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This is the fifth chapter. Enjoy!
I woke up to find that it was morning, but it was unlike the other mornings I had had while with them. This morning was cold and grey.
I found it hard to believe sometimes that I had been with Sesshoumaru and Rin for four months, the time had passed quicker than I ever thought possible. I soon grew used to the way Sesshoumaru was but I still refused to change after all I thought this was the way I was and I wasn't going to change for anyone.
Most of the time I spent teaching Rin various things, I didn't mind though because she reminded me of Sakura and after about a month or so I began to think of her as my adoptive little sister; I never told her this but I thought it suited her well.
"Good morning, Amaya," Rin greeted me the way she did every morning.
"Morning, Rin," I said back, I never could be sarcastic or mean with her not even in the morning and that was my worst time of day. Rin and I ate breakfast and then we began the day's journey. Over the time that I had been with them we went to various places, I didn't know why we went there but it was a pleasant way to spend my time nonetheless.
Later that day it began to snow and it was nothing like the snow that I was used to back where I came from; it was heavy, cold and didn't melt as soon as it hit the ground. By night the ground was covered with it. It was lucky that Rin had Ah-Un, this was the two headed dragon that while hadn't been with us at the beginning now was. It had been away for a while and came back about a week after I started travelling with them. It was lucky that Rin had Ah-Un because she didn't have any shoes; she would have frozen if she had had to walk in the snow.
When the snow came down I knew it was time to go back to my castle. I had been putting it off for weeks when I had started to notice the cold weather settling in. But now it was snowing and I couldn't risk Rin getting sick.
"We'll rest here for the night," I said.
"Hai, Sesshoumaru-sama," replied Rin.
"Hai, Sesshoumaru-sama," replied Jaken.
There was no reply from Amaya but then again there never was. I had noticed over the time that she had been here that was a lot like me, she refused to submit to anyone and didn't like it when things got in her way. I never realised that one human girl could be so annoying. But Rin for some reason seemed to like her.
When we stopped to rest for the night, we went though the usual routine, I got firewood, one of us then started a fire and then it was usually me now who made dinner. It had been getting harder and harder to find things to eat lately with the weather getting colder. That night I had only managed to find two rabbits, I skinned them and all the rest before cooking them over the fire.
After eating, I went to clean myself up at the nearby stream as it wasn't that often that we stopped near somewhere that had water. I washed my dirty clothes and changed into my black jeans and black t-shirt with the words, 'I'm only smiling because they haven't found the bodies' written across it. I was actually kind of glad that they couldn't read English as most of the t-shirts I wore were pretty weird.
After that I went as huddled near the fire trying to get warm, I spend my blanket over myself and tried to sleep. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Rin also curled up near the fire with a blanket, she looked as cold as I was and believe me I was freezing. I took the hoody out of my bag and walked over handing it to her, "here put this on, it'll keep you warm."
"But what about you?" she said.
"Don't worry about me, I'll be fine," I replied and put the hoody on her.
"Thank you."
I went back over to my blanket and went to sleep.
Sometimes Amaya surprised even me in the way she acted, to everyone else she was sarcastic and mean but with Rin she was completely different. She gave Rin her own clothes to keep her warm even though it was obvious she was cold herself.
Next morning it was still snowing when we set out, it would take about two or three days to reach the castle. Amaya started sneezing about halfway through the day and even when Rin tried to give back the clothes she had given her she refused to take them. This human really was different to all the other humans I had come across, whether she was stupid, didn't care what happen to herself or just cared more about Rin I didn't know.
I woke up feeling terrible the next morning; I knew immediately that I had gotten sick from the cold. I tried not to show it but halfway through the day I started sneezing like crazy. Rin tried to give me back the hoody that I had given her but I refused it. After all I was already sick so it didn't matter but if she got sick as well, I didn't want that to happen. I didn't care what happen to me, I never had but I didn't think I could stand it if someone else got hurt or died because of me.
Maybe sometimes people think I'm too hard on myself but I have to be like that, it comes from the years of putdowns, I just couldn't help the way I thought about myself.
It was still snowing when we stopped that night, Rin slept close to the fire again as well as Amaya. But while Rin went to sleep Amaya didn't.
I walked over to her, she pretended to be asleep. "Stop pretending to be asleep," I told her.
"I wasn't pretending," she said before she started sneezing again. Then she got up and sat closer to the fire. "I wasn't planning on sleeping anyway, it's too cold."
I took off my boa and gave it to her. "Here take this."
"I don't want it," she said, this human really seemed to enjoy testing the little patience I had.
"Do you want to die?"
"I don't care; if I was to die tomorrow I wouldn't care. I've never cared what happens to me as long as no-one else gets hurt. I'm just a useless thing the only reason I'm alive is because no-one has managed to kill me yet and believe people have tried." She replied before hugging her knees and resting her head on them.
I walked back to where I had been resting before. Amaya turned her head in my direction. "You don't have a reply for that, do you?" she laughed, "no one ever does."
"You're just a human girl. Why would I care what you think?" I replied.
It was too cold that night to sleep, most of the night I sat staring at the fire and tossing more wood on it when it was going to burn out. I thought about what Sesshoumaru had said "You're just a human girl. Why would I care what you think?" It was true I was just a human girl, but that didn't mean I was worthless.
I fell asleep in the early hours of the morning and slept for a few hours but the cold soon woke me up again. That morning was worse than the previous two. My head was now pounding inside my skull, my stomach was turning and I felt worse than I had ever felt before. I was also sneezing about ever five minutes.
It was still snowing and I had officially decided that I hated walking in snow. I felt light headed and dizzier than ever halfway through the morning. Then everything became a blur and I felt myself hit the ground. I heard Rin screaming my name telling me to wake up but I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer and I submitted to the darkness and let it take me.
I turned around when I heard Rin screaming. Amaya was lying on the ground and Rin was crying and shaking her telling her to wake up. "Rin stop crying please do it for me," I said.
"Hai…Sessh..ou..maru-sama" she replied wiping the tears from her eyes. I picked up Amaya and put her on Ah-Un, Rin sat next to hugging her. I began walking again, it was less than a day's journey to the castle now and we should arrive by the end of the day. "Stupid human," Jaken said before crying out in pain, Rin had thrown a stone at him.
"Don't call Amaya that," Rin said.
We reached my castle just before nightfall; Amaya was still unconscious and hadn't shown any moment for the entire day except her shallow breathing. I picked up Amaya and gave her to one of the female servants once inside the castle. "Take care of her," I said before heading to my study.
Once again I was surrounded by darkness; this had started to become a regular occurrence. I felt something in the darkness and knew it was the voice back for another talk.
"You're here again aren't you?" I said, wanting to get the first word in for once.
"Hello, Suki," the voice replied.
"Don't call me that! I am Amaya," but even as the words left my mouth, it suddenly hit me. I knew who the voice was. "Why are you doing this to me sis?" I asked, the voice had all along belonged to Sakura.
"I'm not doing anything; I just want to help you."
"But why after what happened because of me."
"That wasn't your fault; it's in the past you have to move on."
"I can't," I couldn't move on while I still remember what had happened.
"Okay, I don't have time for this right now. I need to tell you something important."
"If it's about the prophecy I already know."
"It is and it isn't, you know that the prophecy is about you but Sesshoumaru doesn't"
"Oh that, that's because I changed my name so it doesn't match anymore."
"That's what I have to tell you, you have to tell Sesshoumaru who you really are."
"But surely it doesn't matter. I know, isn't that enough?"
"No he must know, if he doesn't you can't complete your task."
"Alright I get it."
"I have to go again, but I'll be back."
"I bet you will, Sis. Goodbye."
"Goodbye, Suki."
I opened my eyes and looked around me to find I was in a room, at first I had thought I was back in my old room but a second glance told me it wasn't. I tried to run through what I remembered; I remembered speaking to my sister and I remembered being sick. I felt better than I had so I guessed I wasn't sick anymore.
I sat up and was about to pull back the blanket when I noticed I wasn't wearing anything; well except for my underwear. I looked around the room for my clothes, I couldn't see them. Next to the bed there was something folded up, I unfolded it and saw it was a kimono; in fact it looked a lot like the one Sesshoumaru had tried to make me wear before. But I had refused mainly for the reason that it was pink, I didn't wear pink I only ever wore black or dark blue. This time however I didn't have a choice; it was either wear this or wear nothing, so I put on the pink kimono and tied the white obi round my waist.
Before going off to find out where the hell I was I looked around the room trying to find some of my stuff, I failed, all of my things were gone- including my knife which meant I didn't even have anything to defend myself with. I went out the room and began walking; it wasn't long until I ran into someone. It was just my luck. It was Sesshoumaru.
I noticed someone ahead of me; at first I didn't recognise her. When she got closer I saw it was Amaya but she looked completely different not wearing her own clothes. "You're awake then?" I said.
"Obviously!" she said her sarcastic tone biting in once again. She opened her mouth to speak again, before she could get the words out I had her by the throat. I had gotten fed up with her attitude and decided to do something about it.
"What the hell is your problem!" she suddenly shouted at me. I tightened my grip; this human had pushed me too far.
"Do not speak to this Sesshoumaru like that again; if you do I won't fail to break your neck." She closed her eyes wincing in pain; I smelt her blood then her tears. I released my grip; I hated it when human females cried. She turned around and walked off.
I walked off and managed to get outside before I started crying fully. I didn't understand what the hell his problem was I had been about to say thank you because he didn't just leave me there when I collapsed and he just grabbed me by the throat.
I touched my hand to my neck and it came back with blood on it, there wasn't a lot of it, I was glad of that. I just sat there and cried. How, was it that one person could make me feel like this when no-one else could? I didn't cry very easily and this was now the second time he had managed to make me cry.
But I guessed sometimes I did push people to far, I didn't mean to be like this it just came to me and even though I tried not to let my sarcasm rule me it just did there was nothing I could do about it.
I stopped crying and for the first time noticed where I was, it was the garden; at the moment it was covered in snow but it still looked pretty. I got up and walked back inside this was when I began to have a problem; I had no idea where I was. I had just walked aimlessly, where was I?
Luckily I ran into Rin, the first thing she did when she saw me was hug me. "You're awake,"
"Yeah I'm fine now," I said she didn't need to know I wasn't. She pulled back and looked up at me before burying her head into me.
"I'm so glad your okay I don't want anything bad to happen to you."
"I'm sorry I worried you, I'll try not to do it again," I said smiling at her.
"Okay," she took my hand, "It's time for dinner come on."
"Sure thing," I replied and followed her.
A/N: Okay! So that was the fifth chapter i hoped you liked it. I'm having trouble deciding what to write next so please review and say what you want to happen. Either Amaya or Sesshoumaru has to apolgise. Vote to decide becasue I don't know which to do.
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TurtleHugs: Yes Sesshoumaru did get pissed with Amaya as you can see. Thanks for the review and I'm glad you liked it.