Sorry for the delay. I was having a slight case of writers block. It's over now and I'm back to writing for you. Hope you enjoy!
Chapter Twelve
Jessica looked around her room and smiled. She was back at Dave's and she felt safe and happy. Dave and Angela had made her room very welcoming and Angela had even made plans with her to go shopping for a crib soon. Dave had been making room plans and everything. It was very adorable. Randy had been making himself known in Jesse's life lately too. Always coming round to see her and always bringing her things. She loved the attention. She just wasn't sure of her feelings.
Jessica was sat on the bench in the beautiful little Garden Angela had worked on when she was sick. She loved it here. The smell of the flowers made her happy and the breeze helped take the heat away. She was growing fast, and it seemed like the only place she could relax without the baby doing somersaults inside her.
Angela smiled as she came out to join Jesse.
"You really like it here don't you?"
"Yeah, it's so peaceful. I mean when the baby comes it'll be screaming nights and hectic schedules right." Jesse laughed.
"Yeah but it'll also be a wonderful experience. When I had Ariel it was crazy. I didn't know what I was doing. But you Jess, you have been looking after you siblings for most of your life. You will be a natural."
"You really think so?"
Angela smiled. "I don't think it, I know it."
"Thanks Angela. What about Randy though? You think he'll be able to help as well as he thinks?"
"Well, he's a guy. They all need practice. With them, they can do all the making perfectly but when it comes to the hard work...they kinda don't do so well."
Jesse laughed. "That's what I thought. He's all fussing over me now. I'm only JUST pregnant."
"Well, he's trying to prove he's sorry. I can see that. He just wants to really be there for you now. He messed up, he faced it and now he is very much trying to fix it."
"I know, for that I'm very grateful." Jessica signed slightly.
"But you sighed?"
"Well, I just don't know what I feel for him. My mom asked me yesterday when I spoke to her if we'd made up yet. I lied to her. I told her we were doing good. The truth is, we're not doing anything. For me it's this whole trying to hard thing. He's trying to help me but he hasn't yet made his feelings clear. Not for me not even for the baby."
"Jessica, he's a guy they never know what they want until they lose it. You need to ask him about it."
"I would but I don't want to just drag up a fight."
"Do you love him?"
Jessica paused.
"I ... I don't know."
"Nobody's ever asked you that before have they?"
Jessica laughed. "No. It's not something I've thought over either."
"Well, this is the check list for next time you see him. 1) Does he give you butterflies? 2) Does he make you smile and 3) Does you're heart beat faster when he looks into your eyes?"
"Thanks Angela. I'll make sure I do that."
Angela smiled. "Here's your chance."
Jessica looked and saw Randy walking up the drive.
"I'll be inside if you need me."
Jessica nodded.
"Good afternoon Randy." Angela smiled as she passed him.
Randy smiled and sat down next to Jessica. She suddenly got butterflies. Or was it just the baby again? She wasn't sure.
"Hey Sweetie." Randy smiled.
"Hey." Jessica smiled back.
"How are you and the baby?" He asked resting his hand on her bump.
"We're both fine. You're baby likes to dance by the feel of it."
Randy laughed.
"Well, he doesn't get that from me."
"He? She's gonna be a girl."
"No honey, He's a boy. I know these things."
Jessica laughed. "We'll see then won't we."
Randy nodded. "The reason I came over here was to actually talk to you about something."
"Alright." Jessica said turning slightly to look at him.
He looked into her eyes and she felt her heart beat faster. She closed her eyes and tried to shake it.
"Well, when you left it was kinda on my part. But I've tried to show you I'm sorry. The last thing I want to do is mess up again. Which is why, I'm gonna show you how much I really am sorry."
Randy took out the pink ring Jesse had left behind and held it in his hand.
"If you forgive me and in your heart you know I'm sorry then you'll wear this again. It still has the exact same meaning as it did the day I gave it to you."
Jessica smiled and held out her hand. Randy slipped the ring back on her finger.
"You have to promise not to mess up though. I really am over the drama of that stuff."
"I promise."
"Good." Jessica smiled leaning into him as he put his arm around her.
"I love you Jessica."
The first time he had said he loved her. Jessica smiled as her heart skipped a beat. She knew the answer to Angela's question now.
"I love you too Randy." She smiled