Magic; The Guardian
Author: Nic
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: Don't own anything but the idea
Warning: AU, Shounen ai, Heero POV
Pairing: Heero/Duo
Duo has brown eyes this time, bare with me.
Shadows
/I still remember it like yesterday. I was a little child, a mere 7 years old. I just.. felt the urge to go there.. into the house.. into the room.. And there you were, in the crib.. Little Duo, since then I've always watched over you./
I sit in the tree, fold my arms, I can see you run, you laugh and trip. You start crying and I ache.. It hurts to see you cry.. to see you in pain.. There's nobody around to help you. Should..? I shouldn't show myself to you.. You're not in mortal danger.. I see two big brown eyes looking towards the tree and I know I'm lost, lost forever..
I get out of the tree, cover my wings first and walk towards you.
A sobbing little boy looks up to me, but you're not scared.. You know me.. Deep inside you know me better then I know myself.
-"Who are you?"
I panic, I can't do this.. But I already heard myself reply..
"Heero"
I can see your eyes light up, you found a friend, even though I'm 6 years older. A friend.. You have no idea yet..
It's years since the day we met, I'm your best friend.. You still have no idea who I really am.. I doubt you'll ever know, I fear you'll never understand, I'm afraid to lose you.
You know I'm hiding something, you know me too well, far too well.. You're so beautiful, only 12 years old, I'm 18 now.. You seem much older, maturer. I shake my head. I can't tell you, you're far too young..
-"Heero, what is it?"
I grin at you
"Nothing's wrong, but that suit is just horrible!"
I'm such a liar and you know it, the black and white suit hugs every piece of your body perfect, thank god that I'm an Angel or I'd be such a pervert.. I repress any memory of that kind.
You look at me strangely, disappointed. It hurts, it almost makes me want to cry.. You go to sleep and the next morning you forgot all troubles..
I cry to myself, I can't help it. I see you sitting on the wall, your heart shattered in a thousand pieces over the ground. You need my comfort but you asked me to leave you alone today. You figured out that I go wherever you go.. You're 15 now.. I'm starting to doubt, my feelings grew stronger.. I know I could make you happy.
/A beautiful boy, you don't belong in this world. You're not like the others, you're different, you understand things others can't, you're not from this world and neither am I.. Don't cry please.. Almost.. I'll tell you, make you understand../
That's when it all changed, you're 16 now.. You made new friends, earthen friends.. Some of them are great.. I can get along with Wufei and I can tell Quatre and Trowa will help you. Others are horrible, I saw them today.. They were yelling at two boys holding hands.. I imagine holding your hand.. I can't anymore, I was so close to telling you, but I'm to afraid you'll get hurt. I'll fight for you of course, I'd die for you in a split second but I don't want you to feel left out. I always was your only friend.. You seem happy having all these guys now.. You even have some girls following you around.. Well, even? I know you're attractive.. Like Hell I know.. You wear a mask to them, you're happy Duo.. I know you're not, I know you too well.
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You enter my room, I pretend to be sleeping, I could fell you coming, I can feel something bothers you. You try to wake me, of course I'll wake, I'm always here when you need me..
-"Heero?"
You're voice is trembling, you sound insecure. It takes me less then a second to turn around, sit up and hold you.
"What's wrong, Duo?"
A long pause.. You shift place and sit next to me on my bed. You seem hesitant to ask me, though you know you can ask me anything, anytime.
-"Heero.. Are you in love with me?"
I laugh, but you seem serious, dead serious.. You seem mad, scared.. That's the final hint I need. You don't want me.. My eyes soften, I tear up inside but I won't ever let it show.
"No Duo.. I'm not"
You smile and get up, you seem relieved and go back to your room.
/How could I be such an idiot.. My feeling interfered with yours, I was scared of losing you, of telling you, of the way you'd react.. I was mad because I couldn't change the moment you asked me this.. I.. I was relieved.. relieved it was over, relieved I didn't hurt you.. Ha.. What a joke, now I know better../
You left that night.. I was terrified..
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