Jack so you get you're little daddy's girl and it's a pretty name too"

"Jade Guava Shephard…I like it!"

"Whoa hold up one sec! Where'd 'Guava' come from? And who says she gets your last name? What's wrong with Austen or Austen-Shephard?"

"Guava in memory of old times- they were a sign of affection Kate" he winked at her then continued, "Shephard because call me old fashioned but I think we should all have the same last name...my last name…". He grinned at her.

"Same last name? Jack…?"

She stared at him speechless as he got down on one knee and took her left had in his.

"Jack…" she gasped again.

"Katherine Austen, I love you, will you marry me?"

Would she? Could she? Was it too soon? She paused looking into his eyes that were so obviously desperate for her to say 'yes', but did she really want to marry him? She loved him yes, and she knew it would mean more, would be more than last time, but could was she ready to make such a commitment to him? He looked so worried now, she knew she'd have to say something and soon, but she didn't want to hurt him, didn't want to break his heart.

"Jack…I…I don't think I can. Not right now…I…"

"Kate we're having a baby- that's the biggest commitment we can possibly make to each other, so why's marriage such a big deal? I love you, you love me, I want to be with you forever, we're having a baby, so marry me!"

"Jack…I not sure…Can't we-"

"I love you Kate…marry me!"

She started laughing in her frustration. She knew he thought she was being silly but she had to be sure.

"Jack seriously, let me think about this. I don't know if-"

He pulled her into his arms and kissed her hard on the mouth. He forced his tongue in and she gave over to it. She kissed back, both of them exploring each other's mouth in a way that was far from their usual gentle passion. Jack was the first to pull away.

"Kate I know you're afraid, but you've stopped running, you love me right? (she nodded) You never want us to break up correct? (she nodded again) You want this baby right? (she nodded) You want me to be here for you both? (Kate nodded) Then just marry me!"

She felt herself relenting, giving herself over to their love. "Okay"

"You're saying yes?"

She nodded, "Yes I'll marry you. I'm ready"

"You sure?" he looked at her not convinced she was telling the truth.

"Yeah I'm sure! I love you Jack"

"Okay then- let's do this"

He produced something from his pocket, which he tied around her ring-finger.

"Just until we locate the jeweller's" he laughed.

"Standard black" she said smiling at the memory and stroking the piece of black thread Jack had tied around her finger.

"The remainder of that coil of thread never leaves my pocket" he smiled.

"You are such a liar Jack Shephard"

"Okay well maybe not the exact same coil of thread, but I always have some one me in case it's needed"

She gave him a smug smile, then went back to stroking the thread, "I was so scared"

"You didn't run though did you Kate?"

"No, but I wanted to…"

"But you didn't"

He wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her. She kissed back, the depth of the kiss reflecting the joy they both felt.

"Come on. That shower is waiting for us" Jack said giggling when they broke apart.

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That familiar desperate need to be as close as they possibly could returned. He pushed her through the door, while she fumbled with his shirt buttons; the wait before she could feel his skin against hers causing her pain. He pulled off her top, she pulled off his shirt, off came her bra, their shoes, their pants, his boxers, her knickers. Shower door pulled open. Water released. Kate up against the wall. Water cascading over their naked bodies. Mouths exploring each other's then moving to caress exposed flesh. Hands spreading soap over the same skin, then applying shampoo to the other's hair. Bodies intertwined celebrating their love and the new life they had created together.

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A/N: hope that turned out okay- took me ages to attempt to sort it out...

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xXxMegan KatexXx