Authors Notes: Inu Yasha is a bad guy in this fic. Im warning you ahead of time. If you don't like the thought of that, don't read it. You were warned.
And Tensaiga, Kagome didn't freak out over a mating bite, it wasn't the mating bite she freaked out over, it was losing her virginity in a rough manner.
Disclaimer: I do not own Inu Yasha, but my characters are my own. Don't steal them please.
Falls On Me
Chapter 1-How I wish To Dream Again
Kagome walked through the gardens, Shippou and Rin running in front of her, talking cheerfully. She smiled down at them as they playfully argued.
Sighing, she sat and watched them play tag. She laid her hand on her stomach and felt the tears coming again.
'Seven months now. And no baby,' She thought to herself. Inu Yasha had been bitterly disappointed after the first two months of their marriage when she hadn't conceived when she had been secretly relieved. Many women died of childbirth in this era.
"Kagome, what's wrong?" Rin asked. Kagome smiled down at the little girl.
"Nothing Rin," Kagome answered, trying to push back the tears that were threatening to spill over.
"Mama, can I hear a story?" Shippou asked.
"Of course. What would you like to hear?" Kagome asked.
"The one about the human girl and the youkai prince!" Rin said, jumping up and down excitedly. Kagome forced her smile and let the children jump into her lap.
"Once upon a time, there was a young human girl that lived in a poor village. One day the village was attacked by youkai, and several people were hurt, but everyone lived thankfully. However, the leader of the youkai who attacked her village demanded the prettiest girl as his mate or else he would destroy the village. Since the young girl was the prettiest on her village, she prepared herself to go. You see, she loved her family so much that she would do anything for them, including become the mate of the repulsive youkai.
"Just as she was about to leave, a wandering youkai prince came into her village. Asking the leader of the village why everyone looked so sad, the leader admitted that the girl was leaving them that day. When he heard about the youkai demanding her, he assured the village leader that he would slay the evil youkai.
"After a long battle, the youkai prince finally killed the evil youkai and returned to the village. When he arrived, he passed out from blood loss, and the young girl took care of him and nursed him back to health. When he awoke, he fell in love with her because of her kind heart and beautiful features. And she had fallen in love with him as she nursed him. So that day he married her and they lived happily ever after with many children and adventures," Kagome finished.
"Thank you Kagome!" Rin said as she dragged Shippou down off of Kagome's lap and ran off to play another game.
"A highly unlikely story woman. But it keeps the children entertained," Sesshoumaru's voice said behind her. Kagome gasped stood quickly while turning to face him.
"I'm sorry Sesshoumaru. I didn't see you standing there," She apologized quickly. Over the past seven months of her stay she had gotten to know the elder brother of her husband a little bit. Most of it was through court functions when other youkai came, otherwise he did not eat with the rest of them.
"Your friends have sent a letter for you through their pet," Sesshoumaru said, handing Kagome a scroll. She quickly accepted it with a bow.
"Thank you so much Sesshoumaru," She told him, tears welling from her eyes again.
He bowed his head slightly and left her alone with the letter. Kagome was scared to open it, fearing their words. Inu Yasha hadn't taken her to see them in a long time, instead falling into the life of a typical, irresponsible young lord. He sparred daily with the trainers, drank too much at dinner, and ravaged her each night. This left very little time for her to go see her friends.
Quickly she unrolled the scroll and read over it's contents.
'Kagome, we are coming to visit since you haven't. We're leaving the minute Kirara gets back. See you in a week!'
Kagome did not need to ask who wrote it. The letter was short and to the point, and screamed 'Sango'.
She quickly stood and called for Jaken, who was nearby to watch over Rin. Kagome had never asked why the toad demon was always there when Rin was. The youkai quickly came to her, his eyes losing some of their coldness. He had warmed up to her in the months she had been there.
"Jaken, where are Sesshoumaru and Inu Yasha?"
"Lord Sesshoumaru is in his study. Inu Yasha is still in bed," He responded.
"I must go speak with Sesshoumaru. Could you please watch Rin and Shippou?"
"Yes, of course," He replied. Kagome bowed to thank him and walked as quickly as the sandals on her feet would allow. Sometimes she still missed her old clothes, but had quickly gotten used to the elaborate kimono of an upper-class lady. She walked through the halls with her head high despite the looks of the servants. She didn't want to see the pity in their eyes as they whispered of her barren womb or how her husband had turned into a drunkard. Finally she arrived at Sesshoumaru's study and went to her knees, then knocked respectfully.
"Come in Kagome," He replied.
She slid open the door and walked in, then slid it shut and kneeled down on one of the tatami mats.
"What is it?" He asked as he wrote on a scroll.
"The letter was from Sango. She and Miroku are coming to visit, and I was hoping it might be okay," Kagome began.
"Kagome, I have been thinking lately. You have been given far too little responsibility, and someone like you needs that or else you will go mad. So I have decided that you will take over the things most women do in a household. You will arrange menus and the household accounts etcetera. Your duties will include the planning of guests, so you can now answer your own question," Sesshoumaru told her without looking up.
"Thank you!" Kagome exclaimed. He was right, she was going mad without anything to do, and now that she could do something she wouldn't be bored!
"No need to thank me. Now that a woman is in the castle I no longer have to do the tedious things only women should. Now you may leave," He told her.
No matter his attitude, Kagome felt extremely thankful and bowed quickly before she left, excited.
"And Kagome," He said before she was about to step out.
"Yes?" She replied.
"The head cook will instruct you," He replied. She nodded and quickly left, almost running down the halls.
The servants she passed were amazed at the transformation in the miko, whispering. She was a human yes, but she was a very kind human. They had liked her when she had first arrived, but soon after her wedding she had become silent and distant, and they no longer knew what to think of her.
"Excuse me," She asked one of them. The servant, a young female kitsune, bowed deeply.
"Yes my lady?"
"I need someone to show me where the kitchens are. The head cook is going to be showing me what all I need to do," Kagome said excitedly. The servant's eyes widened. Sesshoumaru had given her rights as Lady of the Castle?
"This way my lady," The servant said as she guided Kagome through the maze of hallways and towards the kitchens. Kagome felt excitement build within her. She would finally be useful again. And nothing could take that away from her.
"So you're the famous Lady Kagome eh? Well, it seems like you're at least eager to learn, which is good," The large cook said. Kagome almost laughed at the giant panda youkai who wore an apron over plain clothing.
"Excuse me, I know I'm technically your superior, but if it's okay with you, don't call me my lady or anything like that, just Kagome. And I'd like for us to be friends What's your name?" Kagome finished.
For several moments the cook merely looked confused before sighing.
"My name is Airon Itamae(my own pun, her name translates to iron chef). You're a lot like Lady Akari was. She wasn't quite as informal as you, but she was beautiful and kind. She even learned how to cook from me," The youkai stated.
"Who was Lady Akari?" Kagome asked.
Tears filled the giant pandas eyes as she sighed.
"Lady Akari was the current lord's mother. She died several years ago, before Inu Taisho did. I think she died of heartache," The chef confided.
"Why?" Kagome asked, giving in to the old chef's gossip. After all, she had barely spoken to anyone for a few weeks now and craved conversation.
"Well you see, the old Lord, Inu Taisho, married her and they had a very cold, empty marriage, it was arranged you see? After producing an heir Inu Taisho began to sleep with other women and drink and such, and eventually took Izayoi as his mistress. It's a sad story. Lady Akari eventually took her own life. Soon after Inu Yasha was born. A more spoiled up I never did see, if you don't mind me saying so," Airon told her. Kagome giggled and nodded her head.
"Inu Yasha is spoiled," She replied. The chef relaxed, gossiping as she prepared some rice balls for that evening's dinner.
"Well, after Inu Taisho found out about her suicide, he refused to use the Tenseiga on her to bring her back, and Lord Sesshoumaru got very angry. He was still a young lad of about twenty or so I'd say. There was a row between him and his father. After that the boy began to close himself off. I remember he stopped coming to the kitchens about that time. It was like losing both him and his mother, poor dear," Airon explained. Kagome nodded and began to chop vegetables as the cook talked.
"And now, well, when you first arrived with Inu Yasha, we were all pretty confused until Myouga explained to us that one of the condition's of Sesshoumaru's inheritance was for Inu Yasha to be allowed here. That silly hanyou hasn't changed one bit. He's becoming more and more like Inu Taisho every day," The cook said, then suddenly looked to Kagome, fearful.
"I'm sorry my lady I didn't mean to say that!" The chef exclaimed. Kagome smiled sadly and set the knife she had been using down on the table.
"Inu Yasha is…Inu Yasha. I never thought…" Kagome began to sniffle, wanting to hold back tears.
Suddenly she was surrounded by the cook's huge arms and she leaned into them, releasing all of her tears.
"Shh, it's alright aiji," The older woman cooed as she rocked back and forth holding Kagome.
"I don't know what happened. After the first few months he just started drinking more and more and now he's nothing like the Inu Yasha I married," Kagome sobbed.
"Rumor around the castle is that you are barren my lady," Airon said in a gentle voice.
"I don't know what's wrong with me! I was always healthy and had my monthly flow regularly ever since I started. But I can't have babies!" Kagome sobbed.
"Aiji, look at me, yes come on, good girl. Now Kagome, listen to me carefully. I know of many women who did not give their husbands a child, but I also noticed it was usually the wives of drunkards. Now listen carefully to this. It is possible that you are not barren, but that his seed is not potent. The point is irrelevant. Either way you cannot blame yourself for your lack of children. Now, dry those eyes aiji, and help me chop those vegetables. We can discuss your duties tomorrow morning, bright and early," Airon finished.
"Why do you call me aiji?" Kagome asked as she wiped her eyes dry of tears.
"Because you remind me very much of someone I knew a long time ago, and they were the beloved child of everyone in this castle," Airon said as she began to finish the rice balls.
"Oh," Kagome said as she began to chop vegetables again.
That night Kagome smiled as the servants brought out dinner. A dinner she had helped make. For a moment she felt stupid for being so proud of just helping with mindless tasks as she and Airon had talked, but she pushed the doubts away as Sesshoumaru and Inu Yasha complimented the food. After she had gotten the hang of her duties she was going to be showing the master chef how to make some futuristic foods. Like French fries and hamburgers.
"So Kagome, how was your day?" Sesshoumaru asked. He had made one of his rare appearances at dinner.
"It was nice. I like having something to do again," Kagome commented.
"What are you guys talking about?" Inu Yasha slurred as he had a servant pour him another glass of sake. Over four months ago Kagome had stopped counting how many glasses he drank of the stuff, instead gauging his reactions and when to suggest they leave for their rooms.
"Kagome is taking over the duties that belong to the Lady of the house. I can not continue to do so without it interfering in my own work," Sesshoumaru stated.
"Oh," Inu Yasha stated dumbly. Kagome sighed and sipped her glass of bancha tea.
Kagome didn't talk much, opting to eat and watch Inu Yasha getting drunker and drunker. After all, depending on how drunk he got, she might be able to go to their room and sleep without ever having to do it. Besides, Rin and Shippou did enough talking for everyone at the table.
"Mama, Jaken told me you're going to be Lady of the Castle now, what does he mean?" Shippou suddenly asked.
"She's not your mother whelp! So stop calling her that!" Inu Yasha snarled as he slammed his empty cup of sake down.
Kagome watched, shocked, as tears began to fill Shippou's eyes.
"Inu Yasha, I'm ashamed of you, saying things like that. I adopted Shippou, so he's as much my son as he wishes to be," Kagome told Inu Yasha in a stern voice.
"Why don't you start giving me some of my own children instead of adopting every pathetic weakling that comes in sight?" The hanyou snarled in a slurred voice, making him hard to understand.
Kagome felt herself blush as the few servants within the room began to look more than a little uncomfortable.
"Come on, let's go," Inu Yasha said as he stood and swayed slightly. He stumbled over to Kagome and pulled her up roughly by her arm. Releasing one cry, she felt his hand tighten to the point where his claws drew blood. Silent tears slipped down her cheeks as he looked down at her angrily.
"Inu Yasha, release her," Sesshoumaru stated coldly. Kagome hadn't noticed him moving so quickly behind Inu Yasha.
"I'll do whatever I want with my wife asshole," Inu Yasha snarled in his drunken voice, spittle on his lips.
"Not in my house you will not," Sesshoumaru said as he clipped Inu Yasha on the side of his head once.
The hanyou fell over onto the table and Kagome backed away holding her upper arm to staunch some of the blood flow.
"Anei, take this man to his rooms," Sesshoumaru said. Someone appeared from the shadows and picked the sleeping hanyou up and carried him from the room.
"I'm sorry," She whispered. Sesshoumaru looked at her as if somewhat annoyed.
"Do not be sorry for his actions. He is the fool, not you," Sesshoumaru told her. "Also, you may have separate rooms from him from now on if you wish. I didn't know he was being so cruel towards you. The rooms can be guarded as well, if you so wish," He told her. Kagome accepted with a nod of her head, thankful to be getting away from her husband. Tears slipped from her eyes. He had sometimes been a little forceful in the past, but he had never hurt her this much. Not since he had taken her virginity.
"He hasn't ever hurt me like this before," Kagome told him, sniffling slightly.
"Never the less, you will have separate rooms you may go to whenever you choose to and the use of Anei to guard you," Sesshoumaru replied.
"Mama," Shippou suddenly said, his voice quivering with the combination of tears and fear.
Shame shot through Kagome. She had never wanted her child exposed to this sort of violence!
"Yes aisoku?" She replied.
"Can I sleep in your room tonight?" The kitsune cub asked. Kagome responded by picking him up and kissing his forehead gently.
"Of course. Let's go to bed," Kagome finished just as she felt a slight tugging on the bottom of her kimono. She looked down to see Rin staring up at her, hope shining in the little girl's eyes.
"Kagome, can I sleep in your room too?" She asked.
"Of course, as long as it's okay with Sesshoumaru."
Rin looked up at the lord, her eyes begging. He nodded his approval and Rin jumped up and down excitedly. Kagome smiled and picked the little girl up with her free armnow that the blood had stopped leaking from the small wound inflicted on her. Sesshoumaru led her out of the dining room.
Kagome followed him in the familiar path, but suddenly he took a left where she usually would have gone right. A few more turns later he opened a door and she followed him in. Anei stood just inside the door. She wouldn't have noticed him at all save for the fact he was dressed in black and blue and the entire room was decorated in creams and shades of blue.
"Anei, you are to guard Lady Kagome's room every time she uses them and you will ensure her safety is not endangered, ever," Sesshoumaru told the youkai. The sleek, black cat youkai bowed his head once, never blinking his emerald eyes. The guard then left the room and Sesshoumaru turned to a weary looking Kagome.
"In the morning he will wake you so that you may attend to your duties. But these are now your rooms Kagome, and you may use them whenever you please and may do as you please to them," He stated.
"Thank you Sesshoumaru," She whispered gratefully. He nodded and left her then, closing the door behind him.
That night Kagome shed silent tears as she felt the two children snuggle up to her and say goodnight.
For the first time in seven months, she felt safe.
Authors End Notes: It only gets worse before it gets better, that's my motto for fics. For those of you who read bad day, this is going to be longer. Much longer. And if you wanted a sequel to Bad Day, that is in the work and I'm going to start posting after this one is finished. At least I hope so. Well, please review, it's my food and coffee (since Im out of coffee wah!)
Thankies to: Nikki(ah it's so good to see you again lol!), angelofhope44, Try To Guess(hmm, it's either Elvia or Joey, that much I know, but you guys really type alike), Ladyofthewest15, Hoshiko Megami(it's good to see you again!), bluediamond-hime, Waxynixo, Fairie Mistress