It was the morning of another day and the sounds of the twins fighting downstairs, alongside the high-pitched cords from Luna's guitar, woke me from my slumber earlier than I would have liked.
Lucy and Lynn were still asleep on my chest. The warmth of both that used to unease me was now the only thing keeping me from getting up.
Have to admit that I even find them adorable. Wish the rest of the exchanges with my other sisters were like this...
...
And yet…
I looked down, my chest uncovered and my legs wrapped between those of my sisters. There it stood. The common problems that arose at night are a mere annoyance compared to the problem that always shows up at dawn.
Yeap, the Loud log is standing once again...
The first few days just seeing me like this were enough to make me feel disgusted and on edge. I ended up learning how to take things easy after those same feelings pushed me to try getting out of their grasp…
Usually, that ended up with me wrapping myself between the sheets with the girls and ... ultimately made things worse.
I now understand that it is something normal. Just one of the things that come with age... including acne, ugh that will surely be a pain in the...
Lucy began to snuggle me and rub her face on my chest, interrupting my thoughts. I had to cover my mouth to keep from laughing at the tickles.
And in three, two ... one...
Lucy got up slowly, an almost inaudible "yawn" coming from her gritted teeth accompanied by a real yawn soon later. It was nice to see how she tried to use words instead of the respective actions.
"Did you rest well, Linc?" she then stretched, making sure her pace was slow and steady.
Lynn then woke up, and unlike Lucy, the first thing that came out of her mouth when she woke up were complaints.
"Ugh … go to bed Lucy it's still too early to wake up…"
Lucy then turned to the clock, "it's ten of the morning."
Lynn's eyes widened almost cartoonishly, "shoot," she pulled herself away from my chest, "I'm gonna miss the game!" A red and white trail followed her on her way out of the room shortly after.
"Well, I should get up too," I sat up on the bed, fatigue consuming my back and chest as a result. The side effects of sleeping through the night with weight on top of you weren't something to take lightly.
As the physical tension stretched out of my system, I couldn't help but notice how my sister was looking at me, with her hidden eyes fixed on my body.
I managed to bring her out of the trance by asking her to pass me my shirt, but it didn't last long before she was once again lost.
I pondered for a brief moment what could be going inside her head. Bad idea, we ended up starring at each other for a while, which only made the situation even more uncomfortable; so I decided to go the simplest route, confront her.
"Something wrong, Lucy?"
"U-um… no, I was just thinking…" she paused for a moment, "hey… Linc, why did you offer me to sleep with you?"
Now she was the one who wanted to get rid of the doubts, "honestly, it was the first thing that occurred to me that could put you in a good mood." I said before continuing my stretches, "besides I'm used to sleeping with you two. I know nothing bad will happen."
"Lincoln, I said it before and will do it again: You shouldn't trust me."
I laughed at Lucy's insistence, after all, it was hard to mistrust someone who took precautions not to hurt you.
Yes, I know it was a bad decision to think like that...
And yes, I know it was mean to laugh at her, Lucy made it clear when she pounced on me seconds later, the grimace on her mouth the only physical sign that she was upset.
"Lincoln, you don't know what I'm capable of," her breathing had become shallow. "You have no idea."
I took her by the shoulders and pulled her away from me. Her grimace and anger faded with each breath, turning into something different, something more dangerous.
I looked at her in dismay, a chill running through me, "Okay, I get it… I," I told her to try to calm her down, but that didn't stop her. Something was wrong with her, she was getting closer to me. Her lips had moistened and her mouth remained half-open.
At that moment the perception of time became confused, I had to make a decision and my brain knew that I only had a few thousandths of milliseconds to react.
I could push her away; escape from the situation and prevent this from happening to adults. I could run away; distance myself from her and prevent her confused feelings from getting stronger.
I just don't have to…
I wrapped my hands around her, slowly turning my hold into a tight hug, making sure to rest my head on her shoulder.
Escaping or pushing her away will only replace those feelings with worse ones, hatred, fear... whatever it is, I know it will be worse than love.
"Lucy, you need to understand that it's impossible for me to not trust you. I don't know what is going through your head, but let me tell you that your older brother loves you very much and is willing to listen."
Lucy was silent, but her body was able to respond with a hug of her own. Her soft hair caressed my neck up and down as she rubbed my back.
"I don't feel ready to talk… anyway, thanks for your words, Linc," she said before planting a kiss on my cheek and jumping out of bed, "I'll do what I can to keep my demons under control." She added before heading to my laundry basket and grabbing one of my boxers.
"Eh, what are you…?" I don't know what was worse, the thought of finishing that question, or that I already knew the answer...
"I'll need this as a sacrifice to appease the demons," she said smiling before loudly sniffing at my used underwear, "hmmm, yes~ this garment will serve as a worthy sacrifice."
Welp… both question and answer were as horrible as I imagined… I thought as my little sister ran down the hall, joyfully holding my used underwear to her chest.
I got up to close the door and rest, breathe out what just had happened for a bit, and calm down before starting the day.
I have to come up with a good plan if I want to help her.
I breathed slowly and sighed.
It's okay Lincoln, we'll have to analyze everything up to this point first if we want to make a good plan.
The first thing I considered was her reactions, Lucy seems to have a dilemma for which she distrusts herself. The second thing is her carnal urges ... I'm sure she would have done something to me if not for...
Because of… the treatment. It has been two days without treatment. I understand that nothing happened yesterday ... but today, how did I manage to control myself? Is it a side effect?
I need to talk about it with the doctor.
And it just happened to be Friday, which meant I could go to the hospital in the afternoon.
Looking at the clock, I noted that it was yet too soon to go. I needed to find what to do until it was time.
The first thing was simple, go to the pharmacy to buy the new treatment. My sisters were in their disastrous prime in the morning so they wouldn't notice if I were to escape. In the same way, since they are all separated, the most dangerous ones could take advantage of the situation, so I had to be cautious on my way out.
After dressing up, I went quickly down the hall and locked myself in the bathroom. While I was brushing my teeth I noticed that the music had stopped, Luna soon after came out, and several times she said my name.
Since yesterday there was a truce, but that does not mean that I let my guard down just for that. My ears tightened at the sound of footsteps approaching. I looked at the rack that led to my parents' closet and knew immediately what had to be done.
By the time Luna entered the bathroom, the only thing left of me was my toothbrush.
"I thought he was here…" I heard from the vent as I dusted myself off. Fortunately, Lucy keeps the pipes clean, although that does not mean that it is a bad habit of her to take shelter in the ventilation system.
That will be a scolding for later.
I came out of the closet and headed for the exit through the kitchen. Greeting Mom and Luan in the process. Dad was outside reading some magazines; having him there gave me a fairly large safe area.
"Lincoln!, you finally woke up. Tell me, you had your breakfast yet?"
"Will do in a moment, I have something important to look for in the store."
"Okay, son, but hurry up, in a moment your mother and I will make an important announcement."
"It won't take long!"
I got on my bike and headed for the pharmacy. The ride became more serene the further I got from my home. In truth, it was hard not to worry about that fact: I Always felt calmer when my sisters weren't around.
I definitely had to talk about it with Clare, about that and many things… hmm, better buy a notebook to write down the things that I'm going to tell her.
When I got to the pharmacy I met the girl who treated me the other day, and just like last time, she looked at me with a face of disdain that really put me off. And things just went worse after getting to her post, she didn't even look me in the eye.
"Just ask for your things and piss off."
"Okay, what's wrong with you? I don't even know you and you treat me like I'm someone who would punch animals for fun."
"Just hand over your recipe," she said grumbling. However, after I passed the recipe that attitude stopped.
"Hey, what is this?"
"Well, it's my treatment, is there something wrong with me needing medicine?"
"No, I mean, I thought you would continue wit… wait, let me ask you something," she had finally turned her eyes to me, "are you trans?"
"Trans?" I asked with a tilted eyebrow, "What is that, some kind of Autobot?"
"The medicine you bought before is used to transition from boy to girl," she explained, "I thought you were one of those crazy people who change their gender."
"What? No. It was only a temporary treatment, the doctor told me I would stop using it from now on."
The girl's attitude took a 180 degree turn when she heard that, she became kind and cheerful like a lullaby taking care of her favorite baby. Not going to lie here, I was a little scared after seeing that abrupt change.
I just bought the medicine and the notebook, and I left as soon as I could. Outside the store, I saw how she greeted me with a smile and wished me the best of luck in getting better...
It was bizarre how she radically changed.
Okay, note to self, going there for meds is a big no, no.
I shook my head a bit and took my bike back to the sidewalk, but the talk with the girl was still lingering in my head, one thing in particular: becoming a girl.
Does the medicine make girls act as if I was another girl? The idea caused me to smile because of how absurd it all sounded, yeah right, as if that would stop Luna and Luan, haha.
I left my bike on the porch and threw the bag of medicines through the window of my room, leaving only the notebook in my hands. Following this, I entered the house with slow and cautious steps. Once inside the house, I saw Lori and Leni's hair peeking out over the sofa in the living room.
Hmm, It shouldn't be hard to go-
Something pushed me hard to the ground, "Oh dear, I didn't see you there Linc, I'm sorry," was my father's voice, who lifted me shortly after. My head ached from the fall, but nothing compared to the blows that I have received in this house thanks to my sisters.
"Well, since you arrived, can you go and wait with your sisters in the living room? It's time to make the announcement!"
"uh… Yes, no prob."
My father went to the kitchen to find Mom. I was still a bit sore but that did not stop my head from thinking about my next action, which would be to find the perfect place to sit once I got to the sofa...
And ... the booth next to Lynn was taken...
Oh wait, there is a space between Lucy and Leni! I can sit together if she… wait, no… why…
Lucy, no, Why are you pulling Leni to the empty stall?
That, that leaves me with…
I looked into the abyss ... and the abyss tasted its jaws...
Lori.
Smiling from ear to ear, her hand patted the spot where my buttocks would rest, "Come on little brother, you can sit right next to me."
"Straight to the wolf's mouth, haha," Luan added, in case it wasn't clear enough that everyone was aware of what was going on.
My head was startled with the flow of ideas that could go through it, what if I refuse? Why do it? Will I be okay while our parents are there? We are still in a truce. Lori is just having fun with me for sure. I'll be fine for sure.
There is nothing to worry about...
The world seemed to have stopped at that moment, but my mind was not stopping. The thoughts kept jumping over and over again ... always in the same direction, always the same way...
There is nothing to worry about...
it was the lack of medicine, it was a mistake to believe that nothing was wrong with Lucy.
It's okay, I still can deny the stall... it's okay, I don't need to follow this path, is not the right thing to do. I should sit on the floor and that's it. I should be doing that… but…
For some reason, I can't….
I sat on the sofa, gulping down the leftovers of my guts.
Lori had no mercy whatsoever, as soon as I sat on the couch her hand went directly to my butt, squeezing it so hard that I could feel her fingers trying to penetrate the fabric of my pants.
My back, now rigid as the mast of a ship stranded in a windless sea, only showed how vulnerable I felt while we waited for our parents to return.
But when they returned the groping didn't stop. I forced a smile as they talked about taxes and other things that they have been handling this year. I was too focused on staying calm to focus.
"Well, kids, seeing how dedicated and responsible Lori is, we thought that your big sis-"
Yes, of course, the one that is, God- why do you have to squeeze so hard?
"And thanks to our combined efforts with Lisa. And..."
This, this shouldn't feel like this… it's wrong. Lori...
"Your dad and I decided-"
Don't put your hand in there. For goodness sake, how come they don't realize what's happening?!
"That we'll take vacations! And Lori will take care of the house in the meantime."
My forced smile was robbed of the strength that keep it alive.
The world had disappeared. Only darkness reigned.
I looked around me, my sisters' eyes shining like beacons. One by one they turned to me, smiling, like a beast hidden in the mist and foliage, a beast confident enough to let their thirst for blood shine in the dark.
Lynn, spinning like a rusty machine, was the last to turn. My hope was in a temporary truce, I knew that very well. Lynn wanted the same as the others...
But there was another way out.
Among the blinding light, Lucy's light was not pointed at me, her gaze was on the ground ... but her smile was not like the others. It was no more than a simple stroke...
It was an innocent smile, the smile of a pure child who knew this was wrong.
"Don't trust me."
Her words echoed in my mind, and then the little joy that had sprung up inside me vanished...
The simple line drawn on my little sister's lips had another meaning ... it was a false smile, hiding under her innocence a monster equal to all the others.
Can I really save them? The sour thought came from my subconscious, the sound in my throat reverberated inside my head like a beating heart when I tried to swallow my fears.
The world was beginning to regain its color, or rather, I was the one returning to it. I knew well that this was nothing more than a product of my mind, a reminder of the things to be prepared for...
But there are things that one cannot be prepared for. In my case, that was the reflection I saw in the mirror that Lola always carries with her. What I saw there was a smiling boy of white hair, with eyes that glimmered through the darkness just like the ones of his sisters.
My senses began to come back to reality, but they were still being overshadowed, this time by a question that wasn't raised before...
Can I really save myself?
"So if you have any important questions, don't hesitate to call us, understood?"
I had returned to the now, yet part of myself was too lost to make it back...
"Understood," my sisters said in unison.
"Understood ..." I added.
Dad looked at me with intrigue, "Is something wrong, son? Seems you are surprised by the news."
"E-huh ?!" Lori had tightened my senses, and my buttocks too, "No, it's just that I'm very happy! I hope you enjoy your rest."
As much as my head likes to linger on making plans, it's usually good at reacting quickly. Taking advantage of the fact that our parents were there, I came up with an excuse to go to the bathroom.
Once in the safe zone, I washed my face with water and began to remember what I was able to capture from the conversation. I still had time to go with Clare today, she could give me advice or help me to escape the next few days...
And more importantly.
My reflection, now ordinary, still reminded me of what I had seen during that little moment... that little smile, that thirst...
This thirst.
I looked down and saw the denim of my pants tightening around my member, which swell at the idea of being touched by my older sister. It was a fact: I was not disgusted by what my sisters did to me. Scared to death, no doubt, but I couldn't repudiate her no matter how hard I tried, that was what truly worried me.
I need to be honest with Clare about this.
Authos note: Hey, sorry for the delay, Some things had happened since October, a challenge, just got a new job (now I have two of those), and my side collab about the sinkid usually pulls me off from my current projects too. I'll try to bring out as many chapters as I can on the following days. I hope you liked this one uwu.