The escort to sand was supposed to be a piece of cake. All we had to do was bring this guy to Hidden Sand Village without him getting killed. I know, it sounds pretty easy. It was supposed to be easy, I mean, we do it all the time. But things have been kind of different for me lately. Not...I mean, well, not.. Just different. And it's not like there's anyone around I can talk to. Who will know anything, anyway. I'm one of a kind, Kakashi-sensei said. He was talking about something completely different though.
I found out about Kyuubi when I was twelve, that time in the woods with Mizuki-sensei. And, I mean, that cleared up a lot of thing, like, things that had already happened. Like why everyone hated me and why I had to live in a grungy room by myself. The room's not as grungy anymore since I'm a ninja so I get paid, but it's a little bit grungy still anyway. But, yeah, so that explained a lot, but it didn't really do anything. Like, it didn't help me. Besides clearing those things up, like I said. But, um...it didn't...I wasn't...um...crap! Let me just explain it.
After that time I brought Sasuke back I started getting sick. Not like a fever or anything, and not even a lot at first, but just sometimes I'd feel really sick, like my insides were tearing apart or something, and I started having those dreams I said, about wrecking the village. I guess it was pretty obvious it was Kyuubi, but I just ignored it for a real long time because...I don't know, what was I supposed to do about it? I would just wait for it to go away and make up some excuse if I had to. I mean, it really sucked, a lot. Well, sucks, I mean, it still happens sometimes, but not a lot, and not as bad, not that it happened a lot, but it did more than it does now, and, um...yeah. Anyway, I didn't really think about it when it wasn't happening, so I didn't know it was gonna happen on this mission. I didn't think of it.
It was just after the war, so a lot of people still wanted escorts across borders and stuff, just in case something happened, and we were taking this guy to sand for whatever reason, which Sakura says was political and that kind of makes sense with the war and all, so it also makes sense for some people to want him dead. Which is why these assassins came which is why the guy wanted escorts in the first place. Probably you can see where this is going.
Three days into the mission we were attacked by a team of ninja who weren't missing-nin but didn't belong to a village either and Sakura says they probably were mercenaries or something who you can pay to do anything. But you pretty much can always pay a ninja to do something from what I've seen. I mean, I wasn't bringing this guy to Sand just 'cause I'm a nice guy. I guess she meant they just didn't belong to a village, so if they got caught or something there wouldn't be any connections. Anyway, that's not even important.
We got attacked by these guys and like usual Sakura covered the client and me, Sasuke and Kakashi-sensei did the fighting. We were pretty prepared for the attack since Kakashi-sensei told us the guy was a target, which was why Kakashi-sensei was with us in the first place since he didn't really come after me and Sasuke got promoted. So there was three of us and three of them and we were holding them off alright. They maybe had a little bit of an upper hand, but not anything to worry about. Then I started getting this feeling in my stomach, like a pulling, and I knew what was going to happen but I just tried to ignore it, I mean, what else could I do, you know, I was in the middle of a fight. It kept getting worse and worse, so I was trying to finish my guy off as quick as possible, but it was kind of hard to concentrate, and my chakra was going crazy, like I'd blow too much and then have none, and then too much, and the whole time the pain in my stomach was spreading into my whole body, till I couldn't even move my fingers. It was all I could do just to not get killed and the next thing I know I'm skidding across the ground and I can't even move, it hurts so bad. It was the worst pain I ever felt, like everything in my body was burning and ripping apart, and it's the worst kind of pain when it's from inside you and you don't know where it's coming from - not like, well I got stabbed, that's why my chest hurts. I just was in pain with no way to explain it.
I don't know how the client died. I guess with me not fighting anymore my guy went straight for Sakura who really wasn't a match for him and she's lucky she didn't get killed, or else someone stepped in for her, I don't know. I was lying on the ground and then all these hands were around, pulling my arms and knees from my chest to see what's wrong with me and I couldn't see anything but white and I couldn't hear anything either even though I know I was screaming cause my voice didn't work later. I feel pretty bad about that too because they must have thought I was dying or something, and then I puked all over the place and passed out.
The next day I said it must have been some sort of fifteen minute virus but no one bought it. I thought Kakashi-sensei did for a little but as soon as we got back to Konoha he took me to the old hag to find out what was wrong. I felt like I would be sick all over again because no one said anything the whole way back, and if anyone found out I was having problems, you know, with Kyuubi I thought they'd probably kill me or send me away or something. I've never been so scared in my entire life. That's what sucks about not having any parents is that there's no one to stick up for you when your friends aren't talking to you and the whole village has an excuse to finally kill you or something. I was practically jumping out of my skin by the time the old hag came out and I quick told her that I just got a little sick and that I was sorry and it would never happen again, but she wouldn't let me leave even though I asked her like, fifteen times. She looked at me and poked me all over and checked my seal for like, a million hours. The she left, and then she came back and checked my seal again, and then Hinata's dad came and then they both left again, and the old hag came back and told me to go home, and I was gone before she even finished her sentence. I ran all the way home to my apartment and started packing up my stuff 'cause I was so scared the whole village was coming to beat down my door with like, torches and meathooks any second, but then I decided it was stupid to run away because I'm just as much a citizen of Konoha as anyone else and they can't just kill me because they feel like it. Anyway, I'm going to be Hokage one day, so I can't just leave for such a lame reason. So I thought about it and I felt a little better, but I still hid in the shower until morning and then I just pretended like I was in there unclogging the drain or something because I didn't want to admit to myself that I was hiding in the shower.
The next morning Kakashi-sensei showed up and was banging on the door at the friggin crack of dawn, but I didn't know it was him so I didn't answer it. Somehow he just got in by himself and I told him how my drain was really clogged when he found me in the bathroom. He just said okay and started going through my cabinets looking for coffee. I asked him what the hell he was doing here and he said "you're going to die," which stopped my heart. Then he said "if you only eat ramen." I almost kicked his ass into the next century. What he really was there for was to tell me what the old hag was going to say before I bounced the other day.
The reason I was getting sick was because of the kind of seal the Fourth used on Kyuubi, which is an incomplete seal, so Kyuubi's chakra could kind of leak out and mix with mine. So that was happening just like it was supposed to, but why I was getting sick was because Kyuubi didn't want it to happen. Hell, I didn't want it to happen either. I don't want to end up all crazy like Gaara or something. But anyway, so Kyuubi was kind of like, revolting and messing up my chakra because chakra flows in a certain way in every person, and Kyuubi started tearing his away from mine and forcing it to flow in the opposite direction. Kakashi-sensei told me it was nothing to worry about it since Kyuubi only had a little control over his chakra, and that's mostly gone by now since I'm the dominant personality or something. The Kakashi-sensei said I was limited to C and D rank missions until I stopped having attacks because I was a liability and shouldn't have been on the escort mission in the first place. That pissed me off so I kicked him out of my apartment and didn't talk to him for six months until they started letting me on B's again. Now the attacks are really mild, so even though it still hurts like a bitch, it's not enough to get in the way and I haven't had one in ages, except there's kind of this other thing, but I don't really understand it. It's just like, this feeling that I can't really describe, like I'm overlooking something, or something. Not like, in a bad way, but, well, nevermind since I don't really know what I'm talking about. Anyway, I thought everyone kind of forgot about that but obviously not since Sasuke's all sore about it, like it's my fault there's a spot on his perfect record, which it's not even perfect anyway. Well screw him, it's not like I did it on purpose. It's not like I was all like "I wish a demon would tear my guts apart" and then it came true. I wish it had never happened, but it did, so what the hell can I do about it? Actually, he's been acting really sour lately, more than usual, even. That's still no reason for him to get on my case about something that happened ages ago that wasn't even my fault. What a loser. You don't see me jumping on his back for betraying Konoha and trying to kill me that time. I'm just a forgiving person, and he's an asshole, that's all. I forgive Sakura for totally flipping out at us, which is why I asked her to get ramen with me while Sasuke just sulked all the way back to his mansion after we turned the kid over to his mother. She said no and punched me in the face, but I forgive her for that too since I know she's had a rough couple of days. And since she's so cute I just can't stay mad at her. I've got another mission scheduled for tomorrow afternoon that should last a couple of days and give her a chance to cool down, maybe even enoughto go out with me even though she never has in all the years I've been asking her. Good thing I'm so forgiving. A more bitter person would have just given up by now probaby. Or maybe I'm just stupid.