I am truely sorry that this chapter took so long to post. I blame school finals and computer hogs. Anyway better late then never corect? and without further a due, Chapter 6

Chapter 6: confession and denial

The days passed by peacefully as Beast Boys wounds healed. About two weeks after Raven woke up his casts came off with a little bit of help from Ravens powers. It was now early February, he still limped just a little and had a few scars showing on his face from the stitches, but in good time they would fad away completely. Either way he was doing very well for a kid who had been crushed by a falling bolder.

He sat in his room, thoughts passing threw his mind. Lately he had been locking himself in his room. Sitting in silence trying to filter threw his sloppy train of thoughts. They quickly moved threw his head like a conga line. The next thought coming before the last had a chance to finish, only confusing him more. The topic of these restless thoughts sat outside, below his window on the stony shore of the Titans island. Beast Boy frowned as he watched Raven. She was wearing a pair of baggy black cargos, and a long purple turtle neck. Beast Boy smiled as he noticed her small bare feet. The weather was calm today and the sun shone bright and warm on her back as it faced BBs window high above. The light gave her a golden glow almost angel like.

'You love her' the voice in his head teased. Beast Boy sighed restlessly. He did and he knew it, but he didn't know what to do about it. He'd felt this way for a long time, for almost a year.

'No, you've felt it longer then that, even with Terra.' "I need to talk to Robin" he decided out loud.

Walking down stairs he found Robin in his room. He knocked politely before entering.

"Hey BB" Robin said smiling, but when he saw the oh so rare seriousness in the changelings face he frowned. Robin could almost see butterflies fly from Beast Boys mouth as he opened it to speak.

"Hey Robin…c-can I talk to you?" The changeling murmured, trying to swallow down the butterflies.

"Yeah. What's up?" Robin asked putting down the paper work he had been looking at before Beast Boy entered the room.

BB rubbed the back of his neck nervously. "I…I think I like Raven" He spat out feeling his ears droop and his cheeks glow red "…I mean a lot"

Robin nodded understandingly. No surprise had shown on his face. Just like his crush on Starfire, Beast Boys crush on Raven was known by everyone in the Tower, except Raven, and until recently, Beast Boy as well. "I see…" Robin replied in a leader like manner, but not completely leader like. There was a sense of brotherliness in his voice. "and you don't know how to tell her?"

"Exactly!" BB replied happy that Robin wasn't mad or teasing BB about it. "I mean, what if she doesn't like me?"

"What if she does?" Robin asked.

Beast Boy blinked at Robins quick and slightly demanding reply. "What if I make a fool of myself?" He quickly spoke back.

"What if you don't?"

"But what if she hates me?"

Robin laughed causing BBs ears to droop even more. "What if she doesn't?" He stopped laughing and looked down at his green friend a caring smile on his lips "Beast Boy you'll never know tell you try."

Beast Boy chuckled nervously. "Yeah, I guess you're right…you're not worried about the team?"

Robin smiled and picked up his papers once more. "Don't worry about that, just go and talk to her."

Nodding Beast Boy thanked Robin for the chat and left the room still nervous as hell, but a little more determined.

Robin sighed as he held the papers in his hands. "Now if I could only take my own advise" he said with a sarcastic little laugh. He looked through his open door, across the hall, to Starfires own open door. The boy smiled as he watched Starfire dance around her room to the music coming from her radio.

Perched up on a rock Raven sat hugging her legs close to her chest, and her chin resting on her knees soaking in the sun that shone down on her arched back. A memory played like a dusty record over and over in front of her minds eye.

There was an explosion and screaming as rocks began to fall. Robin yelled at Beast Boy to run but he didn't. She tried to stop the rock, but she didn't. Her emotions wouldn't allow her. Next thing she remembered she was on the ground crying and screaming for Beast Boy to run. "God damn you Beast Boy RUN!"…

The seen played over and over in her head until suddenly her mind changed courses and a new memory came back to her.

The Titans all climbed out of their flipped and totaled car. She ached all over as they stood up. She reached up a hand and felt warm blood staining her forehead.

"Just a few cuts and browses. Everyone ok?" She heard Cyborg call out. She heard the moans of the other Titans in reply.

"What happened?" She asked looking around at her friends. Robin supported a frightened Starfire as he ignore his own broken nose. Cyborg boar a few dents and Beast Boys face was cut and slightly bleeding.

"Don't know" Robin replied helping Starfire hold herself up. He lead the team around to look at the damage of their car. As they reached the other side Ravens eyes caught sight of two blue eyes staring back at her. The others saw Terra as well. She looked at all the Titans and smiled at their wounds and looks of disbelief on their faces. Raven glared as she saw the suit she wore, Slades suit. She tore her eyes off the blonde girl to look at her team mates. Her eyes fell on Beast Boys face, and her stomach turned as he stared back at Terra sadness in his eyes. Sadness and disbelieving…

"Rae?" A voice pulled Raven back to reality and the movies finally stopped. She looked up with still slightly dazed eyes to see Beast Boy limping over to her. He reached forward using his hands to make his way through the rocks. Raven watched as he came up next to her and sat down. He looked around and picked up a small stone. Throwing it he counted the skips it made across the water. It skipped five times. When the rock sunk, he looked over at Raven and smiled. "Hey Raven."

Raven nodded "Hello" she murmured watching as he watched her. After a few moments of just silence, she looked around before looking back at him. "Yes?" She asked.

"Huh? ...oh yeah" Beast Boy said blushing slightly. Just tell her! Came the voice in his head again.

"I was…ummm…I wanted to talk to you about something." He could feel his cheeks burning red as his heart beat sped up.

Again Raven broke the silence between them. "What about?" She asked softly, her own heart also racing now.

Beast Boy sighed. "I just wanted to say I was sorry."

Raven looked at him confusion written clearly on her face. "What about?" She repeated.

"About comparing you to Terra that one night." Beast Boy twiddled his thumbs nervously, but Raven could make out the maturity and seriousness hidden in his boyish voice. "It was stupid and uncalled for and I apologize." He continued "I never meant to hurt your feelings." At this he stopped twiddling his thumbs and looked up making eye contact with Raven. His heart leapt when he saw something other then empty emotionless ness. "I was a real jerk"

Raven watched his green eyes seeing all the nervousness in them, but why was he so nervous? "It's alright, you don't need to apologize. You were only trying to help, and I yelled at you for no reason."

Beast Boy laughed softly. "We've both been total asses over the years." He said with a smirk. He looked away though, and continued "and…even though I was an ass a lot of the times, there's something I want to tell you…but I don't know how. And Robin says just say it, and I know he's right, but I'm still really nervous cause what if…"

Raven cut him off with a small smile. "Garfield you think to much…but I think I know what you're trying to say, and…and…" Now it was her turn to stammer. She looked up at him to find him watching her eyes a nervous, but mature look on his face. She suddenly realized just how close they were at that moment. Their noses were almost touching and they were growing closer still.

Before either of them really knew what was happening Beast Boy had placed a hand on Ravens neck, and their lips met. Ravens tense muscles relaxed and her eyelids slowly closed as she tasted his soft lips. The kiss was a soft one but it was long. Beast Boy had now cupped her cheeks in his hands, and Raven had rested her own on his chest.

Finally the two had to part for much needed air. They both gasped for air as they looked at each other longing to taste another kiss. Beast Boy smiled at Raven as he stroked her soft cheeks. But the smile faded and he lowered his hands.

"I…I'm sorry" He murmured softly looking down nervously.

Raven smiled one of those rare true smiles that made any ones heart who knew her well jump. "Garfield, you apologize too much."

Beast Boy chuckled and looked up only to find himself being pulled in. Raven had wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him into another, deeper kiss. This kiss was not so much as meaningful as the first. This kiss was full of lust as the two held each other close. Their tongues danced together until once again the need for air separated them.

Resting her head against Beast Boys chest she smiled softly to herself. Beast Boy smiled and wrapped his arms around her stroking her back soothingly. They sat there for a long time until suddenly Ravens smile faded as she felt emotions filling her heart. A large rock not far behind the two turned black and exploded. Raven quickly threw up a force field protecting them from the bits of rock that flew towards them. Her heart was feeling too much emotion now, and she was beginning to panic. She had never felt so much, she was afraid her heart would explode from all the emotion filling it. She knew she wasn't supposed to be feeling so much. Even with her improving powers she still could not keep them completely separate from her emotions.

Beast boy frowned seeing the fears in her eyes. Her eyes were so beautiful, like long tunnels leading those willing to follow down into her dark heart. But her heart wasn't that dark…just misunderstood and ignored for what it really was.

"Rae?" He murmured resting his hand on hers. "If it's too much for you…then you don't have to." He watched her eyes closely.

Raven blinked, slightly surprised by what he was telling her. "I know I shouldn't…but Garfield I really like you. I love you, but I shouldn't. My powers…" Tears were beginning to shine in her eyes. She pulled her legs closer to her chest as if trying to get as small as possible. Up in the Tower a window shattered causing Beast Boy to flinch. He watched as Raven cried. He reached over placing a hand on her shoulder.

With tears still in her eyes Raven looked up at Beast Boy causing him to pull his hand away. "I…I need to go and meditate." She murmured with a weak voice. She stood up and climbed back up to the Tower leaving Beast Boy alone with his sad and confused thoughts.

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