Disclaimer: Gravitation belongs to Maki Murakami Sama! It has nothing to do with me okay? This is only a pure Gravi story that I came up with …Maki Sama is my God! So that's it okay!
Gravity
Chapter three: Crush
"Hey Ryu what are you doing with my lunch box!"
Noriko screamed as she saw her favorite band member taking her lunch box from the shelf. She grabbed the lunch box and Kumagoro from preventing what Ryuichi was about to do.
" Nori…I was about to make some dough with it as a container."
" Why not use yours? "
" Mine is already filled with my lunch…nanoda…"
Ryuichi walked away grabbing back his pink bunny from Noriko. Then left the apartment. Walking on the corridor he saw what it seems to be there idling around, Shuichi. Ryuichi always liked Shuichi, the hyper energetic vocalist who is his idol too. Suddenly he thought about the first time he saw Shuichi. It was on the stage in the clubhouse Zepp Tokyo, both the guys sang on that very stage together roaring the crowd to it's highest.
The talents of this very vocalist amazed Ryuichi. He got interested in this little boy ever since. He took peeks at him while the band was practicing. He went to cheer for him in every performance of Bad Luck. Not only that, he knew every of his preference, Ryuichi was always there for Shuichi whenever he feels that he's needed.
Ever since Shuichi had lost his memory, the both of them had lesser words to exchange. All was not the same without the old Shuichi. But the both of them still spend times together talking about their past as if they're telling tales to a little boy.
Ryuichi walked towards the quiet little boy and sat down beside him. " Shuichi…what are you doing? " Ryuichi grabbed the notebook in Shuichi's hands and started reading the lyrics that seems to be draining his energy.
LOST
By Shindo Shuichi
I'm sorry that I've lost hope in all
To be lost in your love
Blindly falling into the traps of life
I couldn't see me in me
With my lost soul
Wandering in space
I do love you I guess
But it's not the one you see before you does
I'm not what you see to be
I'm not to be found by you
Nor if I could find it myself
I see that you're crying
But I can't do anything
I'm not the one before
I'm sorry but I'm gone
Please let me off
Not that you can't bring me back
It's that I've given up myself to fate
I love you
I love you not
I don't know cause I'm lost
I'm sorry that I've lost hope in all
To be lost in your life
Calling out to nothing really hurt
You absolutely do not know how I feel
With my lost soul
Wandering in nothingness
I see that you're in pain
But I can't do anything
I'm not the one before
I'm sorry but I'm gone
Please let me off
Cause' you really can't bring me back
It's that I've given up myself to fate
I love you
I love you not
I don't know cause I'm lost
I'm not to be seen
I'm already gone
The old me have really died
Find me in hell or heaven
Find me there
I do love you I guess
But it's not the one you see before you will
I'm not what you see to be
I'm not to be found by you
Nor if I could find it myself
I see that you're regretting
But I can't do anything
I'm not the one before
I'm sorry but I'm gone
Please let me off
Not that you can't bring me back
It's that I've given up myself to fate
I love you
I love you not
I don't know cause I'm lost
I miss you
I miss you not
I don't know cause I'm gone
Lost forever
Ryuichi felt like crying. He doesn't really know why. Shuichi looked at the man who seemed to be different to what he thought he was to be. He noticed tears dripping on the lyrics he just written.
" Sa…Sakuma san? "
A pair of strong but shivering arms pulled Shuichi towards his idol. " Don't look at my face…" Shuichi felt the weakness of his idol, he leaned against his shoulders and kept quiet. He didn't know what to say, he knew that the old Shuichi would know. He felt helpless towards this situation. All he could do was to wait until Ryuichi calmed down.
Before he knew it Ryuichi was starting to get passionate with him. His hands stroked Shuichi's pink hair mumbling in words that seemed to be silent. Before Shuichi could even react, Ryuichi had set his lips towards Shuichi's, letting his tongue into the lips of the boy before him.
" Sorry Shuichi, I'm really really sorry…"
Ryuichi picked himself away from shuichi, who was still in a daze of that moment. He can't reply to Ryuichi nor move a muscle. He was shocked and surprised to what had happened before him. What he had written in that diary does not reply to this answer. Why did Ryuichi kissed him?
Ryuichi picked himself up and ran away as fast as he could, he himself did not even know what and why he did that. Shuichi picked up Kumagoro, which Ryuichi had left behind while running away. The pink rabbit looked at Shuichi with the eyes of the purest angel. It seems to be telling answers that seems to reply to what happened recently. The whispers from the angel seems dead to shuichi. He can't hear what he should know or not know. He hugged the bunny close to him and laid his tired body onto the bench. He was really tired… he felt like crying but nothing came out. He closed his tired eyes, which flashes the moment of fear in him, he hugged Kumagoro close to him and fell asleep.
Ryuichi ran all the way home into his room, ignoring Noriko's presents, and locked himself in his room. He put his fingers against his lips, still confused and petrified by his behavior. " What have I done? What's wrong with me? Shuichi…" He pulled his blanket over him and screamed hysterically. Weirdly, he was blushing. He was really happy for some reason.
" What the heck…why am I so happy for? "
He took out Bad Luck's album and played the tape. He looked at the lead singing vocalist and felt that a bubblish feeling was rising in him. Shuichi looked so dear to him no matter how many times he looked at him.
He totally forgot the lost of Kumagoro and got engrossed in Shuichi on the screen.
" I'm an moron Shuichi…I think I'm in love with you somehow from a long time ago…ever since I met you I feel happy. I thought you were my best friend and never intended to what I've done today. "
The thought that he had a crush on Shuichi made him felt guilty for a moment. Shuichi was his best friend, a guy and someone who is already married, who love Yuki Eiri after managing his choices of life.
" Moron huh…sure you are. "
Ryuichi turned around, shockingly to find that Noriko had entered the room with a bunch of keys in her hands.
" No…Noriko! "
" What are you even thinking or not thinking! "
" I'm sorry…"
" You ought to! Why didn't you tell Shuichi earlier…before he fell in love with Yuki san! "
" Huh? "
" Don't huh me, tell me seriously do you really like Shindo Shuichi? "
" I…I don't know…"
" What! "
" You know that he liked Yuki san right, I had already lost the rights to love him even if I do so."
" M-O-R-O-N "
"…"
Noriko held Ryuichi tightly in her arms, " You had only one life…one and only…it doesn't matters what but you do have the rights."
" …Thank you…Noriko…"
End
Man I'm so dead…
Eugene niisan is sure gonna kill me…it's been
Such a long time since I've contacted him.
(Anyway he's my god brother)
Just one thing I wanna confess here…
Gomen Eugene nii…it wasn't intentional
I promise…
Arigto minna san for reading…reviews please whether you wanna criticize me or praise me or just a few words…I'll accept all your comments!