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Summer opened her eyes. It was blurry at first. She didn't recognize where she was..until she saw him.

"Where am I?" she croaked. She had a splitting headache.

"Your at my house, alky. Bathrooms that way." He added when he saw her face. He pointed to a room next to what seemed like a bar.

The song from lastnight kept re-playing over and over in Seths mind. Those words. That time. What a coincidence.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

There was now a computer in the poolhouse. Seth logged on and downloaded the song. Hurt by Johnny Cash. He turned it up as loud as he could. The words blasted through into the bathroom and Summer heard them loud an clear. But he didn't know that. And he wouldn't.

Once Summer stopped throwing up, she walked out of the bathroom casually. She rolled up her sleeves. She forgot about her scar.

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It was the biggest Seth had ever seen. It was thick, and bright red. It looked like a vein. It was almost as long as her forearm. Seth was scared.

He reached out and touched it. It popped out so far. A tear rolled down his cheak and he looked up at her. "Stop it Summer." She looked away from him.

"STOP IT SUMMER!" He yelled.

"Seth your scaring me." She wispered.

"Good Summer. Your scaring me. Stop cutting yourself."

Summer started to cry and she layed down on Seths lap. "I hate it." She said after a few seconds.

"Hate what?"

"Being me."

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Summer woke up hours later on the poolhouse bed with a blanket wrapped around her. Seth wasn't in the poolhouse anymore, but there was a pill and some water on the table next to her.

Summer got up and realized for the first time what really happend last night. She groaned when she remembered she took off her pants, and looked down. She was wearing a blue and black plaid print pajama pant. She smiled, and walked out of the poolhouse.

Summer walked into the Cohen kitchen. It was a beautiful home, covered with flowers and modern paintings. Seth was eating cereal with some guy she'd never seen and a middle aged woman reading the paper was in the corner. She looked up and saw Summer, took another sip of her coffee and left the kitchen. Neither Seth or the other guy looked up.

"Wow Seth."

Seth turned around. "What?"

Summer smirked. "Nothing. Getting your attention."

Seth smiled, and took a sip of his coffe. The guy next to him turned to look at Summer.

She smiled at him and he introduced himself. Ryan? Marissas Ryan? Wow. Hes cute!

"So your going out with Marissa?" She asked casually.

Ryan blushed and nodded, said his goodbyes and headed out the door.

Summer looked at Seth, straight in the eyes. Just say it! Summer sighed. "Seth I want to thank you. If you werent there lstnight I would have gotten so..smashed..and.." she sighed again. Seth 'shh'ed her and led her to his room.

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Summer. I..Love you. No! Jesus your a pussy man. Tell her you'd like to go out. Dont sound like a bitch. Seth was staring at Summer.

"Why do you cut?" was the first thing that popped out his mouth.

Summer looked surprised, and then hurt, and then tears welled up in her eyes. "I need to punish myself some how." Dont tell him about the food. "Cuttings the only way."

"Why do you need to punish yourself? What'd you do?"

"Im myself. Thats enough. Im ugly and fat and nothings perfect. Im shit at school, and at life." The tears spilled over.

Ugly? Fat? Who does she see? "Summer. Your perfect to me."

Summer said nothing but look down.

"Would.." Seth sighed. "Do you wanna go out sometime Summer?"

Summer looked up at him as another tear rolled down her cheak. She nodded slowly. "Love to."

He started to smile. "No cutting."

She shook her head. "No cutting." She started to smile, and then, so gently touched her lips with his. It was just for a second, but it felt so right. She smiled, and so did he. And they kissed again.

.:Can I still feel

Am I still real

You wrap your arms around me

And everythings okay

Never let me go

Shove me into the cold

Can I still feel

Am I still real

Everythings okay:.

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Walking out of Seth Cohens house, she felt happy. She was still smiling, and she brushed her fingers against her lips. Yummy.

Now all she needed was the face and the body. Must be skinny.

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Alright, how'd ya like that one? I imagined being Summer for one short little second.. yummy scrumboes.

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