A quick note to a love lost...
the previous chapter was dedicated to you...
It has been almost two years since you've left me... yet.. even now as I write these words...words that you have once uttered underneath the covers of our love-- our bond... the tears still fall...
maybe that's why... today the sky seems bleak even in their vast freedom...
even so...
even if i cannot feel you, see you, smell your scent... I know you are always...
In my heart...
In my mind...
and above where the stars dwell at night...
and as I count each star... I remember the song you used to sing as I drifted off into sleep in the comfort of your embrace...
17... 17 stars... your song lasted 17 stars the last time I lay within your loving arms listening to your melodious song.
I love you Miguel... and I always will...
In the loving memory of you... Miguel A. My heart, My mind... My inspiration
May you ALWAYS rest in peace...
(June 15 1988-March 20 2004)
yours always,
Ayu...
A quick author's note.
First off, I would like to give my gratitude to the following:
Marsgodess for her utmost support for this fic… and forgive me for the cliffys (can't help it)
Ms. Jazmiin: though I greatly appreciate the support you've given mefor this fanfic… I really don't want you to lose your job over it (lol)
Phallophobia: thank you for the extra nudge for me to continue (yea…ya know what I'm talking about)
Jennjennr: Thank you and sorry for the confusion before hehe.
And
XyoushaX: yea, Thanks for the encouragement, I really do believe that Sakura faces significant tribulation that sadly, most viewers/readers just disregard this fact because of her obnoxious persona in the beginning chapters of the series. I just thought some credit should be given for her hard work (ryt?). Anyway, on another matter, I really would like to thank you for explaining to me the significance of suffixes….haha… I can't really say I'm the expert on Japanese expressions…I'm from the wrong Asian for that…my Filipino background doesn't really provide me with that luxury.
(bows down) paumanhin poh! (pardon me for my mistake)
Anyway, I shall try to improve to the best of my abilities.(or lack of 'em...)
And sorry about the typos guys…don't kill me...I really don't have time to edit this story because of the hectic schedule life has dealt me with. Sad to say, I'm more of a write-and-go kind of person...
yes, sad and pathetic.
that's me
However, I will (as I have said) try to do my best to please ya'll (errr…ya'll know what I mean by that…)
As for now, I believe I'll be taking a break (a short one so don't panic) from this fic. There are certain things in my life that need to be settled before I can continue with whatever "normalcy" I may have left. Somehow this fanfic was intended to make someone smile...and deep down... it served as my escape from the world...(yes, feel free to spit on my face and call me pathetic...at this point, I really don't mind)
anyway... I grow tired of things...
love,
family...
and now even life.
gah...I'm getting ahead of myself with the ranting.
before I get you guys depressed with my shit...it'd be best if I go walk it off somewhere other than the world.
Hopefully, with God's good favors... everything turns out for the best.
So...My little journey begins.
I'm stepping back from the crowd for now...when I'll be back? Who knows... let my heart wander...my mind think...and my feet walk as far as they please... I'll be back when they grow tired and weary.
With lots of love,
Ayu.