Well I decided to continue this story, I just can't ignore it. So hope you enjoy it.
Sara's POV
These past couple of months have been hell. Catherine forced me to go to therapy and forced me to take three weeks off work and rest up. She said I was looking scrawny. I don't think I am but hey I'll do anything for her. Going to the gym isn't that bad. But anyway she knows about my parents and how they abused me. She knows about the drugs I've taken, she knows how many times I've tried to kill myself. She knows all about my past now. Funny thing is she still see's me the same way she did before, lovingly. That's what's confusing me. Most people I tell run away.
I've shown her the scars I have, the tattoo's I have to remind me. I don't know why but my doctor said that i'm self-destructive and thrive off it. Whatever that means. To me all that shit they talk about is bullshit. I know why I do it, it's because that's the only thing that I've ever felt. All my life pain. You can't expect me to just wake up one day and say 'hey it's a new i'm gonna find something else to do that doesn't feel pain.' No it doesn't happen like that. When you find something that you like doing and feels good doing you'll want to continue to do it.
I tried explaining it to Catherine I think she understood me. Oh, yeah did I mention she took away my guns, knives, and any other thing I could use to hurt myself. I've been sane for a couple months. Only one time did I hurt myself and that was accidental. I've been tempted to hurt myself on more than one occasion but Catherine's always been there to save me. She's saved me from myself.
Right now we're grocery shopping and i'm standing with my head in my hands leaning on the cart while she's talking. I like to hear her talking but sometimes I'll just zone out and take her in. She's caught me on more than one occasion. When she tosses the bag of chips at me I snap out of my day dream. "Why do you snap me out of my day dream right when i'm thinking about you?" She's smiling at me and I can't help but smile back. The question goes unanswered and I don't care. I'm just watching her move down the aisles.
We've been here for about an hour now and we're not even half way through the store. Now I know why men hate going to the store with women, always stopping to look at every little thing. Some women don't do that, I don't, I just grab what I need and go, but not Catherine. I think if she could she would live in the store.
"Sara do we have any vegetable oil?" Again she snaps me out of my day dream. "I don't think so." I answer her. I think she knows i'm tired, she's got that little smile on her face when she says I look cute when I do something. I'm still not use to being known as cute. It's a new thing for me. I'm about ready to collapse, hell the shopping cart even looks like a good bed. It's very tempting. I think I could fit. I'd give it a shot but I don't think Catherine can push me around. My legs could be a bumper though.
"Are we almost done yet?" I'm really really really tired and I want to go home and snuggle up next to her and the blankets. "All right, we can finish tomorrow." I smile and inside my mind i'm jumping up and down. I'm too tired to jump up and down right now. We quickly paid for the groceries and are finally heading home. My eyes are burning and feel heavier than hell. "We're almost home hun." I nod when I hear Catherine's voice but my eyes are drifting downwards.
When we get home we carry in the groceries and quickly put them away. I literally collapsed on the bed. My boots are still on and when I feel a slight tugging at them I know Catherine's taking them off. When she gets them off she crawls up next to me and snuggles into me. My arms automatically take their place around her and my head takes its place above hers. I can feel her gently kiss my neck and it feels damn good and it's making me sleepy. When I wake up I'll make her a huge ass breakfast.
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