Disclaimer: Gravitation belongs to Maki Murakami Sama! It has nothing to do with me okay? This is only a pure Gravi story that I came up with…Maki Sama is my God!
Gravity
Chapter two: Diary of Shindo Shuichi
The sunlight that was shining through the window blinded Yuki's eyes; it was morning already. He walked around the apartment, shockingly to find Shuichi reading a notebook with his picture on it.
" Ohayo, Yuki san. " Shuichi said when he notices Yuki approaching. " Aren't you going to NG? "Yuki exclaimed.
Shuichi flipped through the book once more then passes it to Yuki "Ja …Itekimasu." Yuki stood in a daze for a few seconds staring at the notebook, not even noticing that Shuichi had left. He flipped open the book:
17 October 1999
Dear diary,
I've heard from Mr. Sakano that ASK is having their debut.
Oh my god…today was the worse day ever I've not only yet to finish my lyrics, I've also met this harsh person who criticized my writing skills to be worse than grade school. What the heck does he means I've zero talent. He himself has a super ugly personality. What the heck is he thinking? Does he understand the meaning of my song?
By the way this is what I wrote…
nigiyaka na hitogomi ni tokeru tsubuyaki ga
ashi moto ni chirabatta omoide nijimaseru
mayoi aruku machi no kagayaki wa
(glaring one way)
kogo e sou na boku o terasu
Hiro told me that I should basically just vent myself on women. Although it's really true that I'm pent up. Come'on it's already 10 days to the concert and I've come up with nothing. A girlfriend huh? It may be a good idea.
Although that super ugly personality guy chewed me off I'm still off to what Hiro told me. But Talent that I'm supposed to have and it's natural that I work hard. That's why those things are not enough.
8 October 1999
Dear diary,
Till now I've still got nothing for the song. Mr. Sakano almost committed suicide. Sakuma san was my god, I wanted to be like him but now it just seemed to be ruin by that guy.
I meet him again after work. It was raining and I was walking down the street when I noticed an American car with him in it. I rushed down the road to stop him. I was brought to his home where he once again pissed me off. First he through a towel at my face, then criticize my lyrics once again. Damn it who does he thinks he is! Wait I just thought of something!
The Rage Beat
By Me
Omi e tame zukide
iradatsu omoi uwaki na kaze ni hakisutete
hibi wareta rojoo ni toketa shingyn
wa kizuato dake no koshite iku
madoro n da noizu ga asu o keshisaru maeni
yaboo ni hibiku kutsuoto o onikakete
dokonimo tomaranai
mitasanai Emotion shikato kimete oikose yo
furueteru shaina sekai no nukemiza o neratte
tadoritsuku bashohoe I Want New World
…
Why does his pissing made me finish the stupid song…anyway I'll had to leave the last song again…man…it's already 2.00am and I still had to finish the music for this song…
P.S pass song to the president to save Bad Luck
9 October 1999
Dear diary,
I lost my first kiss today…to Yuki Eiri (he's the one who pissed me off). I found out his name when Hiro told me…he's a novelist of the most popular love stories. Hiro somehow convinced me that I had fallen in love with a guy. But truly I was as what Yuki said I was really happy when he hugged me in front of that woman. Anyway I never intended that kiss. I was supposed to set down a challenge against him. And somehow leaving the scene to find me trapped in a corner of the lift with his lips on mine.
This also resulted in me falling in love with this really cool guy…
I MUST BE OUT OF MY MIND!
But honestly I do like him…
By the way Bad Luck was saved…
Concert in Zepp Tokyo on the 17th…ganbatte…
Yuki read the pages of the book. " That brat had a diary? "Yuki couldn't take it anymore he flipped the diary to it's latest page.
It was written:" I don't know if Yuki loves me anymore. He never told me that he loves me…"
Yuki read those words over and over again. Tears started to drip on that page. Shuichi was barely remembering himself now, how can he tell him of his bottom of his heart that he does love him? Yuki grabbed onto that page tightly, crumpling it in process.
" Nee…Shuichi…"
" Nande Hiro san? "
" Nothing…"
Shuichi sat down on the couch. First he found his old diary, now he felt that he regretted reading it. It was all too much…too much information on his past that made him afraid of Yuki somehow. He remember flipping to one of the page reading:
"I was all left alone after yuki told me that he killed his sensei, Kitazawa Yuki."
Although it was all resolved later, it scares Shuichi as much as the darkness and emptiness in himself. Shuichi walked out of the studio to the vending machine wanting to get a drink to calm him down. He took a big gulp of the juice and looked at the ceiling wondering the many confession in the diary. Many many thoughts came to him in that second, why did he accept Yuki-san in the first place? Why does he not fell in love with someone else?
He sat down on a bench and took out a notebook. " Yuki san must be crying now…" he thought. Taking out the cap of his ballpoint pen he started to write a song of his thoughts today.
LOST
By Shindo Shuichi
I'm sorry that I've lost hope in all
To be lost in your love
Blindly falling into the traps of life
I couldn't see me in me
With my lost soul
Wandering in space
I do love you I guess
But it's not the one you see before you does
I'm not what you see to be
I'm not to be found by you
Nor if I could find it myself
I see that you're crying
But I can't do anything
I'm not the one before
I'm sorry but I'm gone
Please let me off
Not that you can't bring me back
It's that I've given up myself to fate
I love you
I love you not
I don't know cause I'm lost
I'm sorry that I've lost hope in all
To be lost in your life
Calling out to nothing really hurt
You absolutely do not know how I feel
With my lost soul
Wandering in nothingness
I see that you're in pain
But I can't do anything
I'm not the one before
I'm sorry but I'm gone
Please let me off
Cause' you really can't bring me back
It's that I've given up myself to fate
I love you
I love you not
I don't know cause I'm lost
I'm not to be seen
I'm already gone
The old me have really died
Find me in hell or heaven
Find me there
I do love you I guess
But it's not the one you see before you will
I'm not what you see to be
I'm not to be found by you
Nor if I could find it myself
I see that you're regretting
But I can't do anything
I'm not the one before
I'm sorry but I'm gone
Please let me off
Not that you can't bring me back
It's that I've given up myself to fate
I love you
I love you not
I don't know cause I'm lost
I miss you
I miss you not
I don't know cause I'm gone
Lost forever
End
I wrote this story cause I know you ppl out there never seen ppl in anime world experience it much, right?
I know the story is short, I'm very sorry cause my mind is so blank after
The medicine started to took it's effect…I'm running a damn fever and had
Nothing to do. So I guess I better write something since I
Can't fall asleep. To generate more brain cells.
I wrote the song myself giving the title "lost". I'm trying to edit the other 2 stories too.
I found out it had lots of grammar mistakes…
Seeing my writing skills start to improve I'm
Very excited .I wanna write better stories in the future.
Arigto minna san for reading…reviews please whether you wanna criticize me or praise me or just a few words…I'll accept all your comments!
See you in the next chapter my readers…cya…