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Iris
I glanced back up from my chart. Derek had just found the clot in Jason McClear's 3rd thorasic vertebrae. He looked up at me as if to ask my opinion. I nodded at him.
" See it?" Derek asked Izzie, as they both look through the microscope.
" Yeah, I see it," I noticed Derek swayed a little as he closed and opened his eyes.
" Ok, that's it. Good work..." Derek dropped to the ground. I jumped out of my seat, and pressed myself aganist the wall.
" Dr. Shepherd? Dr. Shepherd?" Izzie dropped down to take his pulse. " Somebody get a gurney in here!" Izzie looked up at me for a breif second, before helping get Derek on the gurney.
" Oh, my God," Meredith was right next to me. I started to run out of the gallery and she followed me. We were running side by side down the hall, but it just keep getting longer, and longer and longer.
Addison gasped as she woke up in her bed shaking. It was just a dream.
" Mommy, you ok?" Kennedy had been sleeping with Addison regularly.
" Yeah, Kenny. It's ok. Go back to sleep." Kennedy scooted closer to her mother and dosed off. Addison played with her daughter's hair for a moment before she too fell asleep.
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" Ok, I got you bread, peanut butter, cold cuts, marshmellows, chocolate, some fruit, graham crackers, kleenex, paper towels, chocolate, ' How to Lose A Guy in Ten Days', ' Walk the Line', and some more chocolate," Izzie said placing two bags of groceries on the kitchen table later that afternoon.
Addison who was seated table smiled at her, " Thank you so much. I know your schedule is probably so crammed, but I just.."
Izzie cut her off, " Hey you were my mentor, you brought me soup the week I had the flu, and you've probably saved me from atleast 20 drunk driving incidents, this was the least I could do,"
" Thank you," Addison said again.
" You're welcome," She smiled sitting down next to Addison
" I had the dream again."
Izzie looked at her wide eyed, " Did you?"
"Yeah, except this time Meredith was with me. And she tried to out-run me."
" Did you ever make it?" Izzie asked with a concerned look.
" No. I always wake up before I can."
" I can't believe you won't see someone. Your husband died, Addi." She said a little too loud.
" I know," She swallowed hard as she looked out the window.
" I'm sorry,"
" No, it's okay,"
" No. It's not."
After a few moments of silence, Addison spoke again, "I have to go get Kennedy." She got out of her chair.
Izzie followed suit," Uh, yeah I've got to go to the hospital. Patients await. Let me know if you need anything."
" Yeah I will. See you and Eric for dinner Friday?" Addison asked refering to Izzie's pediatrician boyfriend.
" Yeah, definately. Bye, Addison," She said walking out the door.
" Bye Izzie." Addison waved, shut the door, and fell against it. I can't be here. I have to go get my kid. Come on, Addison get up.You have to get out of this house. She gently pushed herself off the floor, grabbed her keys, and went to her car.
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" Hey, K. How was your day?" Addison asked her daughter as they headed toward the car in the daycare parking lot.
" It was good. I made you a finger painting." Kennedy held up a piece of paper with blue, green, and purple smeared all over it.
Addison smiled, " It's beautiful. Thank you." Addison opened the back seat door and blucked her daughter in.
" Can I turn the radio on?" Addison asked, glancing at her daughter through the rear view mirror.
" Ok." Kennedy said looking up from her Dora the Explorer coloring book.
Addison switched on one of her favorite stations as she came into a stop light.
And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
God, she hadn't heard this song in a long time. Addison knew she should change the station, but she couldn't. It was their song afterall. She gently mouthed the words, as tears dropped on to the steering wheel.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.
And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
The light turned green and Addison made her right hand turn, all the while in silent tears. She remembered the feeling of his hands against her hips. She remembered the sound of his voice. She remembered his smell. She remembered.
And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am...
When the song ended, Kennedy looked up to see her mother crying, " Mommy, you're not okay, right?"
Addison finally let down her shield, " Yeah, babe. Mommy's not ok."
The song is Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls hence the name of this chapter.So what'd y'all think of it? I loved it, which is what counts right? REVIW