Kiss with Open Eyes

Chapter 16: Lipstick Will Stain the Addiction

Disclaimer: You know it's not mine.

Summary: They just keep dancing around each other. He feels guilty, and she knows it's wrong, but the music is playing, and they can't help but dance.

A/N: Hey guys, what's up? I told you I'd make it up to you. Two chapters in two days… How amazing am I? And don't worry, I'm still out having a life… I'm a very fast typer, lol. Anyways,

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(Very tiny spoiler at the bottom)

When she opened her eyes, the lights were almost blinding, and she had to blink a few times before getting used to it.

"Lorelai?" She heard Luke say, as she felt his hand touch hers.

"Hey." She said, softly.

"How are you feeling?" He asked her.

"Like I just pushed a 6 and a half pound baby through my-"

"Right." Luke said, interrupting her. "Stupid question, I got it."

"Mhm." She said. "Where's Rory?" She asked.

"She's glued to the nursery room window." Luke said, with a smile.

"That's cute." Lorelai said, with a smile.

"They still need us to pick a name." Luke told her.

"I know, I know… but I don't think we can name her Lorelai." Lorelai said, growing tired, and beginning to close her eyes again.

"I think that might be a little confusing." Luke agreed.

"Get back to me when all the drugs have worn off." Lorelai told him.

"Will do." He nodded.

"Did Emily and Richard come?" She asked, opening her eyes again.

It took him a little too long to answer, and she already knew the answer before he said, "no."

"Oh… OK." She said, not wanting to reveal her disappointment, even though she knew that Luke could see it.

"Rory called them… They said they are very busy… maybe tomorrow?" He said.

"Yeah… maybe." Lorelai said, not expecting anything.

"I'm sorry." Luke said, bowing his head.

"For what?" She asked, turning towards him.

"That they aren't here… They should be here." He said.

"It's not your fault." Lorelai assured him.

"Yeah it is." Luke said.

She looked up at him, and shook her head. "No… Luke, it's me, OK? I didn't marry Christopher… this is all about me, it's not you. You're perfect." She told him, and he looked unconvinced, but didn't say anything.

"Mom?" Rory said, entering the hospital room.

"Hey Kid." Lorelai smiled, and began sitting up.

"How are you feeling?" She asked, sitting down on the corner of the bed.

"You might want to re-think that question." Luke said, before Lorelai had the chance to respond.

"Wanna go see the baby?" Rory asked, happily.

"Sure." Lorelai nodded, and began to get out of bed. Luke helped her up, and over to a wheel-chair that was sitting in the corner.

"Does she look like me?" Lorelai asked. "I haven't seen her in over an hour… Did she change?"

"She has your eyes." Luke told his wife.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah." Luke told her, and she smiled at him.

"She has Luke's ears." Rory chipped in.

Lorelai looked up at Luke, and studied his ears. "His ears?" She questioned.

"Yeah… they look exactly the same… You'll see." Rory said, opening the door.

"Push me, push me." Lorelai said, excitedly. Luke rolled his eyes and pushed her out of the hospital room.

"Do you think they'd let us keep this?" She asked. "Then you could push me around all the time." She told him.

"Oh boy." He said, sarcastically.

"Mhm." She mumbled, as she closed her eyes, and enjoyed the ride.

When she opened them again, she was lying in the hospital bed. The bright lights stung her eyes, and she blinked a few times, before getting used to it.

"Mom?" She heard Rory's worried voice.

"Rory?" She asked.

"Mom, are you OK?" She asked, grabbing her hand.

"Yeah… Yeah, I'm fine, what happened?"

"You- you got in an accident." Rory said, softly.

Then, it all came back to her. The I love you, the headlights, the crash, the sound of an ambulance, the blood.

"Where's Luke?" She asked.

"In the waiting room…" Rory said. "Mom, I thought you were working…"

"Oh, I was…" Lorelai said, realizing she was caught. "I just- I got off early, you know? Then, Sookie & I decided to go out." She said, praying it would be convincing. This was definitely not the time to spill all of her secrets.

"Why was Luke with you?" Rory questioned.

"Well… everyone was at the Black, White & Read, so… the diner was empty… We invited him to come along… Then, we dropped Sookie off, and we… crashed."

Rory looked down at her mother, lying in the hospital bed. She knew it was all lies. Everything her mother had told her, was a lie. Sookie & Jackson were at the Black, White & Read. Her mother hadn't been working, she hadn't been with Sookie, she had been with Luke. It was all a lie.

She had suspected all of this. Her mother came home late almost every night. She had millions of stupid excuses. She had been acting different.

She just chose to ignore all of it.

But, everything was a lie. Her mother lied.

So, what was the truth?

"OK." Rory said, softly.

"Hey, what movie did you and Dean see?" Lorelai asked, wanting to change the subject.

"I don't know." Rory said, not able to look her mother in the eye.

"What?" Lorelai asked her.

"I got the call right before the movie started." Rory told her, still making no eye contact.

"Oh, I'm sorry hun."

"Yeah…"

"Lorelai! God, Lorelai, are you alright?" Emily asked, bursting through the door.

"Yeah, Mom, I'm fine." Lorelai assured her. "Hi Dad." She said.

"Hello Lorelai."

"God, look at this room, it's… disgusting. Do they know who you are? My great-grandfather founded this hospital!"

"Mom, it's fine… really."

"They didn't even give you any blankets… Look at these sheets, do they even wash them after somebody else uses them? You could get Polio!"

"I don't think I'll get Polio, Mom." Lorelai told her.

"Lorelai, this is a hospital, you never know."

Lorelai rolled her eyes, and watched as her father tried to get comfortable in a chair by the window.

"Hey Dad?" Lorelai said.

"Yes, Lorelai?"

"I'm pretty sure they sell the newspaper in the Gift shop." Lorelai told him.

Richard smiled. "I'll go see." He said, as he stood up.

Lorelai watched as he left the room, and closed the door.

"So, Mom… how are you?" Lorelai asked.

"Oh, just dandy, how about you?" Emily said, sarcastically.

"Well, you know… I've always wanted my very own… hospital bracelet." She said, studying the bracelet on her wrist. "It will definitely give me sympathy points."

Emily lightened up a little, and sat down in a chair beside Lorelai's bed. They two stayed quiet for a few minutes.

Lorelai began thinking back to her dream. Luke and her were married, and they had a baby. And Emily and Richard hadn't gone to see their new grandchild.

"Hey Mom?"

"Yes?" Emily asked.

"What do you think things would be like if I hadn't married Christopher?" She asked, and watched as Emily's face turned to shock. She wasn't exactly sure why she was asking Emily this, of all people. Maybe it was just the drugs they gave her.

"I don't know…" She said.

"Would you have been mad?" Lorelai asked, needing some sort of answer from her.

"I'm not sure, Lorelai." Emily told her, confused at where all of this was coming from.

Lorelai nodded, and looked out the hospital window. A few minutes later, she looked back at her mother, and took a deep breath.

"Would you be mad… if I… didn't want to be married to Chris anymore?"

Emily looked at her, straight in her eyes.

"No."

Luke hated hospitals. His mother died in a hospital. He was 6 years old, then, and barely knew what was happening. But he remembered the smell. The mixture of cleaning supplies, and hospital gloves. He remembered the people being wheeled by him. He remembered the look on his mother's face before she died.

His father died in a hospital. He was much older than. He remembered how weak his father was. He remembered the words he said, before he passed.

He hated hospitals. Every time he drove by one, he had to look the other way. Nothing good ever happened here… with the exception of the miracle of life… but that was all.

Another person rolled by and he was sure he would throw up. He stuck his head in between his knees, until his stomach settled.

He knew he should probably leave. Lorelai was fine, her family was here, this wasn't his place. He really had no idea why he was still there. But he was.

He just wanted to see her, really, even though he knew he probably shouldn't.

"Luke?" Rory asked, as she walked over towards him.

"Oh, Rory, hi." He said, nervously. He wondered what excuse Lorelai used for why they were together.

"You OK?" She asked.

"Yeah, just some scratches. I was lucky. How's your mom?"

"She was bleeding a lot when she came here… But she's fine. They said she lost some blood, but she'll be OK."

"That's good." Luke said,

"Yeah." Rory nodded. They both looked down at their feet, not sure what to say.

"I hate hospitals." Luke said.

"Me too." Rory said.

The awkward silence was back. They both hated it, but what could either of them say?

"Hey? Do you know why Radio Shack asks for your phone number when you buy batteries?" Luke asked, randomly, just trying to make some conversation. Anything was better than silence.

"Uhh… I'm not sure."

"Right, right… It's probably just some rule or something… regulation, you know?"

"Probably…Hey Luke?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I ask you something?" She asked. She wanted the truth. She wanted to know why he was actually with her mother. She wanted to know why her mother lied. She wanted to know how long her mother had been lying.

She wanted some answers.

"Rory?" Came a man's voice, from the other end of the waiting room, before she had a chance to say anything.

Both Rory and Luke looked up.

"Dad!" Rory said, as she jumped up and hugged him.

Luke sank in his seat. He had never met Lorelai's husband. He never wanted to.

He loved being with Lorelai. She was funny, different, beautiful. She made him happy. But he knew, that if he ever met Chris, he'd never be able to be with her.

It wasn't really something he could put into words, but, it just felt like, as long as he didn't meet Christopher, he wasn't actually real. He knew it was stupid, but it was just how he felt. But now he had seen him. Lorelai's husband was standing 10 feet away from him, and now he couldn't be with Lorelai. Not unless everyone knew the truth. But they didn't. He wasn't sure if they ever would.

So, he got up, and left.

Just another reason to hate hospitals, he thought.

I'm guessing I'll get many angry reviews this time. That's alright. The story's not over yet, guys.

And c'mon, we all know that I hate Chris.

Oh, and just wanted to let you guys know that there is only 5 chapters left.

And I have a tiny spoiler for people. (Lorelai has a dream that the real Paul Anka, and Paul Anka the dog meet)

Just thought I'd put it in here…

I had a hard time figuring out what to name this chapter… Here are a few other things I was thinking of…

A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes, Goldilocks Forgets the Bite for Prince Charming, Promises were Lonely Roads, or Big Words & Recycled Phrases

Next Chapter:

Forget Me, it's so Simple: Luke hasn't returned Lorelai's phone calls. She goes to the diner after work one night, and asks him what's up. Luke wants her to be his, just his. She tells him that she always was, just his… They both have some things to work out.