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Previously:
Ginny's POV:
We kissed again, and closed our eyes, so I had no idea Ian had seen the whole thing. I also didn't see the hurt in his eyes as he heard what we had said the whole time. He ran upstairs back to his dorm.
I heard and saw nothing. That is why, I had no idea, I was making the biggest mistake of my life.
Ian's POV:
It was horrible. The image of Ginny and Harry kept playing in my mind. I stayed in my dorm all week and faked sickness. I went to classes, but I didn't talk to Ginny if I didn't have too. It was okay without her. I met this Colin Creevey guy, and we became friends. I told him about what I saw. He seemed to be happy for Ginny, but upset for me. I don't think he could decide whose side he was on. He had known Ginny longer, but I think I'm more of a friend than she is to him.
I sat with Colin in classes and when we were eating. Ginny came up to me one day, and asked me if everything was alright between us. I told her everything was fine and I put on a fake smile. She asked me why it seemed like I was ignoring her. I told her I thought I needed to hang out with another guy my age. She seemed to believe me. She asked me if we were still going to Hogsmeade together with the trio. I told her Colin and I had made plans. Colin tried to say that we really hadn't, but I managed to elbow him in the stomach, so he quickly agreed. She seemed to accept this, but as she was walking off she shot weird glances in my direction.
I don't care anymore though. I'm giving up on her. I've lost all hope of what could have never been. We can still be friends I guess, but I can't stand talking to her anymore. I see her in the corridors with Harry, and she walks by me without a glance. I know she doesn't like me. I just want to slip away.
I started writing.
I'm bored. Oh great now I'm talking to my self on paper…hmmm…
Slip:
If I slipped away,
Would you notice I was gone?
Some times I have to wonder,
What exactly went wrong?
When I see you with him,
I feel so far away from everything,
And I wish you would at least glance my way,
To bring me back down to reality.
Cuz in my world,
We're both in love,
No one can stop us,
We run away from all our problems,
Keeping each other close,
There is no way we'd live up there,
If we didn't have each other.
Cuz in my world we're so much in love,
So much in love,
That I have to wonder,
How I'd live without my other,
Two halves make a whole,
But two wrongs don't make a right,
I'm stuck in this world,
Just wondering,
That if without you,
Can I make it through this night?
The next day seems so close to me,
I'm still dreading its arrival,
What would it be like,
If you were my only source of survival?
With him you slowly add more pain,
I'm losing everything,
I've ever gained.
Did you know I saw you kiss him?
It felt like a strong blow from the Womping Willow's limb.
Did you know you could do this to me?
Did you know you took away all of my dignity?
I look at you and you look at me,
But you frown.
You turn back around,
And smile up at him.
Then you walk away,
Completely ready for the next day.
You know that with him,
You'll have no problems.
But could you be wrong?
I'm slowly slipping into this murky water.
Can you save me?
You're the only one that saw,
Will you save me?
Two more seconds until I completely slip away,
And I have to wonder,
Would you notice I was gone,
I just have to wonder,
What exactly did go wrong?
Knight in shining armor,
Is what I dreamed to be,
Will you be the Maid of Honor?
And set my sweet soul free?
I have no more life,
You let me slip away,
And to think,
I was dreading the next day.
Did you watch from the shore,
My lifeless body,
Float to the top?
Did you grab onto him,
And say you're glad it was me,
Not him?
I just have to wonder,
If I slipped away,
Would you notice I was gone,
Even though my soul has risen,
It still has unfinished business,
It will always be stuck wondering,
What had ever gone wrong?
To think if you were in my position,
Drowning under the murky water.
Your knight in shining armor,
No where to be found,
You look at me with pleading eyes,
And I watch as you slip away,
You no longer have to witness me,
Dreading every single day.
If two halves make a whole,
And two wrongs don't make a right,
Could we work together,
And put up a decent fight?
We could join together,
Two halves that fit,
And we would live in my world,
Because down here,
I have a feeling,
You would let me slip...
To Ginny May I one day forgive you?
Ok wow…I just wrote poetry. Someone please help me. It may actually be good. Well I need to hide it somewhere. If anyone ever sees this my life could be ruined. Especially if Ginny saw it, that would be horrible. Hmm…under the couch pillow? No too obvious. I thought of more places, but I figured that under my pillow is the best place for it. I folded it in half.
About that time I heard people coming in the Common Room, which is where I had been standing. I quickly balled it up and threw it behind a plant. I saw Hermione, Ron, Harry, and Ginny come in. They greeted me, and I said hey back. I was sweating so much I could have formed an ocean. I was scared they would ask me what was wrong, and I'd let it slip.
"Are you feeling okay?" Ginny asked. They came and sat on the couch.
"Uh actually I think I'm running a fever. I think I'll go lay down now. Later." I tried to walk up the stairs, but Hermione called after me.
"Wait!" I turned around. I was about to yell telling them to leave me the hell alone, but Hermione continued talking. "Don't you think you should go see Madame Pompfrey? You've been sick for like a week now."
"Hmm… I think I will if I don't feel good after I sleep for a little while." They all seemed to accept this, and turned back around. I headed up the stairs, and sat on my bed. I eventually laid down, and fell asleep, completely dreading the next day.
We could join together,
Two halves that fit,
And we would live in my world,
Because down here,
I have a feeling,
You would let me slip...
When I woke up in the morning I realized I had nothing to do. Colin was actually going to Hogsmeade to find something for the masquerade…I don't know why, and I was stuck here. I guess I could always go to Hogsmeade. I had heard about this Weasley Wizard Wheazes from Ginny, and I was planning on buying something and slipping it into Harry's food. Food… I hadn't eaten in a while. I decided I would go to breakfast before I made any decisions. I didn't realize though, that I had forgotten all about my poem.
Hermione's POV:
I read Ian's poem. At least I think it's his. He didn't put a name on it, so I'm just guessing it's his. I could tell he had a major thing for Ginny. I wanted Ginny to be happy with Harry. I just didn't want her to get hurt. Of course I barely know Ian, and I don't want Ginny to hurt him either, but I think his poem, or what I'm saying is his poem, basically states that she hurt him.
Now I understand why he has been avoiding us and saying he's sick. He's just avoiding Harry and Ginny, and being sick was the perfect excuse to get away. I can't imagine how bad it must have been seeing the girl of your dreams talk about someone else they like to you, and then seeing them kiss each other. I could only imagine how hurt I'd be if Ron did something like that, and me being in Ian's position I would probably break down.
I was sitting at the table eating breakfast with Harry, Ginny, and Ron when Ian came in. He went and sat with Colin. He always sits with Colin. I wish he would come sit with us. He is so funny, and he can make anyone laugh. Well except Ron. I think Ron is jealous of Ian because all the girls think he's cute and witty.
"Hey guys I'm gonna go ask Ian real quick if he's sure he doesn't want to come with us. I'll be right back." I stood up, and Ron stood up too.
"I'll come with you 'Mione."
"No," I screamed, "I mean I'll be fine by myself. It'll just take a sec." I walked away before he could say anything back. I did notice however the weird looks he was giving me. I'm just glad he didn't come with me. I walked up to Ian. Colin was talking to his brother about a camera he was hoping to get from his parents for his birthday next weekend, so I took my chance while no one was looking. I stuck my hand in my pocket and pulled out the poem which I had folded as small as it would go into a little note. I threw it in his lap. I had wrote this on the inside: You need to watch where you hide your belongings. Meet me tonight in the Common Room at 12:00. We need to talk about what you're getting yourself into.
He looked down at it, and then I guess realized what it was and his eyes became really wide. He looked back at me, and pointed at it. I guess he was asking if that was it, and if I had read it.
I nodded my head and said, "Yeah I read it. But listen, are you going to come with us to Hogsmeade still? I can understand if you don't want to."
"No I can't come. Not with Harry there. I'll see it another time maybe."
"Okay…well I need to get back over there. I guess I'll umm see you later?"
He nodded his head and I walked back and sat down. I looked down the table at him. I saw him open it up, and read it. Then he looked down the table at me. I nodded my head as if to say 'yeah I wrote that.' I saw him look to the left of me, grab a piece of toast, and storm out of the Great Hall. I slowly turned my head to the left, afraid of what I'd see. Ginny and Harry were sitting there, Gin on Harry's lap, kissing each other on the lips. It's then I realized what I was getting myself into. He wrote a poem about her and Harry together. He knew he was the right one for her, I knew it too. I just hope she realizes Harry isn't the one for her. But hope is all I can do. She's gotten herself stuck in a whole way to deep for her own good. Maybe, just maybe, she can climb herself out of it.
A/N: Ok sooo 4th chapter done. I hope you guys liked this better than the last one. The poem he writes in here is one I made up strictly for this story, and it's not a song like all the rest. I was trying to figure out a song, but I couldn't find one that fit, so I thought about a poem, and then I realized I should have him writing the poem, and make it an actual part of the story. I hope it was okay. R/R!
Review Responses:
hey there: 'And I'm not going to give up on you either.' e! Ian totally brings out the squealy fan-girl in me! So he's kind of psyic huh? Nice twist... I hate Harry. you know why I hate harry? He's not Ian
Me: Lol I'm the same way. I got the whole idea from a Harry/Ginny fic I was reading and it all sounded so mushy. Then one night I thought up a plot to a chapter, but I realized I needed a new character, so I already have thought what's going to happen in the last like 3 chapters I just need to find a way to build up to it. I hope my story has been getting better, I know my writing isn't that good, but I'm working on it. I hope you review for every chapter. Thanks a lot for being the first chapter reviewer again!
sakura1221/ Thanks for that lol. I love reviews…
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