Sup dudes! It's me! miz-annonymouz04. Lol. Okay yeah I'm here with a one-shot. But I can make it a continuous story if you guys like. Tell me what you think. I'll be updating "I can't do this on my own" probably in two days or so. Sorry for the long period of wait between updates... anyhoo on with the story now shall we?
ON W/THE STORY!
Kinomoto Sakura,
You are cordially invited to attend to the wedding ceremony of Li Syaoran & Li Mei Lin on the 27th of May 2006 at noon time in the Fuji banquet hall, at Tomoeda, Japan.
We hope to see you there.
Sincerely yours, Li Syaoran and Li Mei Lin
R.S.V.P call 123-7654
Sakura read the card over and over again until it was engraved in her memory. 'Why?' she kept asking herself. 'All these years, he promised me he would come back, he said I was his only. I mean, was this all a joke? Did he maybe forget? He couldn't have, that bear I gave him is a daily reminder of me, as is his ring to me. Isn't it? Was Li Syaoran, the one I held dearest to me, was he really only toying with me?'
I'm waking up
To the beat of my heart
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
It tears us apart….
So I'm saying to you
I'll always be true
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart
Hmmm, I remember that faithful day like none other. It was the day that made me start a new life.
Here's what happened.
FLASHBACK
(You & me tune playing) "Hoe, who can be calling at (looks for a clock) 6:00 A.M! Ugh, this better be worth it."
" Moshi moshi? "
"Sakura, daijobou desu ka?"
"Oh, it's you Tomoyo, don't worry I'm fine, but why did you have to call so early, I'm not a morning person, remember? Or did Eriol take all the place in your heart and left none for me?" Sakura said while smirking.
Tomoyo was now a light pink in the face. "It's nothing like that Sakura" she said while blushing. I forgot about the time difference. Anyway, I wanted to tell you that Eriol and I might come to visit you this April. I mean, what with the fashion show almost wrapped up, I just need to take care of a few things."
"YAY! So I'll see you at April then right? Oh and when you say take care of a few things do you mean doing the nasty with Eriol before getting here?"
Tomoyo was now a beautiful tomato red that would have offended a tomato. "Sakura! Honestly, we are 22, well, you and I are. Eriol's 23, but still, you have a young mind my friend, a young mind-"
DING DONG! (What a corny doorbell, I know)
"Oh, Tomoyo, wait a second will ya, someone as early as you's at the door. Wait."
"Yeah, yeah, be quick, I don't get to call you for free you know."
"Yeah, I know."
"Delivery for Miss Kinomoto Sakura."
When Sakura went to open the door she was surprised to see a mailman with a little envelope in his hand. Well, it was beautifully decorated, but still, couldn't he prentend not to be baka and put it in the mailbox like all the other mailmen?
"Uh, sir, COULDN'T YOU JUST PUT IT IN THE MAILBOX! IT'S SO GOD DAMN EARLY YA KNOW!" a booming voice yelled out of a small body.
"KEEP IT DOWN WILL YA! SOME PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO SLEEP!" her neighbors yelled.
The poor man was terrified, was that a big voice from a little body?
"Ano..., I was told to deliver it personally. There are loads more of these types of letters. We are working almost non-stop at the post office. Sorry to be causing an inconvenience."
Oh, Sakura got it now. "No not at all! I should be the one apologizing to you! I mean, you're only doing your job. But thank you." With that she took the letter, gave him a smile, and shut the door softly.
"SAKURA! SAKURA! HELLO! WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ABOUT!"
"Hello? Sorry Tomoyo, it was the mailman, he had to deliver a letter himself. I guess it must be really important. Let me check it."
"Hmm, hmm, hmm, hey! IT'S FROM SYAORAN! OMG! TOMOYO! IT'S FROM SYAORAN! LET ME READ IT TO YOU. It says-"
She stopped dead on her words. She couldn't believe it, was it for real? Was HE for real? No, no, this must be a mistake, he promised me, she thought. All though somewhere in her heart she knew it was for real, her mind was in denial. The letter was addressed to her, how could he do this.
It read:
Kinomoto Sakura,
You are cordially invited to attend to the wedding ceremony of Li Syaoran & Li Mei Lin on the 27th of May 2006 at noon time in the Fuji banquet hall, at Tomoeda, Japan.
We hope to see you there.
Sincerely yours, Li Syaoran and Li Mei Lin
R.S.V.P call 123-7654
Her voice was caught in her throat. Barely above a whisper and in a voice filled with sadness that was about to crack, she told Tomoyo that she would call her back.
I'm waking up,
To the beat of my heart
"Uhh,... Tomo- Tomoyo, I'll, uh, yeah see you on April. I, I'm not feeling so well. I'll call you back, bye."
The dial tone was heard even before she had the time to reply. But she knew Sakura to well, out of everyone except maybe Syaoran, she knew her best.
She knew that Sakura was lying because for one, her voice was filled with sadness and it sounded as if it was about to crack, and two, Sakura didn't even know her number. (-.-')
Just then Eriol came in the room clutching an envelope.
"Tomoyo dearest, you have to see this."
Months passed and Tomoyo did speak the truth about visiting her. Thou they knew about the wedding they still came by in mid-April to try and cheer her up and because Eriol was best man.
Sakura was getting better and better by the day, and in the dance studio, where she worked, she made a great friend, his name was Xiao Hu. He was really nice and comforted her when she needed it most. Her heart was still broken thou. She knew no one could, at the moment, erase Syaoran from her heart. He was on a league of his own.
Thou she wanted him badly, she couldn't force him. Love is love, as is friendship is friendship. If he loved another she would just have to do her best to support him in his decisions. She knew that if he moved on, she had to as well. She wouldn't question him on his actions or on what she did to make the tables turn or anything. Because you can't change love. Nor can you control it. She would have to tell him thou, before it was to late, at least, for herself, so that she could move on with her life.
1 DAY BEFORE THE WEDDING
"So, Sakura, are you ready?" asked Tomoyo. She hated herself for bringing the subject up but she knew it was the only way for her friend to be able to move on.
"As ready as I'll ever be."
"Good, by the way, I finished our dresses."
Tomoyo handed her a dress and Sakura was amazed at it. It was so beautiful, or in Tomoyo's words, kawaii.
It was a pale pink dress that hit just below her knees. It was spaghetti straps too but Sakura didn't mind. The imprints had cherry blossom petals near the bottom of the dress. Once she tried it on she felt that it clung to her perfectly on all the right places but it wasn't too tight. It wasn't made out of leather or snakeskin or anything. Nothing but the purest, and the finest silk. She didn't know how Tomoyo did it, but she found out that when she moved, the dress would shine ever so lightly but not too lightly that it blinds you. She also had on long gloves made of the same color and material that started just below her elbow and ended at her fingertips.
DAY OF THE WEDDING
The day of the wedding Sakura looked absolutely dazzling. She had her dress on as well as those long, elegant gloves. She had on a white gold necklace and matching earrings. She wore pale pink heels that weren't too high, weren't too low. She also had with her her pink Gucci bag, and she smelled of sweet cherry blossoms. On her right hand, fourth finger, she had a pink ring that looked as if it was carved out of the finest diamond anyone could afford. It was the ring Syaoran gave her as a reminder of him. She wasn't as rich as he but her gift came with the same amount of love. A teddy bear, but apparently it wasn't strong enough to make it last. In any case, she really was a sight to see.
Tomoyo had the same things on and they all arrived together a little early with Eriol since as he was Syaoran's best man and that Sakura wanted to talk to Syaoran privately before the ceremony. She asked the dude who was already there and who was supposed to wed Syaoran and Mei Lin where she might find him. He said that Syaoran said something about a penguin park. Sakura decided to go there but not before warning Tomoyo & Eriol.
AT PENGUIN PARK
Sakura was searching for him when she saw a figure that oddly but really resembled him sitting on a park bench. She sort of knew it was him because no one but him could ever achieve that untamable-but-sexy hair style that he continuously sported. Plus, it was the same chocolate colored hair that she remembered for all those years.
"Li?" she said unsurely and in a voice filled with nervousness.
The man slowly turned around to show that it was really him. He still had the same untamable messy chestnut brown hair and his eyes were still an amazing amber color. Obviously, he still was a sight to see. She could even see his arm muscles that looked as if they were dying to come out of his tux. She looked down before she fainted.
There was a long moment of silence before Li decided to speak and brake the ice.
"Sa-Sakura? I didn't think you would come. I- it's been so long &- I'm sorry. I just, when I went back to China I was so lonely and Mei Lin was always there for me. The elders saw how close we had gotten and decided to arrange a marriage. I was happy that Mei Lin was there with me to help me that, at a certain moment, I- I forgot you, and I agreed to - well- to this…."
Sakura now had tears in her eyes. But she had to tell him what was in her heart before it was too late and that it was locked up forever.
"Syaoran, I too have something to say, please listen before I can't find the courage to say what I have to say anymore."
"Syaoran, since I've first met you I knew we had the possibility of being friends. Sure we often bickered but there was still the slightest of chances. Never lovers, but friends, I knew it was possible. What I didn't expect, was to fall in love with you AND have you return my feelings. I was so happy, and young, but a part of me knew it was too good to be true. And then, this happened. I don't blame you of feel remorse for either one of us. I don't regret saying this and I hope that you don't regret hearing it as well. I don't wish to take back time because that's not the purpose of life."
"I guess you really don't find your soul mate when your eighteen, where's all the fun in that?"
I remember smiling and daring to really look him in the eye as I said that.
"I don't even wish to question you or to keep asking myself what I did wrong."
I know I took a long breath before continuing. For me, saying all those words to him was like selling drugs then having the police condemn you to life. A real blow in the face, but you know that you have, or they have, to do it.
"But I will always love you. Maybe not always as lovers but as friends. But for now, please don't hate me, but the feeling of my love for you is still here. I don't want to believe it but I still love you. I guess that makes me the villain of the story eh?"
"But Syaoran, I still love you. I don't know if the feeling will ever go away, but at the moment I know that I have to get this all off my chest."
"You were the first guy I loved."
"DON'T SAY THAT SAKURA! LET ME EXPLAIN MYSELF!"
"Syaoran, please, I don't think I will ever regain the courage to tell you this, please, just listen to what I have to say." she said barely above a whisper.
"Maybe it will be different now with Xiao Hu. Maybe it's him who was for me like Mei Lin was for you. I'm happy for you Syaoran, really. I wish you the best of luck with Mei Lin and that you guys truly have real happiness. Out of all the people I know, you are the one who deserves to be loved and to love the most. All I can do is wonder, 'What if?' but no, I still don't feel regret or remorse for either one of us and I don't wanna take back anything or do things differently. I hope that we can still be friends."
I paused for a while to let it sink in. He gave a small nod to tell me to continue and that he was listening. I smiled at that. He really still was the same Syaoran that left me 4 years ago. (She's 22, re-read the phone-part if you don't follow).
"It might never be like old times, but I had to tell you this and I don't want you to feel hatred towards me. Syaoran, I love you and I always will, no matter what."
"Please remember that. I don't know where I'm going to go from here, but I know that life has something great in stores for me, as it has for you. I now know how this feels, the feeling of, truth I guess, I can't really describe this feeling. Remember me always because I certainly will remember you. This is a sign I suppose, that it was time to let go, let go long ago. I just didn't know till it was too late."
"But now, I'm starting a new life, a new chapter, a new leaf. Well, I guess I have nothing else to bore you with. Best of my wishes and congratulations Syaoran."
"Sa-Sakura wait!"
"Syaoran, please don't. It hurts badly enough. I- I just wanna go. I poured all my feelings to you and all I can do was done."
"Wo ai ni Xiaolang; goodbye little wolf."
Those were the last words I remember having said to him. I still feel as though it was yesterday that I poured my heart out to my first love.
The emerald-eyed goddess said without turning around. It hurted, real bad, but she knew it was the best, for both of them….
After she knew she was far enough so that he couldn't see her, she started to cry silently. Wheter it was tears of joy for him, of sadness for her, of anger towards Mei Lin, of passion for her words that came from within; no one knew. One thing was for sure, the weather didn't match the young lady's emotions. It was as bright and sunny as it could possibly have gotten.
I'm up from my down
I turn it around
I'm making it back
I'm not gonna drown
I'm taking a stance
I won't miss a chance
I want you to see
I'm not scared to dance
The way that you feel
Could never be real
I want you to know
I've finished the deal
So I'm saying to you
I'll always be true
To the rhythm inside
To the beat of my
To the beat of my
To the beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
It tears us apart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
The beat of my heart
Now I'm back to the start
Syaoran didn't even have the time to reply and Sakura was already out of sight. Permanently out of his life. Perhaps not forever, but that's what it felt like for him. He felt grateful that she didn't push it, but every one of her words shattered his heart. But he knew it was the best, for both of them. Maybe one day their paths would cross again. But until that day, all he could do was look forward to life and keep hope, for both of them. He then turned to leave the park and head towards his wedding with a small smile gracing his lips.
Been looking around
I've finally found
The rhythm of love
The feeling of sound
END OF FLASHBACK
I heard that Syaoran and Mei Lin now have two kids. I'm really happy for them. It's been 4 years since my confession to him and I am now a 26 years old actress. I'm dating Xiao Hu and we have a nice happy life.
It's making a change
The feeling is strange
Its coming right back
Right back in my range
Not worried about
Anything else
I'm waking up
To the beat of my heart
Love makes you do crazy things; like let the one who held your heart for so long let go so fast. Lets just say, for me, it was one hell of a big rollercoaster ride. But love is not selfish, nor does it take and give none in return. You can't describe love until you've found it. And love, it's just love.
Then again, happiness is what we truly strive for.
THE END / LA FIN
So what did you guys think? Should I make it SxS? A sequel maybe? Or does this suck as hell and that you guys don't even wanna hear from me no more? Tell me what you think with a lil review...
HILARY DUFF FANS, IF YOU ARE A FAN DON'T READ AHEAD OR HATE ME FOR LIFE… YOU WERE WARNED…
P.S: The song I used was "beat of my heart" by Hilary Duff. Let me explain myself. I HATE THE SHIT OUT OF HER. She's a freaking wannabe who disses, well TRIES, to diss other stars because they show skin. The fuck? Just because she don't wanna show no skin and pretends to be an innocent little prep doesn't give her the right to diss others. She is saying that no one should insult her and all, and what? She has the right to diss others? Her voice, lemme just say, that's something you use when you wanna scare somebody, no matter what the age. Anyhoo, I just thought this song appropriate for the situation and surprisingly, I like the song, THE ONLY song I like of her. Lol. So yeah, just to let you know, I basically hate her….
PEACE OUT! D
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