me: new chappie! and to all those who wanted it, there will be a dunking of Alexis in acid!(pulls drawstring)
ALEXIS: (hanging upside-down over bubbling acid) AHHHHHH!
me: and for intro goddies, there shall be RR icecream for me and Sy-Sy and cookies and soda and pocky and doritos for all who reviewed!
JADEN: erm...you were gonna eat the ice cream?
me:...(eye twitch)
SY-SY: oh boy (hides under desk)
me: JAAAAADDDDDDEEEEEEEENNNNNNNN! (drags Jaden out)
SY-SY: erm...start the review responses
Ronin 32: LMFAO! that was the funniest (and longest) review ive ever gotten. and yes, you have done worse. and...ha! too late sadistic bunny! IM ALREADY FAT!
ZANE:(in closet)don't sound so proud when you say that! BACK YOU SLUG!
The Masked Duelist: thank you! and dont worry, he'll be let out
PowHammer: she's not a total bitch...just in my fic!
Darker Sides: somehow, i think you totally twisted my words.
DarkElixer66: here a cookie! and yes he is. that's why he's in the closet!
me: (storms back in, draging Jaden ((who is in a tiny yellow bikini)) and being followed by Darth Vader. Opens closet and throws Jaden in there and Darth Vader follows. slams door) HAVE FUN! I KNOW I WILL (evil laughter)
SY-SY: okay...um...watch the fic while i find something to calm ac down.
ac-the-brain-supreme does not own Yugioh GX. if she did, there would be much boy lime.
"Wake up Jaden" Syrus said to his roommate. It was half-hearted. Syrus really didn't want to wake up Jaden. He really didn't want to face the boy that had pretty much killed Syrus the night before.
Jaden stretched and sat up. "Hey Sy! Man…you aren't looking so hot."
It was true. Syrus had been falling asleep and waking up all through the night, and every time he woke up, it was from a nightmare.
The nightmares were the same. Syrus thought that Jaden was talking to him. Telling Syrus how beautiful he was and how much he loved him and whenever Syrus was going to respond, Alexis's voice overpowered his and she said, "I love you too Jaden." Then Alexis would run right through Syrus, like he was a ghost, and Syrus would be tortured through the pain of having to see the two kiss. Then Zane would appear and shove a knife through Syrus's heart. Every time the same nightmare, and every time he woke up, the bluenette would cry until he fell back asleep. It was a nasty cycle that didn't seem to want to break.
"Yeah. I'm not feeling really well either. I'm going to skip out on classes today. Can you tell Banner that I don't feel well?" Syrus asked his friend with seemingly no emotion in his voice.
"Sure Sy" Jaden replied as he watched the smaller boy climb the ladder to his bunk in the middle.
"Thanks" Syrus replied with his back toward Jaden.
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"So, Syrus is sick?" Bastion asked after Jaden told him, Alexis, and Cazz, who was didn't really ask, but was told anyway because he was there.
Jaden nodded. "Guys, I don't think he's really sick."
"Why do you say that?" Alexis asked.
"Well, he didn't seem sick as he did…well…depressed" Jaden explained. Plus his eyes were dead. Even if Sy was sick, they would show some emotion, some light. But his eyes, those beautiful silver eyes…they were…wait, did I say beautiful?
"Depressed?" Bastion pressed.
Jaden nodded. Chazz slammed his feet on the floor and said, "Okay, this is stupid! Who cares! You said you were going to duel me today, so let's go, NOW!"
Jaden smirked. Maybe a duel would get his mind a little cleared up. "Okay Chazz! Prepare to loose!"
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Syrus lay staring up at the bottom of the bunk on above of his. He hadn't moved since Jaden left. All day long, the depressed boy did nothing but sleep and stare at the bunk and think. Right now he was deep within a painful memory.
/Flashback/
Syrus was cornered, his back against a wall, three bullies in front of him. He was about to give up when he saw Zane walk past.
"ZANE!" Syrus cried out to his older brother. "ZANE! PLEASE, HELP ME!"
Zane's only response was a glimpse out of the corner of his eye. He didn't even stop walking as he left his little brother to be used as a stress reliever to the group of thugs.
"ZANE! ZANE!" Syrus cried out in desperate hope that Zane would hear him and come back to save Syrus. His wish went unanswered.
"ZANE! ZA-" Syrus was stopped in calling out for his brother by a hard punch to his stomach. Syrus fell to his knees and endured what seemed like a million punches and kicks to his fragile body. Once his tormentors were done with him, they threw poor little Syrus into a nearby trashcan.
"Good riddance to useless rubbish!" one of them called cruelly as they left the crying boy in the alley.
/End Flashback/
That was one of the worst moments that Syrus could ever remember. He had virtually no friends back then, so no one from his school would help him. One nice old lady helped him out of the trashcan, but then she scolded him for playing in trash and how it was bad for him. Then, once he got home, Syrus's parents yelled at him for getting home so late, ignoring the black eye, swollen cheek, broken glasses, and limp their youngest child had.
"Syrus go to your room and stay there! You're not going to have any dinner for the night and I want your lights out by 9!"
Tears cascaded down Syrus's cheeks. He really wanted Jaden right then. He wanted to feel Jaden's arms around him in a hug and feel the brunette's warmth. But…Syrus didn't want just that one little hug. He wanted a kiss, a genuine kiss, his first kiss. He wanted Jaden to love him, but Syrus knew that he never would.
I can't tell him that I love him now. I know he'll reject me and he'll probably be disgusted. Jaden is not as bad as Zane, but he might move out. No, I can't handle that! I can't handle that kind of rejection! I can't handle being alone again!
Syrus started to cry for the millionth time that day.
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Jaden was not in a good mood. He had lost his duel against Chazz. It wasn't entirely Jaden's fault though! His head had been too busy wondering what was going on with Syrus. The Winged Kuriboh had to squeal high-pitched in Jaden's ear to get him to pay attention. Now he was ready to snap at the next person to look at him funny.
Kuri.
"Kuriboh, I'm not really in the mood" he warned.
The duel spirit ignored him.
Kuri, Kuri!
"Enough already!"
Kuri! Kuri kuri kuri riii riii!
"I SAID-!" Jaden yelled at the little fur ball. Then he noticed that Kuriboh had started crying. "Oh…no…don't cry. I'm sorry. I'm just a little tense right now. I'm so sorry."
Winged Kuriboh stopped crying after a sniffle or two and flew up to Jaden's shoulder to calm him down.
"I don't get it Kuriboh. What's wrong with Sy? It's like he's half dead" Jaden asked his furry little friend as he sat down with his back against a tree.
Kuriboh nuzzled Jaden and sighed.
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Syrus looked at the digital alarm clock. 7:45.
Time to get out of bed I guess.
Syrus climbed down the ladder and sat at a desk. He had homework to do. Sure, most of his teachers would've let him off the hook for being 'sick', but Crowler would've just given twice the amount any normal teacher would've given on a regular day.
Syrus turned on the computer. It took a while for it to boot up, so Syrus's mind started to wander. Should he tell Jaden?
Jaden wasn't as cruel as Zane, of course, that's why he loved him. Syrus would love anyone who treated him as a person. And Jaden said that the two were best friends, so, it's not like he would just move out. Jaden had stuck by Syrus's side through the worst of times, so, how would this be any different.
The computer finally booted up at the same time Jaden walked through the door.
"Hey Sy. You feelin' better?" he asked.
"Not much" Syrus replied.
Jaden started striping out of his uniform and into his pajamas. Syrus blushed and turned his back toward Jaden. Once Syrus heard the squeaking of bed springs, he knew it was safe to turn around, which he kind of did.
"Jaden" Syrus started.
Jaden half-grunted a "yeah" that sounded kind of muffled by a sheet or a pillow.
He doesn't really sound like he wants to be disturbed. But, if I don't tell him now, I might never tell him.
"Well, uh, y-you s-s-see…erm…uh…h-have y-you e-e-ever th-thought tha-that you w-w-w-were in l-l-l-l-love?" Damn that stuttering.
A few moments of silence, then, "Yeah, I have, but I was wrong. Why?" Jaden responded.
"W-Well…um…" C'mon Syrus, just say it. Say, "I love you Jaden Yuki with all my heart and all my soul!"
While Syrus was trying to say what he wanted to say, Jaden realized something. "Do you love someone, Sy?"
Syrus nodded silently.
Something inside Jaden grew. Something he couldn't name. It was as if…as if…well, it was unexplainable. He just couldn't define it. But Jaden did know one thing. He was going to make a near-fatal mistake.
"Who is it?" Jaden asked softly.
Syrus didn't like how low Jaden's voice had gotten. It scared him. Zane's voice had gotten that low before. When Syrus told him that he was gay; right before Syrus got hit.
"So, who is it?" Jaden asked again, this time a little louder. Not as loud as a yell, but pretty damn close.
Syrus was scared out of his mind now. He didn't want Jaden to yell at him. If this was rejection, then Syrus would've rather gone on wallowing in his misery and being tortured by that dream then go through this.
Syrus didn't know what to say. He was supposed to say that he loved Jaden, but the words just didn't appear on his tongue. Syrus felt tears weld up in his eyes. "I-"
"Y'know what, I don't give a fuck anymore! I'm going to bed!" Jaden shouted at Syrus.
The tears, Syrus could feel them, but they wouldn't come out. He didn't anymore tears to cry. They were all wasted on his stupid ideas of actually thinking he may actually have a chance at happiness and having them thrown back at them as they should've been. Syrus was alone his entire life, he was alone now, and he was going to be alone for the rest of his miserable life.
True love, at least one-sided love that Syrus thought was true, was better than the overwhelming rejection that came with his secret love's last words. Being the looked over little brother was better than shaming Zane.
Death was better than this.
At least if Syrus was dead, the others could move on without him. Leave his forgotten life alone so Syrus's damned soul could move onto Heaven and, if necessary, beg for entry into Heaven.
Who knows how much time passed with Syrus staring at the floor, Jaden snoring lightly, and rain, whose noise now registered in Syrus's numb mind, danced on the roof to a symphony of thunder and lightning?
Syrus stood up. He crossed the floor to Jaden's bed and kneeled by it. Jaden's peaceful and handsome face was facing Syrus. Syrus's pale face got close to Jaden's and the little bluenette whispered, "So long my love. I will no longer bother you with my lust."
It was the perfect opportunity, Jaden was asleep, it was dark, and Syrus was probably never going to see him again. Syrus could quickly press his lips against Jaden's or his cheek.
Syrus got closer, Jaden's lips only a few millimeters away.
This was what Syrus wanted, right? Just one little kiss. Then he would be away forever. Never to feel anybody's warmth, anybody's love. This one little action of affection was the one thing Syrus wanted out of life. Just one…little…
Syrus pulled away. No, it would be wrong. He would be stealing something that didn't rightfully belong to him.
Knives stabbed at the bluenette's heart as he put on his shoes and opened the door. With one last look, Syrus left the sleeping boy behind. And with him, his shattered and torn heart.
SY-SY: (in french maid outfit) hey, ac, wanna double-chocolate soft-baked cookie?
me: (pulls ear from door) YESH!
SY-SY: will you let the others out if you get them all?
me: YESH!
SY-SY: let them out!
me: (opens closet door. Jaden/Zane fall out)
SY-SY: good girl. here are the cookies
me: YAY ! review and read!
ZANE/JADEN: no...more...Star Wars references!