A/N I am so beating my butt for writing this.I did not wanna kill him I swear..but I cannot just not end a fic.This is my least fav cause I killed him..I m mean..I mean..help...ahh.
Disclaminer No I dont own anything
Lorelai sat her hands in her lap playing with her fingers.The hospital bustled with energy,doctors and nurses running around,phones ringing,but strangely Lorelai noticed none of this.Her mind was stuck on Luke.Luke..Luke...Luke,it echoed throughout her mind .She tried not to cry.It didnt work.Tears flew down her cheek and her mascara smeared.She wiped at her eye as a nurse called her name.
"Lorelai Gilmore ?" she stood.
"Yes." she managed to choke out.
"You may see Luke Danes now..but hes not breathing on his own mam hes on a machine." Lorelai broke down.The nurse patted her shoulder sympathetically.She bit her lip harder she could taste blood.This had to be a dream.It had better be a dream.She desperatly needed for this to be a dream.The nurse waited a few moments,
"Would you like to see him ?" she asked gently.
"Yes..please." Lorelai choked.The nurse led her to the room and shut the door leaving Lorelai alone.Lorelais breath caught in her throat.There was her Luke,her big strong Luke on the hospital bed a tube down his throat pale and sickly,weak.She went to a chair next to the bed her eyes sweeping over him.
"No" she whispered.
"No.No.No.No.No!" she cried.She grasped at his hand and held it in hers.She never wanted to let go.A gentle hand layed on her shoulder.She looked up to find Jess.She got up and despete her dislike towards him,hugged him tightly.
"Jess...no..he..cant..he.." she gasped.Jess was surprised at first but after a moment he held her tightly.
"Shh.." he said.He could not tell her Luke Danes would be alright if he hardly knew for himself.
Lorelai was watching Luke from the chair.Jess had gone for he needed to tell his mother.Luke breathed in and out,in and out and his breath was shaky.Lorelai sighed.She did not like where this night was heading and it scared her.She did not want to lose him.She had fought so hard for him,they had gone through 8 years of not being before they where here.She dropped her head to her hands.She wanted once more to look into his eyes.They spelled out comfort saftey and love to her.Now they were hidden behind eyelids uncertain to come out again.She wished she could rewind this night or find a alternitive ending.She was angry,at noone but everyone.She hated the creep who had been driving the other vehicle.Who cared if it was not his fault.Her throat began to feel dry.She could not breathe.She was scared.She was scared,and Luke was not there to comfort her,tell her everything would be ok.She desperatly wanted to be in his arms looking up into his indigo eyes.She wanted to feel his lips againsts hers.She wanted to hear his heart beating softly as she lay next to him at night.She wanted to have that playful banter exchange when she asked for her coffee.She wanted all of this so badly it tore at her heart.She wanted to scream and yell at the unfairness of it.She wanted to beat the world to a pulp for hurting Luke.But she couldnt.She sighed deeply and shakily.Luke was still there lying motionless in the hospital bed.His head was wrapped in a bandage and his arm was scarred.She sucked in her breath eagirly as if it would erase that image from her mind and as if it would make Luke better.She got up reluctantly.She needed coffee.She marched down the halls her heels clacking softly against the tile floors.She breathed in deeply and coughed.The air was thick with medicine and sickness.She glanced into a room to see a family weeping over a mid-aged man.She snapped her head down quickly focusing on the blue line that ran through the middle of the hall.She found a coffee machine and poured herself some dark liquid.It scalded her throat but she welcomed the pain.She groaned softly and made her way back to the room.
Lorelai entered her face strained with worry.Luke was doing no better and was slowly becoming worse.She kneeled next to the bed and grasped his hand once agian.
"Luke,"she whispered."Luke I know you cant hear me...but I love you.I dont want you to go..I really dont want you to...please.." she said tears once again forming in the corners of her eyes and making swift trails down her cheeks.She watched his comatose form silently wishing it was her there not him.
Lorelai stayed like that when the machines started to beep widly.She jumped up and looked around widly as doctors rushed into the room.They ushered her out and she could only watch from the door as they attended to him.She turned her heart pounding hoping feverantly that this was just a mistake.That Luke was not in trouble.A nurse exited the room and headed straight towards Lorelai.
"Ms.Gilmore ?"
"Ye...yes."
"Mr.Danes..is..we dont think he will make it.Im sorry." the nurse said softly.Lorelai stared at her trying to laugh and get the nurse to admit she was kidding.
"No.." she gasped tears flooding her eyes once again.
"Im sorry ." the nurse said again and patted Lorelais arm.Lorelai looked into the room to see the machines being unhooked.She sobbed now.She wanted to be in there telling him she loved him and he could not do this to her.But she was immobilized.She threw herself into that chair,until Rory came.Lorelai was mad now.She was furious.She was heatbroken.Her heart was broken now.It was crushed.She was in grief now.He cant fix this she whispered to herself as she leaned into Rory.