Chapter 18

"Haru it's me tohru"

Tohru stood on the opposite side of the door of kyos room. Haru had stayed there since the birth of the new cat that was 8 months ago.

Tohru pushed the door open, she strained to seen the figer sitting on the bed in the darkened room.

"Haru?"

"Yes" haru looked over to her

"Hey it's a beautiful day out today. Me yuki and Hitory are taking a drive out of the city to see a carnival you should come "

"I don't think so" he said as he lay down

"I know you miss him, we all do but I don't think kyo would want you to be like this, getting into fights drinking, never leaving your room. He would want you to move on with your life"

"I don't think I can" haru whispered as tohru sat on his bed.

"I know how it feels to lose someone you care so much about. Kyo loved you, you have to remember that, and all he ever wanted was for you to be happy"

Haru looked at tohru and sighed and looked to the table beside him, at the picture that was ripped and taped up, the picture of him and the person he loved kyo.

Yuki stood by the door he watched as tohru came down the stairs.

"Is he coming?"

Tohru smiled and looked behind her as Haru came down the stairs, he looked at yuki who smiled and walked outside to Hitorys car.

It was dark the time they arrived. Tohru was bouncing around in her seat as Hitory parked the car.

"Its so exciding games, rides, food and even fireworks!" she laughed

Tohru yuki, haru and Hitory went from game to game. Haru hung back a little but he tried to get involved. After a few hours had gone by they all sat at a table eating ice cream, listing to the live music that they could still hear although the stage was at the other side of the carnival.

People crowded around them, trying to get a good spot to see the fireworks. Haru sighed and closed his eyes and listened to the song that was playing.

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Haru opened his eyes and quickly stood up and looked around. He jumped onto the picnic table trying to get a view of the stage.

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
all these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before...

"Haru get down" Hitory said as tohru gave a little scram of surprise.

'What's wrong?" yuki said as he stood up

"I think it him" haru said plainly trying to get a better view

"Who?" tohru asked

"Kyo I think I hear him singing"

Yuki tohru and Hitory all looked at haru with pity. Haru looked down at them

"I know it's him"

He jumped of the table and pushed threw the crowed trying to get to the stage.

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

"Haru come back!" yuki ran behind him.

Haru ran up to stage and looked around at the now empty stage; he looked around when someone grabbed his shoulder.

"It was him I know it" he tried to twist away from the rats grip

"Haru kyos gone and he's not coming back!"

Harus eyes widened as he pulled away from yuki

"You don't think I know that! I just miss him so much. It hurts to do anything anymore even getting up in the morning knowing he's not goanna be there, knowing I couldn't save him, I just cant do this anymore I just cant!"

Haru fell to his knees with his hands in his face. He felt yuki kneeling down trying to help him, as the fire works blasted around them.