Recap:
Starfire was on a quest to know if she was needed, to know that she was loved.
The two different loves differ in balance, but what if she was more worthy with another?
That's what she needed to find out.
She was lost and she had forgotten her promise.
The promise that held her power.
The next day, Starfire walked down to the common room where all the other titans were busy doing their own things.
She decided to take a seat next to Raven.
Raven noticed this and scooted a little to the right from where Stafire was sitting in.
After a moment of silence, the sound of thick book slamming shut signaled that Raven was irritated.
"What do you want Starfire?" She asked in her usual monotone voice.
Starfire sighed lightly.
"Well, you see friend Raven I was simply wondering, something."
"What is it?" Raven asked again.
"Do I have a purpose sitting next to you? Or can you live without it?" Starfire asked.
Raven thought that must've been the stupidest question in her life, but then again she thought of all the stupid questions that Beastboy asks and decided to answer it with a truthful answer thinking that it would make her go away.
"I can defiantly live with out it Star. In fact if you left right now, I would bee happier, so I can continue reading." She said, referring to the seat, but of course Starfire didn't know this, not knowing that this answer would affect the course of Starfire's route to an escape in the opposite direction.
Starfire was a bit taken aback but said,
"Thank you friend Raven."
Then she stood and walked over to the two boys that were on the couch, their minds focusing, and only focusing, on the game.
Starfire took a seat next to Beastboy and waited a few more minutes before she began her asking.
Beastboy didn't really notice Starfire until she spoke,
"Beastboy, I was wondering if you can answer the following questions with your truest answer and not anything more." She stated.
Beastboy just nodded not even taking a glance at her.
"Okay. Beastboy, would you be able to live without my puddings of sadness?" She began with her questions, that she thought mostly suited Beastboy.
"Yea. I can live without it. It kind of makes me sick, no offense." He answered, looking at the screen.
Starfire looked down, a bit ashamed, and not knowing what 'no offense' means.
"Oh…well would you be able to live without my tameranean traditions?" She asked hoping he would answer differently, but sadly Beastboy just shrugged.
"Yeah…I think I could Star…Hey You CHEATED!" He yelled like a little kid at Cyborg.
Starfire saw there was no point in continuing with Beastboy so she walked over to the big half robot.
She sat down next to him and gave a warm smile. But he didn't see her. He was too busy like Beastboy, beating him for like the hundredth time.
" Friend, Cyborg, I wish to know if you will be able to go on, fighting crime and helping you with your car without me being here." She told him.
Cyborg didn't really pay attention and thought she was just asking one of her normal questions about their game or some other thing. Instinctively, without looking at her,
"Yea, Sure Star whatever….You can't pass me, you know you can't pass me, because I'm- You passed me!" Cyborg yelled at Beastboy, totally disregarding what he had just told Starfire.
Starfire sunk low into the couch then stood up with her head dropped.
'I am not even wanted by my own friends.' She thought to her self.
She trudged up onto the roof, to put into thought all that she had just heard.
Robin took notice of her sad expression and ran after her, right before she closed the door to the surface of the roof.
Starfire walked to the edge unaware of the leader behind her felling very concerned about the past events.
She stood there letting the wind toss her auburn hair about.
Robin stepped up behind her.
He was going to speak but she spoke first.
"Robin?"
He took a few more steps so that now he was fully beside her. He saw the way she was focused on the city, and now defiantly knew that she was troubled. Lately he's been seeing more and more of her like this.
He didn't like it. She wasn't telling him something, and he felt the need to know.
First with her name, then with her promise, later with the 'Kevin', now with this.
"Yea, Star." He responded. She turned away from the city and faced the opposite direction.
"Do you…" She trailed off, a little shy.
"Yes Star?" He asked wondering what's been ticking in her mind.
"Well…I was asking our friends a series of friendly questions which mearly stated if they were able to live without me, they all answered with the same thing and now I believe that the only way I can stay is if you tell me how you really feel about me." She said as fast as the speed of light, after panting for breath.
Robin didn't get hardly anything of what she had said except for that she wanted to know how he felt about her.
"What are you trying to tell me Star?" He asked.
Starfire gave out a long sigh and looked into Robin's mask.
She needed to make this easier for him.
"Robin, do you like me?" She asked.
Robin was a little nervous.
"Of course I like you Star, you're my best friend." He said.
"But do you like me more than just a friend?" She questioned.
Robin pulled on his collar, sweat dropping.
"Uh…um…" He wasn't sure what to tell her.
"Well…do you Robin?"
Robin couldn't answer, he just couldn't. His instinct was to just turn away and say no. All his teachings say not be open, to keep his feelings silent. And that's exactly what he did.
"No…Just friends Star. Just friends." He said regretting every word, but it wasn't time for him. He's the type that the time came when you were in a life death situation.
Starfire's heart shattered, and her face dropped.
She felt like an idiot, for asking. He felt like an idiot for lying. He had made a mistake and now she has to act on it.
"Oh…okay" She said while she continued to look over to the bay.
Robin couldn't say anything more. He couldn't just stand there either though, so he left, he left her alone, so he could think about what he had said, to think about his mistake. He turned around and walked into the tower, not knowing that that was probably the last time he will see her as a titan, as his friend, as her.
'Just friends. That's all he like's me as. 'No' is what he said. So no shall be my answer. I have made my choice. And although it may not be the right one, it is the answer. Kevin here I come. I am no longer a titan.' She thought as she took one last glance at her old home. She didn't need a week. All she needed was a day. She flew away, no longer as a titan. She now had to find Kevin and Slade.
Stupid Robin!
Okay that was a bad chapter, but I had to write this before my dad's comes and deletes it all and I am never again to be able to write because I'm still on probation from the computer. Sorry…I'm bad I no…But well there it is. Short I know…. Really Really Short….Sucky I know...Stupid but NOT pointless I know…but either way, it's still there and I would be more than happy than take questions and review.
Thank you all for your great reviews by the way and the advice.
----------------Spoiler----for later chapters do not read if do not want to be spoiled---
For those of you that ask me so many times if Kevin dies, I can't give that out but I can say that someone dies, yea it's going to be sad but that's all I'm going to say for now…yea not much of a spoiler because in all sad stories someone ends up dieing but I just want to clear it up.
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Your one and only,
Princess Lali of both Spain and England