We looked for him for two whole months before he walked back into our lives on the leash of a madman. The day Robin returned to us as Slade's Apprentice almost shattered our will to continue fighting. We didn't want to fight him. He had been our leader and a good friend to all of us but there he was, before our very eyes, as a villain.
You could tell immediately just by looking at him that something had been broken inside of him. His movements were almost too fluid and inhuman. It was like his body was there but the mind that would have prevented Robin from attacking us was gone. I had never seen him like that and I never want to see it again.
I know that we will though. We have to fight him, just like we would fight against any other villain. He may have been our friend at one point but if what I saw of him during our last battle is what he has become than the Robin we knew is gone. We had this discussion when we finally got back to the tower. If Robin really has turned against us then we have no choice but to take him down before we can hurt anyone.
A couple of tears slip down my face and I bury my head in my pillow to keep the others from hearing my sobs. Robin can't be gone. He would never just switch sides and fight against us. He would never do it willingly I'm sure of it. He's been such a great leader and good friend to all of us. He would never willingly turn against us.
Maybe if I keep telling myself that it will turn out to be true. Yes, it has to be true; Robin wouldn't willingly fight against us. Slade has done something to brainwash him against us. He did something to break him. We have to save him. I know it can't be his fault. However, there is a still a rational part of my brain telling me that Robin could have turned against us. He might have willingly become Slade's apprentice. I don't know what would have caused the sudden change of heart. For now though, I'm going to believe my instincts and hope that Robin our Robin is still alive and that we can bring him back to our side.
I have a sinking feeling that will we have to fight him to save him though. We will have to get him away from Slade and I don't know if that will be possible. From what I have seen of Slade I know that he doesn't like to lose and loosing Robin would be a crush to his ego that he won't easily allow to happen.
It doesn't matter though; I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure that Robin at least gets a chance to explain what happened to him and why he turned against us. We owe him that chance because he's such a good friend. I hope that when he explains it will be an explanation that will allow us to welcome him back with open arms. I have to keep hoping that Slade has done something that can be reversed and that Robin was fighting us against his will.
I don't want to think about the consequences that will happen if Robin actually turned against us. I don't want to think about them and I'm not going to because if I give up on Robin than I might as well give up on everything else. Robin was the rock that held the Titans together. He was the glue and if we don't get him back than I'm afraid that there won't be a Titans any more. All I can do is hope that the Robin we knew still exists somewhere inside of the monster that Slade turned him into and that we can get our Robin back. I know that deep down the others feel the same way and it is unspoken among all of us that if we can save Robin we will. We have to try or we will never forgive ourselves.