Sorry this one took so long to put up. Anyways here it is, hope you R&R

Chapter three: Nightmares

"No!" Raven shot up in bed. Her heart beating swiftly as she breathed heavily. She raised a hand to her forehead clearing it of cold sweat. She threw her sheets aside and hastily got out of bed. Glancing down at her alarm clock she realized it was only three in the morning. She grabbed a black silky robe that hung beside her bed and wrapped it around her nude body. Walking over to her window she opened the glass panel letting cold winter wind rush into her room. She climbed up onto the frame and allowed her legs to dangle out the Tower. She held the robe close to her body as her eyes reflected the distant diamond like stars that twinkled miles away.

A nightmare had woken her from her sleep. One which she had visited several times in the last year. It had been more of a slide show playing in her mind, several memories flashing before her sleeping eyes. Memories she pleaded to erase. Some new, some much older from when she had become her fathers portal, or when a blonde girl was almost the death of her over three years ago. But the memory that played in her head the most was the day in the caverns when Terra, although under Slades control, almost murdered Beast Boy. Only, in her dream Terra did not take control. In the dream Raven visited over and over again Terras sharpened bolder had dropped. Raven had tried her hardest. The rock had turned black as she struggled to keep it up, but she had only been able to hold it for so long. And just like every other time, the rock turned gold once more and fell.

Raven shook her head as tears filled her closed eyes. "Stop thinking about it!" She told herself her voice hoarse "It's just a dream. Terra's a thing of the past. Beast Boys over her, why aren't you?" She opened her eyes and whipped away the tears. The voice in her that spoke the truth made its way out of her lips "But is he?" Raven looked out the window remembering earlier that day outside the high school. Again Raven found herself visiting the dream. "NO!" She screamed louder.

Bang Bang Bang Raven nearly fell from her perch in the window as the knocking on her door caught her by surprise. "Raven? Are you ok?" Beast Boys voice came threw the door. His voice was hurried and worry filled his words.

"Yes" Raven snapped back at the closed door "Leave me alone!" She could feel emotions rising dangerously in her, she needed to calm down. "Are you sure?" Beast Boy called back. He stood outside her door wearing baggy P.J. pants with monkey heads and bananas on them. He had sleep written all over his face and his messy hair was even more messy then usual.

"I said yes!" Raven said trying to stay calm. BB frowned "I heard you scream." His voice was still full of concern as he watched the cold steal of her door. After a short argument with himself, he reached forward and slide Ravens door open.

Raven turned and nearly fell from her window again. She glared at him as the moonlight shone threw her window and onto him now standing in her room. She wrapped her arms around her to hold her robe closed as she jumped down. "Get out!" She shouted at him as she continued to try to hide that she was necked under the robe. "Rae," Beast Boy complained "I was only trying to help" He realized her bareness under her robe and could not help but think of how beautiful she was. How slim she was, how smoothly the robe curved to her body. 'Stop thinking that!' He told himself.

Then Get OUT!" Raven repeated. Beast Boys patients were also growing short now as he struggled to keep those thoughts out of his head. "Well I'm sorry I worried! Next time I won't!" The two glared each other down for what seemed for ever, until finally someone snapped. "God Raven, why do you have to be so bitchy? Terra never was." Beast Boy threw out without thinking. Seeing the look in Ravens eyes his ears drooped as he realized what he had done. "Rae, I…I Didn't mean that." But it was too late, the damage was done.

Raven looked at him her eyes a mix of anger, and as BB dared to look into them, pain. He had hurt her. "Well I'm sorry BeastBoy" She whispered in a voice so calm it scared Beast Boy. "I'm so sorry I can't match up to her." "Rae, I'm sorry" BB pleaded as he saw her eyes begin to shine with tears. "Please Raven I…" But he got no reply other then the shooting of a door in his face. Standing in the hallway BB listened, and gritted his teeth as he heard the sound of a girls muffled cries in a pillow. He flinched as he heard shattering glass. Above his head a light flickered on before the bomb exploded. BB put up his arms to shield himself.

"I don't care how bitchy she gets, that was uncalled for" Beast Boy jumped as a voice came from behind him. He turned to see Robin standing in the hall. "I didn't mean it" BB pleaded once again. Robin only glared at him from behind his masked eyes. After a moment Robin spoke. "Why'd you say it then?" You know she's still soar about that subject."

Frowning Beast Boy looked at him. His ears dropped even lower. "No, I didn't know. She doesn't tell me as much as she tells you." Beast Boy suddenly found himself feeling jealous of Robin, and the bond he shared with Raven. 'She tells you everything, doesn't she?' he thought coldly.

Robin looked over Beast Boys shoulder at the sound of books being thrown across Ravens room. "Either way, you should know better then to compare her to Terra." With a yawn Robin headed back to bed. "Just be more careful about what you say to her." He called back before disappearing down the dark corridor.

Beast Boy looked back at Ravens down and sighed at the now utter silence that came from her room. "I'm so sorry" He whispered before he to turned and left for bed.

Inside her room Raven had calmed down slightly. Books and shattered glass cluttered her floor. She now sat at the head of her bed tears still streaming from her blood shot eyes. Her purple hair hung in her face as she stared down in concentration at her wrist, which laid in her crossed legs. She watched as blood trickled from a fresh wound that ran across her pale skin. In her other hand she held a blade of glass, the tip red with blood. Why did Raven cut herself? She used to know, along time ago, but she had forgotten. Now she just assumed she did it to take out frustration on herself rather then letting it loose on her friends. She had heard the boys talking out side her door, and when she heard Beast Boys whispered sorry she closed her eyes as more tears ran down her pale cheek. The glass fell and she bared her face in her bloodied hands.

For the next few days there was utter silence between Raven, and Beast Boy. It wasn't that either was angered at the other, only afraid to break their sudden silence. Raven feared she might lose control of her emotions and hurt Beast Boy, or even worse. While Beast Boy feared what might escape his lips. As the days passed the other Titans began to fear that their two friends may never be able to work things out. They were also worried about how the two had separated themselves from the rest of the team as well. Although this was normal for Raven, Beast Boy normally depended on company. Now that he had cut himself away from such, Robin, and Starfire were truly worried. And when they did see Raven she had bandages around her wrists. When Star, or Robin asked what happen she only said it was an accident before hurrying away.

Yep the classic Raven's suisidal idea. I'm acualy in a roleplay were it was Beast Boy who committed suiside.(hey Lucy)wheather Raven does in my story you just have to wait and see.