I'm back with my first not anime fanfic! I feel accomplished that I got myself off the anime streak! Since this is my first non-anime fanfic please don't give me any flames! I'm working on it! Hope you like it!

Note: Jess never went back to New York and Dean wasn't away at the time of the accident so he found out right away. Also, this will have mild humor and mild to moderate Dean bashing. Not a big fan of him. Finally, Christopher will not play a big part. But, if I do I might make him a little mean.

Warning: Jess is going to be really OOC! So don't flame me saying that Jess isn't like that because I've warned you!

Disclaimer: Oh please! If I owned Gilmore Girls it would have been off the air in a week!

Can't Take The Hate

Chapter 1

Hurt And Decisions

Gilmore House

"Morning, babe," Lorelai said looking up from her conversation with Christopher. "How's the wrist?"

"Hurts a little, but I'll live," Rory said shrugging. Walking over to the coffee pot she poured herself a cup with some difficulty before sitting with her parents. "When'd you get here, Dad?" Rory asked looking at her father.

"About 3 this morning. I drove here after your mother called and by the time I got here you were both asleep so I pulled up a chair," Christopher said.

"Sorry I made you come down," Rory said guilty.

"You didn't make me. I wanted to. Now tell me what this punk looks like so I don't kill the wrong kid," Christopher said smiling.

"It was an accident and we don't need a murder here."

"It'd make my day," Lorelai said adding in her 2 cents.

"Mom!"

"Okay, okay! I won't murder him…although I can't say anything about your dad," Lorelai said smiling.

"I'm going for a walk," Rory said standing up.

"Alright," Lorelai said nodding. "Be back by midnight," She said winking.

"Midnight! Too early!" Rory said playing along.

"Do I even wanna know?" Christopher asked.

"No," Lorelai and Rory said in unison before bursting into a fit of laughter.

"I'm gonna go get dressed," Rory said standing up. Coming back about 15 minutes later her parents saw she had changed into a dark pair of jeans and a black Bangles t-shirt and jacket.

"Hey! Isn't that my shirt from the concert?" Lorelai asked.

"Yes!" Rory said smiling. "Later!" she exclaimed running out the door.

With Jess

"Why don't I just leave?" Jess asked himself as he walked down the street, towards the bridge. "Heh. Why even ask? I already know why," he said sighing. Jess stared at the ground as he walked until he smashed into a solid object and fell to the ground. Before he could stand, however he felt a sudden force in his stomach.

"You bastard!" a voice said punching Jess again. Looking up Jess saw that the person punching him was Dean.

"Get off of me!" Jess said shoving Dean off and getting up before walking away.

"Why don't you just go back to New York! Oh yeah! You're here because not even your mother could stand you! Don't you see that everyone hates you! Get out of our lives!" Dean yelled as Jess walked away.

Blinking back tears Jess hurried his walk that turned into a run once he was out of sight. When he reached the bridge he saw somebody already there…Rory.

"Oh! Sorry," Rory exclaimed running off before Jess could say a word.

Sighing Jess walked to the bridge and sat down. Putting his head in his hands he allowed tears to fall. "Even Rory can't stand the sight of me," he said wiping his eyes roughly with his sleeve. Noticing his sleeve had come up he shoved it up the rest of the way before putting his hand into his pocket, pulling out an army knife. Opening the knife he slowly ran the knife over his arm and wrist making rivers of blood appear. As he slowly ran the knife over old and healing scars he began to speak. "So deadly…but I can't get enough of seeing my own," he said as he traced another scar. After the blood began to stop Jess stuck his arm into the water to get the blood off. He then dried his arm and cleaned his knife before putting it back in his pocket. Shoving his sleeve back down he stood and headed back towards the diner.

One Week Later

"Hey, Lane," Rory said as she walked towards her best friend.

"Hey! What's up?" Lane asked as she walked into step next to Rory.

"Nothing much, you?" Rory replied shrugging.

"Is anything good ever happening in the Kim house?" Lane asked trying to look serious.

"Point taken," Rory said laughing.

"Thank you," Lane said joining in.

"Hey, have you noticed anything different about Jess?" Rory asked, surprising Lane.

"Yeah," Lane said nodding. "He's been blowing Luke off at the diner more often and he's being more quiet than usual. Hell, even Taylor's worried. He thinks the 'young hoodlum' is scheming something."

"I think I may have done something."

"How?"

"After the accident I went for a walk to the bridge and when he showed up I ran off," Rory said staring at the ground in guilt.

"Why?"

"I don't know! I was nervous! It was the day after the accident and I just didn't know what to do!"

"Rory, this is Jess we're talking about. He probably just shrugged and had a cigarette."

"Maybe…I have to go meet Dean. Later," Rory said before she ran off.

"Later!"

Diner

"Where are you going?" Luke demanded as Jess made his way to leave the diner.

"Out," Jess said walking to the door.

"Bridge, right?" Luke asked receiving a quick nod.

"He could at least stay and help. It's busy, but nope. The Almighty Jess helps no one and cares about no one. I really don't get why you just don't send him back," Lorelai said not noticing that Jess hadn't left yet. Hearing the diner door slam Lorelai turned around to see Jess's retreating back and suddenly felt guilty. "Oh,

no."

"Just apologize when he gets back," Luke said refilling her coffee.

"Yeah…okay," Lorelai said nodding.

With Jess

"I don't blame Lorelai for hating me," Jess mumbled walking down the street. Looking up he saw Dean bending down to kiss Rory. Shaking his head sadly and blinking back tears he quickened his pace towards the bridge.

With Dean And Rory

"Hey," Dean said kissing Rory.

"Hey," Rory said faking enthusiasm.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Rory…"

"It's nothing. I'm just worried about Jess. Lane said he's been acting weird and that he's being even more quiet than usual. And he's been avoiding me so I have no clue," Rory said sadly.

"Let's not talk about him. He's not even worth our breath."

"Dean! He's my friend!" Rory exclaimed.

"What kind of friend crashes a car your boyfriend made for you and fractures your wrist!"

"It was an accident! He swerved to miss an animal!"

"I don't like him, Rory."

"Well, you've made that perfectly clear," Rory mumbled to herself under her breath.

"I don't want you to talk to him anymore," Dean demanded.

"Dean! I'm not going to stop being his friend just because you don't like him!" Rory exclaimed, growing angry. "God! I'm so sick of this…It's over Dean…we're over."

"So you're going to stop being friends with him?" (Wow, he's stupid!)

"No. You and me! We're over!"

"Funny, Rory," Dean said going to kiss Rory again only to get slapped.

"Get away from me, Dean," Rory said walking towards Luke's, leaving a confused Dean behind. Walking into Luke's she walked over to Luke and her mother. "Hey."

"Hey, Ror," Lorelai said smiling.

"Where's Jess? I gotta talk to him."

"He went down to the bridge…about five minutes ago," Luke said.

"Alright; thanks!" Rory said smiling as she rushed out the door.

With Jess (This was taking place during the Dean/Rory scene!)

"Funny. This is I came to this town and this is how I'll leave," Jess said as he put his army knife to his wrist. Applying pressure the blade entered his skin. Quickly slashing the main vein he repeated the process on his other wrist. Watching the blood flow from his wrists Jess smiled. "My life should never have started. I just cause trouble for everyone around me. Mom, Dad, Luke, Lorelai, Taylor…and Rory," he said allowing a tear to fall. "I come here and I screw up her relationship with Dean, I get her into a car accident, I fracture her wrist, and I ruin the car her boyfriend made for her! God! Why am I such a damn screw up? I just mess up everyone's lives. But, I won't have to worry about that soon," Jess said before his legs buckled and he fell to his knees.

With Rory

"What's up with him? It wasn't his fault we got into the accident," Rory said to herself as she walked. However, a sudden pang in her heart made her panic and begin to run. "Oh, God. Please let him be okay," she pleaded as she ran towards the bridge came into view.

"Jess?" she called as she slowed to a walk. When he didn't turn around she hurried to his side only to see something she thought could never happen. "Oh, God, Jess! Jess! Jess! Come on! Look at me!" she exclaimed panicked as she fell to her knees beside him.

"Rory…?" Jess said looking at her dazed before passing out and falling forward.

Quickly catching him she took off her Chilton jacket an applied pressure to his wrists with one hand; and using the other to call 911. Quickly giving them the information she moved his limp form until he was leaning against her chest. Now using both hands on his wrists she allowed tears to fall. Nestling her face in his hair she breathed in his scent. "God, Jess. Please be okay."

At The Hospital

"Miss? Is there anyone you'd like to call?" a nurse asked Rory quietly.

"Oh, God! I forgot to call my mom and Luke!" Rory exclaimed after a moment.

"The payphone is right over there," the nurse said giving Rory some change.

"Thank you," Rory said standing. Walking over to the pay phone she dialed Luke's. "He really needs to know. Besides, Mom is probably there."

"Luke's"

"Luke? It's Rory," Rory said sniffling.

"What's wrong?"

"I'm at the hospital-"

"What!"

"I'm at the hospital…with Jess."

"What happened! Which one of you is hurt!"

"Jess…he…he slit his wrists."

"Oh God. Is he okay?"

"No word yet."

"Alright. I'm on my way."

"Alright. Bye," Rory said hanging up.

At Luke's

"Alright. I'm on my way," Luke said hanging up. "Alright! Everybody out! The food's on the house!" Luke yelled shooing everyone out of the diner.

"Luke, what's wrong? Who's hurt?" Lorelai asked after everybody had left.

"Jess. Rory's with him at the hospital," Luke said grabbing his jacket.

"Why's he at the hospital?" Lorelai asked worried.

"He…he slit his wrists," Luke said fumbling with the keys.

"Oh, God," Lorelai said shocked. Putting her hand on his shoulder and making him face her she held out her hand. "Luke, let me drive. You can't drive like this."

"Thanks," Luke said passing Lorelai the keys.

At The Hospital

"Rory!" Lorelai called when she saw her daughter in the waiting room.

"You okay, Rory?" Luke asked as she gave him and her mom a hug.

"Yeah, just worried," Rory said nodding her head.

"Did you get any information?" Luke asked.

"No," Rory said shaking her head. "A nurse came by about 5 minutes ago, though. She said they'd be able to give us an update on his condition by 4:30 at the latest."

"Well, it's 4:15 now so why don't we sit down. You look like you're going to throw up," Lorelai said worried.

"Alright," Rory said nodding. "I do feel kind of sick. I think it's just because of all the blood. I never could stand the sight of it."

"No Gilmore can," Lorelai said shaking her head.

"Can you tell us what happened?" Luke asked.

"Yeah," Rory said nodding. (Okay you know what happened and if you don't then go back!)

15 Minutes Later

"Where'd he get the knife?"

"Wow, Dean's stupid."

"He probably had it since he lived in New York," Rory said shrugging. "And yes, Mom; Dean is stupid."

"Excuse me? Are you with a…Jess Mariano?" a voice behind them asked. Quickly turning around they saw it was a young woman with her light brown hair in a pony tail.

"Yes! Is he okay!" Rory asked anxious.

"He'll live," the doctor said nodding. "We have him on a blood bag and an IV right now. Which of you is his guardian?"

"I am," Luke said standing. "I'm his uncle."

"Alright," the doctor said nodding. "I need to speak with you for a few moments concerning this."

"Just tell them too. They'll find out anyway."

"You know it, Luke," Lorelai said smiling slightly.

"Alright," the doctor said nodding. "While I was looking over his records I noticed that this wasn't the first time he attempted suicide-"

"What!" Rory exclaimed interrupting the doctor.

"He's done this before?" Lorelai asked shocked.

"When?" Luke asked his voice low.

"September 28th of this year. He had slit his wrists," the doctor said looking up from her papers.

"Can we see him now?" Luke asked through clenched teeth that went unnoticed by the doctor.

"Of course. He's in room 285. By the way, I'm Dr. Glass."

"Rory, you go ahead. I have to talk to Luke," Lorelai whispered to her daughter.

"Okay," Rory said nodding before heading down the hall.

"Luke? Are you okay?" Lorelai asked putting her hand on Luke's arm.

"Yeah…I just can't believe this," Luke said clenching his fists.

"I know Luke-"

"No not this. The last time he did this…it's the day before Liz called to ask if she could send him here."

"What? Do you think-"

"I don't know. I just don't know," Luke said shaking his head. Looking up from the floor he looked at Lorelai. "I know you hate him, but I just wanna thank you for being here."

"It's no problem. Luke, after the accident…I just got so scared that Rory was hurt that I laid the blame on the first person I could."

"I know. When I went to find Jess I was going to chew him out, but when I found him out on the bridge…Lorelai, the kid was near tears. He never meant to hurt Rory."

"I know he didn't," Lorelai said hugging Luke. Lifting her head she looked at Luke before brushing her lips against his.

"What about Christopher?" Luke asked, worried that she kissed him out of pity.

"He'll always have a place in my heart, but I only love him as Rory's father. That's it," Lorelai said staring into Luke's eyes, nearly losing herself in their ocean blue depths.

"I love you, Lorelai" Luke said before closing the gap between him and Lorelai in a passionate kiss.

"I love you, Luke," Lorelai said kissing him again, smiling into the kiss. "Let's go see Jess," she said lacing her fingers with his.

With Rory And Jess (This is taking place a little after Lorelai and Luke started talking!)

"Jess, what was going through your head?" Rory asked taking hold of Jess' hand in a gentle grasp. "Jess, wake up. Please…just wake up. Just let me see that you're okay," she said letting a tear fall down her cheek. "God, Jess…if I hadn't run off the day at the bridge…things could have been so different! If I hadn't left I might have been able to see that something was wrong and helped somehow…then you wouldn't be here! This is all my fault!" Rory exclaimed through her tears. Looking at Jess she gently kissed his forehead before going to plant a gentle kiss on his lips. "I'm sorry Jess…I'm so sorry," she said before drifting off to sleep with her head on his chest and his hand still in hers.

TBC

Anime Girl23: FINALLY! I've had this in my notebook for a couple weeks now and I kept getting distracted while I was typing it so I'm happy to finally have it typed!

Jess: Yeah! Now everyone can read me trying to kill myself! sarcastic Thanks a lot!

Anime Girl23: You're welcome!

Jess: Mumbles Idiot.

AnimeGirl23: What? Anyway, just to clear things up for some of you when Jess tries to kill himself it's on a Thursday. In the show the accident was on Wednesday, the movie night was on Thursday, and she got out of dinner with the grandparents on Friday. Also, some of you are probably asking, "What happened to Christopher?" Well, just say he left the day after the bridge scene. Thankfully, he didn't run into Jess.

Jess: Sarcastically Ha ha. Very funny. Turns serious And what about you making me cry?

Anime Girl23: Just say all the stress and guilt of the accident along with the mood of the town towards you finally got to you.

Jess: Grumbles

Anime Girl23: Did you say something? Never mind. I don't wanna know. Also, I don't know the exact date that Jess got to Stars Hollow. So, just say that he got there on the 30th. He would need a day or two to be released from the hospital and pack his things. Final note! Since I skipped right from the day after the accident to the day he tried to kill himself; he tried to kill himself on Thursday. So, that means Rory had been at school. Thus, explaining the Chilton jacket. So it was pretty much Rory goes to school, Rory comes home and sees Lane, Rory meets Dean cough idiot cough, she goes to the diner, and then she finds Jess. So, she never changed into normal clothes after school. See you in the next chapter!

Jess: If I'm conscious.

Anime Girl23: Who knows? Maybe you will be, maybe you'll still be out.

Jess: I hate you.

Anime Girl23: Meanie!

Jess: Now see the purple button? Press it and type what you thought!

Anime Girl23: Jess, don't be rude! Please review!

Note: There is no new chapter yet. I've just fixed the typos and grammar mistakes. I'm doing the same with Chapter 2. I'll try and update soon, but I can't promise anything!