April 10th, 2004

Carlos wiped his hands on his jeans as he sat in the white room. His heart raced as he stared at the door. Carlos was visiting Doc and he was very nervous about it. The door opened up and a man with Doc walked in. Doc's face brightened up.

"Hey, Carlos." He said sitting down at the table with a smile.

"Hey." Carlos said.

"Thanks for coming. It's been awhile." Doc said. Carlos nodded.

"A lot has went on." He said, "You've missed a lot."

"Tell me all about it. I haven't heard anything in awhile." Doc said leaning back. Carlos sighed glancing around.

"Well, Yokas is riding with Boscorelli. Monroe was suspended for thirty days. Um, I'm seeing someone." He said. Doc's face brightened up once again.

"Who?" He asked.
"Holly. Holly Levine." Carlos said to him. Doc nodded.
"She's a great woman." He said.

"Holly is amazing." Carlos said, "Doc...Monte, why did you call me here?"

"It's part of my recovery. I'm supposed to call and apologize to the people that I hurt. you're the only one I can face." Doc said.

"you didn't hurt me." he said.
"Yes I did." Doc said, "I know I did. Tell me I did." Carlos looked away, "Nieto."

"You pissed me off. You disappointed me." Carlos said, "you were my role model. I wanted to be a damn good paramedic because of you and now...now I don't know what the hell I want."

"Stay with what you love." He said.
"I don't know what that is anymore." Carlos said. Doc sighed.

"I'm sorry, Carlos." Doc said, "I just...I kept things in me and didn't tell anyone. If you ever have a problem, tell someone."

"I have a problem with you." Carlos stood up, "I'm sorry, Doc, but I can't do this. I can't look you in the eyes and forgive you and make believe everything is all right. My girlfriend is still petrified something will happen to me and frankly, so am I. My dreams have been shattered. My future is up in the air all because you couldn't admit when you needed help. I would appreciate it if you never called Holly or I again." Doc stared at Carlos. he wouldn't look at him in the eyes, "Okay?" Doc nodded slowly.

"I'm sorry." He mumbled.

"That means nothing to me, Doc." Carlos said walking out of the room. he exhaled and thought he was going to pass out. Did he just yell at Doc? He scrubbed his hand over his face as he walked outside. The cold air felt good as he walked the grounds. Holly run up behind him.

"How was it?" She asked.

"Oh just peachy." he said. "I never want to come back here again." Holly looked around herself and chuckled softly.

"I would love that." She said taking his hand. "Come on. let's go and grab something to eat."

"All right." Carlos mumbled. He wondered if he would ever forgive Doc. Right now, as he saw it, he wouldn't. He still didn't understand why the whole incident happened. He probably never would.

April 25th, 2004

Ty and Carlos sat at the bar staring at the mug of beer in their hands. Both of them had a very hard day at work and decided to go out drinking.

"Man, Our lives have certainly changed haven't they?" Ty asked.

"How do you mean?" Carlos asked.

"You're in a serious relationship with Holly and I'm in one with Stacey." Ty said. Carlos looked at him.

"You and Stacey are serious?" He asked. Ty nodded.

"Oh yeah." He said, "She's the only booty I want." Carlos chuckled sipping his drink.

"Weird." He said, "I never thought you'd be a one booty man."

"Well, have you see Stacey's?" Ty groaned.
"No. My eyes only go to Holly's." Carlos said.
"She has a nice one too." Ty said.

"Hey!" Carlos smacked him ordering another drink. "Yeah, life is different, but in a good way. For me at least."

"Me too." Ty said as she drank the rest of his beer. Okay, they were getting drunk and fast. "Man, I like this song." Carlos watched Ty's body sway. He laughed sliding off of the stool. The bar swayed around Carlos.
"I should call Holly." he mumbled.

"Why?" Ty asked, "We're having FUN!"

"I know, but I need to get home. We need to get home." Carlos said, "We have work in the morning."

"Work Smork." Ty said. Carlos shook his head as he went to the payphone. The numbers were fuzzy as Carlos dialed Holly's cell phone number.

"Holly Levine. How may I help you?" She asked.

"That was so corny." Carlos laughed.

"Hey, Baby." Holly's face immediately brightened up, "Are you having fun with Ty?"

"Yeah. We drank a lot." Carlos said glancing at Ty.
"My bonnie lays over the ocean. my bonnie lays over the seeeaaa." TY sang. Holly laughed.

"I can tell." She said, "What do you want?"

"I wanna come home and have a lot of sex." Carlos said.

"I'm flattered. You really know how to make a girl happy." She said, "Back to your sleaze ball ways?"

"Only with you." Carlos chuckled. Holly groaned.

"I don't want you or Ty driving when you're this drunk." She said.

"That's why I'm calling you, Babe." He said.
"Well, be still my heart." Holly said.

"Please, Baby." Carlos said.

"I'll be there in twenty minutes okay?" Holly said, "Just don't drink anymore."
"I'll try not to." He said. "I love you, Holly Berry." Holly shook her head.

"I love you too, baby." She said hanging up the phone. Carlos chuckled. He cheered loudly.
"She's coming to get us." He whooped.
"Joy." Ty said sliding off of his stool, "I don't think I can drink anymore."

"Good. We need to sober up before Holly gets here." Carlos said wobbling out into the cool outside.

Holly didn't mind it when they went out to drown their sorrows. She just didn't enjoy the hangovers and throwing up. Carlos didn't blame her. He didn't like that either.

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