I thought I was getting better, but in actuality, nothing had changed. Voices in my head told me I could never be loved, and I believed them. Everything that had happened in the last few days was a lie. Robin didn't love me; he couldn't love me. How could one love a creature that couldn't show love or affection?

It had all been an act; Robin just wanted me to get "better" so I could once again join him in battle. As I lie there in the med lab, staring out the window into the darkness outside, I finally came to this realization. Love was something that was completely out of the question for me…

He was probably in Star's room right now, apologizing for being with me, explaining that he didn't really mean it. But what if I had meant it? Teenage angst was not something I had ever felt, and I did not believe that the feelings that were aroused by Robin were false. I felt as if they were true, and that I did in fact, love Robin. From the day I had joined the Titans, I had promised myself that I would never fall in love, and I had broken my own promise. What if my silly misconception was the cause of a break up? Who would then protect the city that we had grown so attached to?

Because of me, the team was suffering. Eventually, I would be the cause for the downfall of the mighty Jump City all because I couldn't control one of my emotions that raged inside of me.

I had to stop this from coming true. I didn't want to have that guilt on my shoulders; I was already causing grief in the Team, I didn't have to make the city suffer as well. That cruel, dark night in the med lab, I decided to leave the Titans once and for all. Thusly, I would stop the downfall of the city, and save so many lives in the process.

Slowly raising myself out of the cold hospice bed, I concentrated all of my thoughts on the dark safe haven that was my room. Feeling my powers surging through my veins, I uttered the familiar mantra for the last time. Taking the shape of a black raven, I teleported into my room, and grabbed the dagger. Staring at my placid face in the mirror that had become my enemy, I slowly slit my wrists, letting the blood flow freely.

Coldness greeted me, and I could feel the blood pouring out of my wrists. Feeling faint from blood loss, I fell into a heap on the floor, tears slowly falling down my face. Tonight, all my suffering would end. All the grief I had felt was ending, and I finally felt free. Happy even.

But if this was true, then why? Why was I crying? This was the answer to everything; it would stop the city from being overpowered by villains, and it would keep the Titans together. This was the way out, the way things were supposed to be. This way, no one would get hurt. No one…

No one except Robin, Starfire, Cyborg, and Beast Boy. The only friends that I ever truly had would heart broken; they could never understand my reasoning; they could never see the logic in my death. Images of their faces when they found me sprawled out on the floor, bathing in a pool of my own blood flashed through my mind. The pain they would feel…the sadness….it would be unbearable. But this was the only way I could save everyone. Maybe I couldn't make them understand that, but eventually, they would get over the pain. It would take time, but they would soon forget about their old friend Raven.

Feeling the life draining out of me, I closed my eyes, knowing that never again would they be open. As my heart beat its last beats, I hoped that they could forgive me, and that they would understand why. Why I had to do this. It was the only way. I was doing it for them.

Finally, it was over. All the suffering, the grief, the guilt, the self-loathing, was over, and I was free.

Whoa. Raven had some problems. I didn't plan to kill her, and I'm sorry if you didn't like the way it ended. I thought this fic was kinda drawn out…but I enjoyed writing it. Please review! Please! I'm thinking about doing a sequel in like Robin's POV. So, yeah, I need suggestions for that. Well, REVIEW NOW! I really hoped you like this, and I'm kinda sad about ending it; it was SO much fun to write.

Final Disclaimer: I don't own em, and never will.