I love Steph, and Jen. Oh and what's with Derek and his whole going back and forth between Mer and Add. It's not nice and it needs to stop. The guy has to pick. Seriously, no McDreamy elevator moments pick. Do you think he'll everpick?Sorry that bothers me. On with the story.

Swing, Swing

I watched as Dr. Simmons try to clip the aneurysm in Derek's brain. The sound of the flatline was ringing in my ears. A sound I had heard so many times. I prayed to God I wouldn't hear that sound. And God let me down. The constant ringing of the flatline was getting louder and louder and louder.

Addison gasped as she woke up with a pounding headache. Her eyes searched her surroundings frantically looking for something that could help her intendify where she was.

" Morning sunshine,"

Addison gently titled her head, trying not to make her headache worse, " What happened?" She asked Meredith who walked over to her with a cup of coffee.

" George picked you up in Joe's. You really have to stop interupting my realtionships Addi." She said jokingly.

" Oh, my God. Kennedy." Addi threw herself off the couch searching for her purse so she could go home.

" Calm down. George called Josie last night and she took Kennedy to day care."

" Uhh, I can't believe how selfish I am. I'm an awful mother," Addison said while slumping back into the couch. Her eyes wandered towards the clock on the cable box, "And I have to go to work now."

" Addison, take a breathe. First of all, you're not a terrible mother. You had one slip up. You're allowed to slip up once, especially after what's happened. And secondly, I called Murphy. You're not going to work until next Sunday."

" Ok. Thank you," Addison said unconsciencly fiddling with her wedding ring.

" You haven't taken it off,"

" Ummh. Oh this," Addison said realizing what she was doing, " No. I feel naked without it." After a moment of awkward silence," When are you getting one?"

" Oh, me? Not soon. I don't think I'll ever get married." Addison scoffed. " What?"

" Seriously? You think you'll never get married."

" Well, I haven't planned my life around it."

" Have you atleast thought about it?"

" Well, when I was like 5, yeah. But not recently."

Addison raised a perfectly arched eyebrow, " Really?"

" Ok. A little." Meredith admitted with a smile.

" That's my girl." Addison smiled before rubbing her temples again.

" Can I get you anything?"

" Just some aspirin would be fine,"

" Ok," Meredith walked into the kitchen when the phone rang.

" Hello?" She answered.

" Hey, babe. It's me,"

" Oh, hey George."

" I was just checking in to make sure you two haven't pulled each others hair out,"

" Ha ha," Meredith said sarcastically.

" Does she know she puked in my car? Cause that wasn't very lady like of her,"

" No, she doesn't. And I'm not telling her because she doesn't need one more thing to feel bad about,"

" Who doesn't need one more thing to feel bad about?" Addison said, already knowing the answer to her question.

" Uh..Cristina. We have a new standstill patient coming in and I didn't want to tell her cause I know she's already miffed about not seeing us."

" Oh," Addison said, not believing a word.

>>

" Yeah. Uh..George, I'll uh see you later." Mer said hanging up quickly. Addison gave her a pointed look and she just smiled.

" She barfed in my car," George said coming next to Izzie by the nurse's station.

" Who barfed in your car? Mer?"

" No, Addison."

" Why was Addison barfing in your car?" She asked unfased.

" She was in Joe's drunk, and I--,"

" You picked up Addison in Joe's?" Izzie asked preparing to slap him.

" NO! God, no. I took her back to our place because she was getting ready to bar hop her way through Seattle. You seriously thought I picked Addison up?"

"No," she smiled, walking backwards away from him, " It's just fun to see you freak out like that."

>>

Later that afternoon, Kennedy was sitting in Addison's lap on the swings in the park.

" I wanted to say sorry for not coming home last night,"

" It's ok. Where were you?"

" I was...uh..in a surgery." Addison always hated lying to Kennedy.

"Oh, was it fun?"

" No, not really. I would have much rather been with you," Addison said tickling her daughter.

" Mommy, stop it," Kennedy said through laughs.

" Ok,"

" Mommy, I miss Daddy. I want Daddy back."

" I know, K. But Daddy can't come back. You know that."

" Yeah, I guess,"

" Just remember Daddy's always with you. Everywhere," Addison said brushing a lock of her daughter's hair out of her face.

" Everywhere?"

" Everywhere,"

" Ok," Kennedy said giving her mother a smile.

" So, if memory serves me correct someone has a birthday coming up,"

" ME!"

" That's right. Anything you want and/or must have?"

" A kitty!" Kennedy exclaimed clapping her hands.

" A kitty?" Addison remembered back to having Doc. He was always good company, especially when Derek was busy flirting with Meredith. She's not that person anymore, Addison quickly reminded herself Maybe, Kennedy should get a cat. Maybe. " I'll think about it."

I just want to clairfy, Addison is not pregnant. I repeat Addison IS NOT pregnant. The barfing thing was just her getting overwhelmed. It was exactly what Meredith did in the series premiere, hence the intern bit.Oh, and have I mentioned I'm a music junkie. It's really unhealthy. The song is by the All-American Rejects. Awesome, Awesome band. Anyway, what did everyone think? I have lots planned in the next two chapters, so watch for some updates. REVIEW PLEASE. And seriously, I try to review every chapter of every story I read, why can't you do the same? In the immortal words of George: " Nancy Reagan lied. You can't just say no."