Doms shift had ended and he made his way out of the hospital and stood by the entrance waiting for Ange. He just wanted to go home but he knew that if he did Ange wouldn't let it go and would be constantly questioning him as to why he didn't show up.
A couple minutes passed and Ange appeared.
" sorry, I just had some paper work to complete" she explained.
"It's fine" Dom replied quietly.
They both started to walk towards Ange's car, when it started to rain. Ange explained that she didn't want her hair to get wet as it curled, so she made a run for the car, Dom followed walking behind.
Ange had made it to the car and unlocked it. She called out to Dom who was a few paces behind her.
"Hurry up!" She said jokingly, whilst climbing inside.
Dom just smiled and quickened his pace. Once they both had their seatbelts on Ange we began to drive.
"Where are we going?" Dom asked suddenly realizing that they had not discussed a location.
"To my house," Ange replied.
The car pulled up outside of Ange's house
and they both got out of the car and Dom quietly followed Ange inside.
Dom sat awkwardly on the sofa and played with his fingers. Ange opted for the arm chair opposite him. An awkward silence filled the room and Ange began to open up a conversation.
"Would you like a tea or anything?" She asked.
"No thanks" Dom replied.
There was silence again, which was quickly broken by the sound of a notification on Dom's phone. He reached into his pocket and found his phone. He read the notification off the Lock Screen.
"I'm really sorry I have to go" Dom lied. He had seen this notification as a way out.
" how come has some thing happened?" Ange asked not completely buying the lie.
"One of my neighbors said that I left the door of my flat open so I better go make sure everything's alright" he said.
"I'll come with you if you want"
" no it's fine don't worry, thank you for letting me come round" he said before hurrying out the door.
As soon as Dom left Ange pulled out her phone and started searching. She had seen Doms screen thanks to the reflection on the window behind him. She had found it. "I am sober". She quickly read the description on what it was used for and was horrified. The notification was congratulating him on a one day milestone. She got up and put her shoes on.
Dom had just got home and sat down on his sofa. He was glad that he had managed to escape Ange. He picked up his phone and started swiping through tinder. He matched with a couple of people before checking his messages. One guy, Sam had sent a topless pic, underneath asking for Dom to send one back. Dom just sat there staring at the glowing screen. At this point he lost it. All he wanted was to feel normal and he couldn't, not when he had this bag attached to his side. He got up, warm tears streaking down the side of his face, and walked into his kitchen. He picked up a kitchen knife and went to the bathroom. Dom lifted up his shirt and pressed the cold, flat side of the knife to his skin, right next to the stoma. Slowly he put more pressure towards the tip of the blade, and pushed until his skin broke and red crimson blood appeared. He kept carving into his skin, not only near the sight of the stoma, but all over his stomach area. His breath quickened slightly and he realized maybe he had gone a bit far. He picked up a nearby towel and pressed it against his stomach. There was one quite deep cut but apart from that, the rest weren't as bad, they weren't shallow but they weren't as deep as this one cut. Dom opened the cabinet and pulled out some dressings, he took loads a few months ago from work and stashed them here. Dom had just started dressing them when he heard a knock at the door. Shit. Who could that be? There was another knock. Dom just froze hoping that whoever it was would just leave. That's when his phone began to ring. He picked it up to see that it was Ange. He answered.
"Hello?" He said unsure.
"Are you in your flat?" Ange asked
"Yeah why?" Dom replied
"I'm outside, will you let me in?"
"Um- I'm actually having a shower right now so I can't" he lied.
" how long will you be?" She asked.
"Idk a while probably"
"Okay- I will just wait out here let me in when you're done" she said, not going to take no for an answer.
" I'm actually really busy tonight Ange"
"Dominic, just let me in when you're done okay?"
"Fine" Dom replied
What was he going to do? Quickly he finished dressing his cuts and he put on a grey hoody and black tracksuit bottoms. He then cleaned the knife, returning it to the drawer in his kitchen. Next he got the blood stained towel and place it in the washing basket. He made sure that he had cleaned up any last traces of blood and then he made his way to the door. He opened it, revealing Ange.
"What are you doing here?" He asked slightly annoyed.
"I just wanted to make sure you are alright, that's all" she said
"Well I clearly am so can you go now, I'm quite busy" he lied
"Dom are you sure you're okay you've - Dom, are you okay?" She finished in a slightly more concerned tone.
Dom was now leaning against the doorframe and had turned pale.
"You need to sit down sweetheart " she said, fear flooding her face.
She placed her hand around his back and led him to the sofa were he slowly sat down, wincing as he did so.
"Dom you've done something haven't you?" She said unsure of what to do.
Dom just nodded his head timidly.
"I know I shouldn't have gone that deep, I just don't know what happened?" He said very quietly.
"Where did you do it?" Ange asked softly.
"Can you please just leave me to fix this by myself?" He asked.
"Dom you can barely stand up let me help you" Ange said calmly, "lay down darling"
Dom lay himself along the sofa with the help of Ange who placed a cushion beneath his head.
"Where did you do it darling?" She asked again.
"Stomach" Dom muttered as a reply.
"Okay, I'm just going to lift your top up okay sweetheart" she said softly.
Tears filled Dom's eyes. He felt so weak and stupid for letting this happen, how could he let his mother see him like this?
Ange lifted up his top revealing the dressings. They had bled through. Ange immediately went to find a towel before returning.
" I'm going to call an ambulance" she stated.
"You can't I'm fine" Dom said slowly loosing consciousness.