Disclamer: I do not and never have and never will own Degrassi. Sorry for taking so long getting a new chapter up! Thanks everyone for answering my survey, it really motivated me! Also it's a long weekend so I figured I'd get a new chapter up. I did buy the first season of Degrassi Junior High so I have a better idea of what Spike was like. Oh, and I tried a new format for this chapter to see how it looks! I wanted it tobe like in the book "What My Mother Doesn't Know."

Now we're in the actual office.
They did all the tests, now we're just sitting here waiting.
Waiting for the answers.
I can't stand it!
What is taking so long?
I wish I had my journal.
I need to write about how I feel.
How do I feel?
How do I feel about Jay?
About my child?
Our child.
Jay and mine.
What am I going to do?
Actually what are WE going to do?
He says he wants to be involved with the baby.
How involved?
What if I give it up for adoption?
How is he so calm with this?
He is just sitting in the corner!
I hate him.
No I don't.
I hate that he's so calm.
WHY ISN'T HE FREAKED OUT?
Wow, I'm freakin' out.
I wonder if he wants to be with me.
No, that's probably not what he meant.
He said he wanted to be involved with our CHILD'S life.
Not mine.
The baby's life.
But, the baby is connected to me.
It's living inside of me.
Maybe he meant that he wanted to be a family.
All three of us.
That's crazy!
Where would we live?
Not everyone's love life is as prefect as Sean and Ellie's.
Look at my mom and dad.
My mom wouldn't let my dad see me so he took acid, jumped off a bridge, ect.
But maybe that was for the best.
Now my mom has Snake and he is more of a dad to me than Shane had ever been. Whoa, I'm getting ahead of myself.
What if I'm not pregnant?
What if I'm over reacting over nothing?
Is that the door opening?
The doctor is coming in.
What is he going to tell me?
Am I pregnant?
Am I not?
Is it something else?
The doctor's voice is so soothing.
I'm not really listening to what he is saying, "something, something, Emma?"
I look at him and ask him to repeat what he just said.
Oh, my god.
It's true.
It's postitive.
I'm pregnant.
What am I going to do?