Chapter 8: Two types of love
Recap:
They all stood up and where about to head out when they heard something rustling in the bush near by and they all got into their fighting stances.
"Who's there?" Cyborg asked.
The figure came out. They all lowered their guard.
"It is I Starfire."
Robin ran up to her and held her in a tight embrace. After what he saw, he needed to make sure she was still real.
Starfire was shocked at first but gladly returned the hug. He let go and laid both hands on her shoulders examining her; to make sure she was okay.
"Are you okay? I mean he didn't hurt you did he?" He asked still looking at her making sure there were no bruises, cuts, or sign of struggle.
She smiled warmly, and said, "I am fine friend Robin. Kevin would never hurt me."
Robin saw something wasn't right but he refrained from asking, he just wanted to know if she was fine.
"We were so worried about you!" He said. Raven began to walk over to the T-Car.
"Some of us more than others" Raven said as she passed by the two.
"Well, I thank you friends for worrying about me, but really there is no need at all. I am well." Starfire said. Robin looked as if he was about to interrogate her seeing that she still looked a little troubled with something. But before he could let out a word, Cyborg spoke.
"Hey, Ya'll I think we should be getting home. It's getting late." He stated. They all nodded and began there way to the car. Robin stopped when he didn't hear Starfire's footsteps on the soil behind him. He turned around to see her looking up and the starry filled sky. She looked so beautiful to him.
"Star, you comin'?" He asked. She looked back to him and smiled.
"I was hoping that perhaps I am able to fly to our home. The night looks quite relaxing." She asked, hoping he wouldn't mind.
Robin, when it came to Starfire, was always a tad to overprotective with her, but seeing her face and that smile, he waved his arm gesturing her to go ahead.
"Okay. I'll see you back at the tower then." He said, trying to be as calm as possible.
"I thank you friend Robin. I shall as you said, see you back at our home." With that she floated off into the sky.
As he watched her go, he whispered into the air, but knowing she wouldn't hear.
"Be careful."
Starfire flew up high and caught a wisp of the sweet scent that the earth night gave. It was beautifully dark and the clouds could only be seen if you went up to the top. She smiled gracefully and turned around to face the stars. They were shimmering above her which made her eyes reflect the sparkle in her eyes and gave her a magical touch. She spread her arms out as if she was swimming through the water. She closed her eyes and relaxed at the feel of the soft, wet surface of the clouds the she ripped by. She arched her back as she went higher and higher. Her red, long, hair whipping her shoulders and back.
She loved flying. It always lifted her out of reality and made her fiction. On her planet, flying was mostly done during when the sun was out, so at night the skies were clear from people. She took that chance when she was a child to fly away and just enjoy the beautiful gift of defying gravity. She never did it again until she came to earth. She couldn't resist the dark yet mystical skies that bordered the blue swirled with green planet that she had journeyed to.
She wished that all people of this planet knew how wonderful it is to go above their fluffy clouds and soar.
She sighed and twirled around giggling as the rushing winds tickled her sides.
Then she shot straight up stopped when she thought that if she went any furder she would be gone from the planet's atmosphere.
She looked straight down and put her hands behind her head as she began to fall down.
She fell through clouds and came out soaked. But she didn't mind. Then she got into a hawk position looking straight down and closed her eyes to see the bay at which her home stood on. Or rather the island that it stood on.
It seemed as if she was about to hit the waters with a fatal crash but at the last minute she made a 90 degree turn and zipped through the waters. Waves and ripples formed by the shores. She lifted herself back up face to the sky and flew up on the tower's roof, where a smiling Robin was standing watching her fly gracefully and happily. He sometimes wished that he could fly, watching her do it always made him feel like he could just jump off a cliff and soar with her. But he knew it would never happen.
Her two front feet touched the solid concrete of the roof top and she gave him a warm smile when she saw him.
"Hello, Robin." She greeted.
"Hey, Star." He greeted right back. She began to shiver like crazy and rubbed her shoulders for warmth. It was then that Robin noticed that she was wet. He took off his cape and wrapped it around her. She was shocked at first when she felt it around her shoulders but then she smiled back at him, and stopped her shivering.
"I thank you friend Robin, but will you not be cold?" She asked feeling a bit selfish that she was there with warmth and he there cold. But he was not wet so he just shook his head.
"No, your wet not me. How did you get wet anyway?" He asked.
"Oh, well you see I was going through clouds and I believe on your planet the white fluffy substances that float on your skies are filled with a moist substance, also known as water. So I got the 'soaked' and that is why I am wet. You can take your cape back if you want, I do not wish to get you any angrier at me for getting it wet." She slid the cape off of her shoulders and gestured it back to him.
Robin was shocked at what she had last said.
'Why would she think I'm angry at her?' He thought.
"I'm not angry at you Starfire. Why would you say that?" He pushed the cape back to her and she hugged it close around her.
"Well, I yelled at you earlier, and pushed you down, and I didn't do what you told me to, and I should have never done that. I am truly sorry." She slumped her head down. He picked her chin up, and looked into her emerald eyes that he loved to get lost in.
"I'm the one that should be saying sorry Star. I yelled at you. And you were right."
She gazed into his mask.
"About what Robin?" She asked, a little confused.
"About how, I had no right to touch you, or scream at you, or force you to say anything that you don't want to. I am so sorry. Will you ever forgive me?" He said softly.
She embraced him into a gentle hug, which he shockingly returned. He stroked her hair and held her there for a few more seconds.
He loved her. He really loved her.
She reluctantly let him go, and they both just stared at each other with one arm still wrapped around her waist and hers on his shoulders. (Okay just for some info…Robin in my fic is like the same height as Starfire. Just incase you were wondering. OH! And for Kevin, when I said his hair was cut, I don't mean bald, I just mean cut low.)
"Robin, I will always forgive you." She whispered to him.
He smiled and saw her still shaking a little.
"Your still cold, I think we should get you inside." He said a little worried about her getting sick.
"Of course. I do not wish to get the 'cold' and become sick." She said, while they both made their way inside.
Robin walked with her to her room, both of them chatting about things that Starfire didn't understand about the world and Robin was there to explain.
When they reached her door, Starfire took of the cape that he lent her and handed it to him, but he pushed it back to her.
"You do not wish to have your cape back?" She asked confused.
"Naw, you could keep it, I have another one." He said with a smile.
"But surely, you would want this one back, I do not wish to burden you in only having one." She said while rubbing her thumbs lightly on the cape.
"Starfire, please just keep it." He pleaded to her with a charming smile and Starfire sighed.
"Very well. I thank you Robin."
"Don't worry about it." He waved his hand as he walked away.
Starfire smiled, closed her room door and continued to rub the cape with her thumbs examining its lovely texture.
She folded it up after a few seconds and put it a near by chair. Then she put on her pajamas, which were a lot like her uniform only with out the boots and much smaller.
She climbed into bed and slept, but not peacefully, she slept troubled. The same words repeating over and over in her head,
"One week Koriand'r. Please just think about it."
'I must make my choice.' She thought as she drifted to sleep
The next day:
All the titans were in the main room, either playing video games or reading, except for Starfire and Robin.
Starfire the minute she got up, got dressed and walked up onto the roof.
She had once again been flashbacks of her past, and wanted to clear her mind again.
She was also unsure about something.
'Oh X'hal! What should I do?' She thought.
She didn't understand why this was such a hard thing. The right thing to do was to say 'no' to his request. But was it really the right thing to do? She knew that she had said she would protect the city as a teen titan, but was that all?
She did love Kevin, but for some reason Robin kept entering her thoughts. She had always known that she had 'certain' feelings for him; she just didn't think they would be string enough to hold her back from doing such a simple task.
But deep down she knew, she knew that she truly loved him. She had moved on from Kevin. For he was just a childhood love, which was her own fault for breaking.
But Robin, to her he was something else, something totally different from Kevin, a different type of love. This is the type of love that gave her butterflies any time he was around, the type of love that when he touched her she felt shivers go down her spine, the type of love that was mysterious in its own loving way, the type that couldn't be forgotten or moved on from.
Kevin, his type of love is totally different, the type of love that came from the heart, the type of love that had no secrets nor mysterious, the type of love that was unbalanced yet when it stood it could not be broken, and the type of love that held countless memories.
Both loves so different yet so alike.
Starfire sat by the near edge, pressuring her hands with her forehead because of all the thinking.
"Why is this so hard?" She thought out loud in an annoying voice.
She sat there for good thirty minutes before coming up with a way to choose.
What if her purpose for being at the tower, for being a titan, had none? What if she was just there, a burden to everyone, Kevin said himself that he and Slade wanted her. Then perhaps, she would be better use elsewhere.
Her mind had wandered out to far. She was now lost, and this was her only escape. She came to earth, she sought out being wanted and loved, but what if she wasn't wanted here, what if the one person that she had feelings for didn't love her?
Kevin had said she loved him, Robin had not.
Kevin had constantly said that he needed her, Robin never had.
Kevin said that Robin would not take him in, Robin wouldn't.
Kevin said that Slade knew more things about her than Robin or her friends knew, which was true.
She would find out.
Starfire was on a quest to know if she was needed, to know that she was loved.
The two different loves differ in balance, but what if she was more worthy with another?
That's what she needed to find out.
She was lost and she had forgotten her promise.
The promise that held her power.