Chapter 7: Maybe some hope yet...
It had been a week since the others had left. Hiei hadn't moved from the windowsill at all except to use the bathroom. He hadn't eaten or slept and he drank very little water. He hadn't spoken at all and when Botan tried to talk to him, he would only shake or nod his head or shrug. When anyone else tried to talk to him, he completly ignored them. He just sat there, waiting, wondering, praying, that maybe the ones he trusted, maybe even considered 'friends', would come back to him. Or maybe they abandoned him like so many others had before.
It was raining heavily outside on the evening of the seventh day when Hiei sighed and headed for the bathroom. Botan looked up when she heard the door close behind him. She listened carefully to make sure he came back out. She had been incredibly worried about Hiei being in a room alone ever since his 'attempt' seven days ago. She heaved a sigh of relief when she heard the toilet flush and the sink turn on and then off. But then she tensed up when he didn't come back out. She listened as closely as she could.
Hiei walked to the medicine cabinate and opened it. He searched through the various pills until he found the Aspirin and Valium. He put 10 of each on the counter and proceeded in swallowing each with a glass of water. He considered using the razor in the medicine cabinate to slit his wrists. But decided against it. He stared loathingly at his reflection in the mirror.
"I hate you." He said to the person in the mirror. "Stupid, worthless, Forbidden Child. You deserve to rot in hell! All you ever do is cause pain, no one loves you...so just go die!" Botan, who was standing outside the door at the time, got scared as she heard this. She ran as fast as she could to find Koenma. After failing to find him, she rand back to the bathroom and flung the door open. She screamed when she saw Hiei, laying unconcious in a large pool of bloody vomit. She ran over and knealt beside him to heal is body as best she could. (she's gonna heal his stomach so the meds don't wear away the lining.) She cried as she shook his limp body trying desperatly to wake him.
Darkness surrounded Hiei as he lay on the brink of death.
'Perfect,' he thought, 'my plan must have worked. But why then, have I not left this body. The pills should have killed me by now.' Then he heard a voice screaming his name.
'Botan? What does she want?' He wondered as he started drifting towards conciousness.
"HIEI!" Botan screamed, "Wake up! Please, wake up!" She smacked him in the face a few times but to no avail. It had been 10 minutes since she found him and, though she healed his stomach, she found very little hope in him living. She cried as she thought about what life would be like without the little fire demon on their team. Did he really want to die that badly?
"How could you think that no one wants you? That no one loves you?" she sobbed as she looked at his paleing face, "I love you." She froze as she realized what she had just said. Did she really love Hiei? That cold, arrogant, asshole of a fire demon who, at the same time, was protective, loyal, and even...cute?
'Wait! Did I just think of Hiei as being cute?' She looked down at him, 'Alright, so maybe he is cute. If he lives, I'll tell him that to piss him off. Actually, I never realized how fond of him I am. The yelling fights we have are really quite fun. Gah, I need to quit stalling. Afterall, he's dying. Quick Botan, make up your mind. Do I love him?' She thought for a moment, 'Yes'
"Hiei," she sobbed, "Please...don't die. I love you." By now, Hiei was just coming to.
"Would you stop all your crying and screaming ferry woman! It's giving me a headache and- wait! What did you just say"
"HIEI!" Botan squeaked happily as she launched forward to squeeze the life out of him. (aka a Botan hug of death)
"Yes, yes, happy times." Hiei said sarcastically, "Now answer my question." Botan all of a sudden looked extremly angry and started smacking Hiei repeatedly.
"OW! What was that for?" Hiei yelled.
"That's what you get for trying to kill yourself...again!" Botan said, "And to answer your question...I said I love you."
So that's my next chapter. I hope you liked it. If you didn't notice, I had a rather large mood swing while writing it. In the next chappie: Hiei responds to Botans vow of love. Please R/R! TTFN!