I Believe In Water

Title I Believe In Water

Fandom Naruto

Rating T

Pairing IrukaxKakashi

Author Yin-Kakuria

Disclaimer As much as we all hate to say us and how it kills us every time...I don't own Naruto breaks down crying

Notez Hope you all enjoy this!

I learned the hard way to never let it get that far.

They had asked me if I believed in love. If it was then...I would have said yes, but now..I'm not sure.

I've been hurt so many times before, that love is just a word that is accompanied by pain and harsh words. I learned that love is just a fake emotion that people don't really know what it means.

That's how it was for most of my life. My parents had been killed when I was young, so I found no comfort in adults. In other children, there was also no comfort, they all forgot that I even existed. I never realized that the lack of loving emotion could be what broke me down in the middle of the night. It had left me feeling so empty that I didn't know what I could do to keep myself going from day to day. In the end I just buried myself in my work trying to keep my mind off the things that made me feel like the fakest person in the world.

Becoming a chunin was one of the better things that had happened to me, I was able to forget most of my worries and help the children. But every night when I returned home to that cold, empty apartment...I could just feel the pain sitting and waiting for me to close my eyes. I was afraid to sleep at night for the dreams that I had, they always made me wake up in a cold sweat.

That's when he came along. This silver haired jounin that just wouldn't let me be. He was always around when I never expected him. I always wished he would just go away for good, he always came back. Deep down inside, I was happy that he would always come back.

I kept pushing him away, it's just how I was now. I couldn't...wouldn't let anyone in, I couldn't afford the pain that it would cause.

Somehow...he got in.

I don't know when I started caring for him, it was something that struck me as so odd that I had to figure out what...or who was the cause of it. I was shocked to find out that he was the cause of those feelings that left me feeling like someone had drenched me in freezing cold water and left me out in the snow.

I loved that feeling.

I guess he could tell that I was falling for him, he still stayed with me on my walks from the academy to my apartment. It was enough for us to just be like this...that's what I thought.

It was on a night that the rain was coming down mercilessly and I was at home. The memories all came flooding back and I couldn't take it. I just broke down right there in the middle of the living room, I don't know when he came in or where...I just didn't care.

He was there holding me in his arms, and everything just seemed to be okay. Like everything was just a bad dream and I would wake up in his arms all warm and safe...I realize now..that this is what love is.

Ask me now if I believe in love...and I'll tell you just that. I believe in love, I believe that love is an emotion that can make you feel warm on a cold night...a feeling that can shine a light so bright in the darkness that you won't ever be afraid again.

This is what I know.

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Author's Notes: I have no idea why I wrote this. It just kinda spilled out onto the pages.

Hope you like it!

-Yin