Okay! After having some re-writing done, and some short parts added, I'm finally finished with this chapter here. :) Thanks to Sheepstick, Silverquickstar, and Tira-kun for reviewing, and staying with me on this fic so far! I LOVE YOU GUYS! XD Well, maybe not THAT way, but ehrm, yea...thanks. Without you guys, I wouldn't have gotten as far as I am now. :) Thanks bunches! Please read on and review!

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Chapter 10: Break through

Benimaru's POV

Was that a memory? Where I was driving? Was that how the accident happened? Why am I laying here when I should be finding answers to questions I can't find? I sit up, still a little sore from the 'training' Ash and I had a few weeks ago...I wonder if I'll really be able to do anything right...The last few weeks have been hell...I'm just so confused...

"Benimaru-kun...don't you think it's time?" Ugh, I hate it when he asks these random questions...

"Time for what?"

"For your first mission." He smiled, emphesizing the word 'mission'. If only I knew what was coming next...

"Let me guess...you want me to kick the crap out of someone, right?" Over the weeks, I had gained an attitude that was just...I dunno...I don't remember my personality from back then, so this is my personality that I'll stick with.

"Hmm, how did you guess?" I still hear that smirk in his voice.

"I guessed..." I mumble, but he doesn't seem to care about this new attitude I've grown attached to.

"Right...so, I want you to choose...between your friend, Shingo Yabuki, or..." He trailed off, wiping some of the dust from the TV set with his finger, then frowning. "Or...Seth...your old chum..." Ash smirked, knowing that I didn't have a shitty clue as to who Seth was. Shingo...no, I can't hurt him...so, I'll go with this Seth person...

"Seth." I answer before he could say anything else. He looks startled at first, but then continues, coming over to me with a picture held inbetween his index finger, and his middle one.

"There, is your ami(T: Friend)...now, here's the plan..." He smirked while I just listened closely...

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Well, I'm at the house...and it seems as if my old pal, Seth has quite a bit of security. Police stop me with guns pointed to me. I could've easily taken them out, but I had to go with Ash's plan...always his damn plan.

"Stop right there. Who are you?" One of the police officers asked, nearing the gun closely to my head.

"I'm Benimaru Nikaido...and I've come to see Seth...my old accomplice." I respond while the other guard radioes in.

"Sir, a man by the name of Benimaru Nikaido is here to see you. Do you-"

"Ah, yes. Benimaru! Let him pass. I'll meet him on the way in." Seth's voice was heard from the small device. The guard shrugged, then let me pass. Excellent...this is working so far...now I've gotta get him where those guards can't help him. As I enter the house, Seth is already downstairs, with a smile on his face. Kami...I just wish I had never agreed to this...he's my friend...or, I really can't remember, but if he'd let me in with those guards, then...I must really know him...

"Benimaru! Long time no see!" Unexpectedly, he gives me a rather, big bear hug. I hear bones cracking. He lets go, then looks at me, frowning. "I see you've changed quite a bit, old friend!" He laughed, leading me to a big table, where a girl with red hair looks for an instant, frowning with disapproval but then going back to reading her newspaper.

"Vanessa, it's Benimaru. He's finally come to visit us."

"At our headquarters? He'd never do that..." Vanessa seemed to not like me visiting. So, this isn't a house...of course, Ash mentioned something about them being detectives.

"Well, he did today, didn't he? Don't tell me, you're still-"

"Yes, I still am." Vanessa interrupted, putting her newspaper down. "He's no better than all those men out there." Vanessa stood up to leave, then headed off. What'd I do to her? I must've blurted it out because Seth responded with a slight chuckle.

"She still remembers that day whenever you were being a drunk pervert, and sqeezed one of her boobs...then, you got hit a couple of times...you must not remember it since you were so drunk." Seth began to chuckle a little more. Me? Being a pervert? Drunk? Hmm...I really have to find out what I've done now.

"Oh..." I respond, biting my lip with nervousness...one instant, he's going to be laughing, and the next he'll be in pain...Kami...why did I ever agree to this?

"Well, she takes it personally, and besides, she had Ramon, who always tries to impress her on several occasions." Seth suddenly realized. "Oh, right...I forgot that someone had told me about your memory loss..." Seth laughed. "Sorry about that." He headed over to one of the chairs, signaling me to sit as well, but I didn't.

"You better yet?"

"Of course..." I smile reasuringly. He buys it.

"Hey, Seth, can I speak to you...privately?" I smile slightly.

"Whatever for?"

"I just want to ask you something...it won't take long." Of course it won't...it'll be fast...you won't feel much pain...until after, that is.

"Um, okay...let's go outside, to the back yard." He put on his jacket, then I followed him through the house. We finally exited, and viewed almost perfect grass. Too bad it was going to be ruined after...

"So, what is-" I didn't give him a chance to answer. I quickly took him by the neck, and began to shock him. It was all going to be too easy...He tried pulling my hands apart from him, looking at me with a shocked look on his face, while I had an evil smile on my own.

"B-Benimaru...w-why?" He managed, while I tightened my grip, and made the surges even more brutal.

"I can't tell you old friend...I just can't." I replied before letting go of him. This wasnt over yet, though. I began to kick him, punch him until the blood was too much for me to stand, or maybe it was the fact that I was beating someone up just because someone else said so? I stopped, looking at my bloodied hands, and Seth on the ground.

"You!" I suddenly heard a voice behind me. It was Vanessa. She charged towards me, but I dodged her attack, and fled out of there.

"Come back here, you bastard!" I heard her in the distance, but I kept running, hoping that she wouldn't catch me...but I knew she couldn't, anyway.

After I felt secure enough, I stopped, looking at my hands, covered in dried blood...Seth's blood.

"Kami...what have I done...?"

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"You did well..." Ash smirked, circling Benimaru, who had a look of regret on his face. The smirk then turned to an evil one.

"Now...the real work begins..."

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Benimaru's POV

Why? Why am I doing this for him? Could it be that I had worked with him in the past? I wonder off, walking in the dark of the night. I still don't know anything about myself, yet...yet I keep doubting that I worked with Ash...I don't know who's lying to who...Duo Lon...I haven't seen him...why haven't I seen him? Is it because he knows I'm working with Ash? Did Ash kill him?

"Kami, this is so confusing..." I murmur, feeling the cold air biting at my face bitterly. I've done so much...I don't even know which sin was greater. Haven't killed anyone yet...yet. Then I wonder why I actually like doing this? Then again, why do I regret it after I'm done? I shiver as the wind gets stronger, making my jacket seem like absolutely nothing at all. Finally, I go inside my destination. For some odd reason, I keep coming back to this place...a restaurant...they seem to know what I'm getting...I don't have to say anything at all...they bring it to me...and they even know my name.

"Ah, good evening, Mr. Nikaido. Please, have a seat and we'll be with you in just a moment." I almost mimick him as he says that. I've heard it at least 20 times now. I head over to the furthest table, away from all the rest, and sit down, looking into the nothingness of the wall. My hand comes up to touch my face...a slight scar. Hmm...I don't seem to remember where I got it from, though. I don't even remember cutting myself.

"Here you go!" A voice cuts me out of my thoughts. It's the girl who always serves me my food. She smiles sheepishly as she sees me looking at her. I smile lightly. She considers this as a thanks, then excuses herself. I keep looking in the direction she headed to, wondering...how many girlfriends have I had? Have I even slept with any of them? I sigh, knowing that those questions can't be answered. I look at the food that was brought to me. Looks good, but I don't have any cravings for it...I just don't feel hungry anymore these days. I shove it in my mouth, nontheless. After, I feel a little better. I take a drink of the water, but have a change of mind. I go over to the front. The manager, who always recites his sentence over and over again looks at me with slight suspicion.

"Yes, Mr. Nikaido?"

"I would like a shot of your best liquor." I hold out the water cup. He takes it, looking at me with confusion. He's never seen me get up from the table, and get something else, obviously.

"Yes, of course. I'll be right back with your drink." He smiles, while I sigh, looking around.

"Benimaru, why have you changed so much?" A sudden voice asked. I turn around to see who it is. I'm surprised that it's that girl, who always brings me my food.

"Changed?" I question, looking at her with slight amusment. If only she knew...

"Yes, I mean, you used to be so happy-err, well, you know. Not like you do now...you look sad, lost..." She trialed off while I looked away. I do...who is she, anyway?

"Oh...so, that's what you think of me when you see me, eh?" I smile lightly.

"Well, not exactly." She smiled sheepishly. "I see more than that...I see a handsome man that will do anything for a woman...I see Benimaru Nikaido." She finished off, touching my face slightly. As she did this, her face neared toward my own, and suddenly, I realized that our lips were locked together. I suddenly saw flashes of a memory. Blood, pain...screaming. I part the kiss, looking away from her.

"What's wrong?" She asked, trying to look into my eyes. No, she can't...she'll know what I am...

"Mr. Nikaido, here's your drink." I suddenly hear a voice, then look up. It's...everywhere. I see red, bodies everywhere. I can't stand this anymore. I quickly dig out some money from my pockets, and hand it to him. He looks surprised, but before he could say anything, I took off, as if my only escape was to run, to run into the nothingness of this empty, meaningless world.

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"The Benimaru you once were is now gone...don't you see, Benimaru? You're no longer what you used to be..." Ash trailed off slightly, looking at Benimaru who just sat there, looking down at his dirty hands.

"I know that..." Benimaru responded, clenching his fists slightly.

"Of course...I'll have to give you another mission...this time, it's about your ami(T: Friend)...Kyo Kusanagi."

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Well, what'd you guys think? Not much action, but more of an angsty feeling, eh? Guess what Ash is planning up? O.o Even I don't know what he's gonna do Anyhoo, tell me what you thought! Thanks, later peace:D