The Pain of Love and Friendship
Chapter 2
As he sat there watching her sleep he could not help but wonder how long he had just blocked out her feeling of pain and just passed it off as she was upset with work. He noticed that as of late she caught a lot of slack from the other agents because she was a girl and they felt that she belonged behind a desk pushing papers and answering the phone. She has proved them wrong since because now two of them are confined to desk duty until they are done with physical therapy. So he assumed that was what was bothering her but it must have been that and the current situation with the pilots that has her all worked up into this ball of raw emotion an tension. Even as she slipped she was not happy, he could feel the sadness run off her aura like waves crashing on to the beach.
"Tell me how can we help you? My friend, our friend let us in to help you. For you have helped us." Quatre said just as he slipped into a light sleep dreaming of happier days.
Flashback
The seven of them were all staying at the royal palace in the Sank Kingdom. The eve wars had just ended and the pilots were gathering one last time just before they thought they were going to go their separate ways. The were laughing, drinking and fooling around. Raye thought that they should play a game of truth or dare, we were not sure what she had up her sleeve but we decided to play anyway.
"Duo, truth or dare." Raye said with a look of mischief in her eyes as she took another sip of her drink.
"Truth" cam the quick reply from the chestnut haired boy.
"Is it true that you like Heero as more than just s friend?" Raye said as she sat back in her chair knowing full well what the reactions of the two pilots was going to be. Heero held his gun to my head and gave me a death glare to top all death glares, Duo just sat there rooted to his chair turning every shade of red that he possibly could.
"What... what did you just ask me! How could I answer that... I mean we are all just friends." Stammered out the shocked pilot.
"Oh come on Duo I have seen the way you look at him when he is not looking or the way you always try to get his attention. Did you think that no one would notice? So just answer the question 'Do you like Heero as more than just a friend?" She said as Heero pressed the barrel of the gun harder into my head.
"I cant believe this but...but ...YES... I like Heero as more than just a friend." He said bowing his head more so to hide the bright shades of red that he was turning then in shame. Heero released the gun from my head and turned to face Duo. There was something in his cobalt eyes as he lifted Duos head.
"Really Duo you feel something for me?" Heero asked as if he was a little child who was just told he could have the best toy in the store.
"Yes, I have felt something for a long time but I never thought to tell you because I thought that you would have shot me and told me that 'silly emotions would make me week and endanger the mission' so I told no one but I guess at times I was obvious to others. I did not want you to find out this way but I guess this is better than me not telling you at all." Duo said looking the spandex clad teen in the eyes. Just then they shared a small kiss and every one was floored that this happened except Raye. She just sat there drinking her mudslide.
End Flashback
Trowa came into the room the next morning to see Quatre asleep sprawled out on the small couch. What worried him was the look on his face it was a look of someone who was in a lot of pain. Then he looked to the bed to see Raye also asleep, but something seemed off about her she seemed almost like she was at peace. He walked over to her to make sure she was still alive and as he got closer he noticed the slow rise and fall of her chest.
"Good morning" Quatre said slowly sitting up and looking at the clock since is was only 6:15 am. Rubbing his eyes he walked over to Trowa and wrapped his arms around his waste and yawned.
"You need some more sleep little one how about we go back to bed for a little while longer. "Trowa said as he turned to face his young lover.
"Okay but only for a few more hours we have to be up by nine because we have to meet with the girls at eleven." Quatre yawned as the two pilots left the room.
"I don't think a large gathering would be a good idea right know I think what she needs is just us to show her that she is needed here and that she is not alone. I fear that a large party or group might just further her need to get away." Trowa said as they entered their room that they shared and slipped into bed next to his Arabian prince.
"You may be right but maybe the girls could give us an idea of what she might be going through or talk to her and let them help us help her know." He said as he curled up to the warmth of his lover and fell into a deep restless sleep.
Just as the two boys left the room Raye got up out of bed and went into the bathroom that was connected to her room. Once she was in there she took the bandages off her arms that Heero had placed there the night before after he cleaned her wounds. She stood in the mirror looking at the fresh wounds and scars that marked her arms wondering why, why had she lived this long in so much pain. She felt that she should end it now but there was always that part of her that said 'they need you and you need them just talk to them let them know how you feel'. So she just stood there holding a blade playing with it in her hand wondering what she should do next.
TBC...