A Child called "It"
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Disclaimer: Don't own any of the junk I used in this chapter including the snow, the song, uh and a child called it, o yea and the InuYasha characters, the part of the story when she passes out in the snow (I think), I do own seizures (even though it would be cool to own seizures), and I do Own Sesshoumaru! I'm gonna grow up and with my money start a nudist colony and name it Ode to Fluffy. Well all walk around in fur pelts. Or build a blitz ball stadium and make it the national sport of Krugenburg (crew-gin-berg) it's just a thought. Cough Anyway enjoy this chapter.
Summery: She felt that she was unworthy of being loved; she was forced to suffer shame. Tears of laughter, devastation, and hope: all create the journey of this girl dubbed "It" and her unforgettable search for love.
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Chapter 4: Missing.
Please. Please. Forgive me, but I won't be home again.
Maybe one day you'll wake up and still unconscious
You'll say to no one, isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my absence I know you forgot me
Long ago. Am I that unimportant? Am I so
Insignificant? Isn't something missing? Isn't
Someone missing me?
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Last time
Turning her head she saw a black BMW skid towards her. Not thinking of the crowds around her she jumped into the air doing a 360 degree flip and then landed on the dashboard, making a fairly sized dent, sitting in a squatting position. Giving the driver the middle finger she gasped then jumped off as she realized who it was. It was Sesshoumaru…
" Well, well, what do we have here? When I said we would meet again I had no intentions of it being this soon."
"YOU!" Kagome screamed, pointing at his car. By then everyone turned to stare.
" Yes me. Now get your damned body off of my car!" He paused and got control of himself. "Come here." He said unlocking the car door.
Kagome reluctantly dragged herself into the passenger side. Sitting down in a huff, she glared at him, folded her arms over her chest and then proceeded to pout. "I hate you!" She whispered knowing that he could hear her perfectly.
" Well I hate you to so we're even. What did you do to yourself this time?" He said moving the car forward. Trying to sound as nice as possible, but it only came out cold. Turning left he started to drive forward.
" Why the hell do you care? Where the hell are we going? WHY THE HELL DO THE GODS HATE ME!" She screamed lifting her hands into the air as to strangle the gods. " Arrrrrgggggg!" She growled going back to pouting, sinking down into the seat.
" You still did not answer my question. What did you do to yourself?" Sesshoumaru looked out his windshield only to see tiny snowflakes starting to fall, soon forming a light blanket.
" I don't know. I don't care."
" Then why don't you get out and help yourself. I can't stand your temper." He said pulling the car over to the side of the street, and parking in front the city park. The snow now came down in bigger drifts, and there was nobody at the park, not even the nightly Hobo's.
"Humph, fine I will. I don't need you!" She said pointing a finger at him.
"I still don't know why you're so upset. I haven't done anything. Mind telling me why?"
" One, because you almost hit me…"
" If I remember correctly you ran out in front of me."
" Two, you are asking to many questions…" She smirked.
" It's only for your well being." He replied.
" Thhreee." She growled. " YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE RIHGT!" At this sudden out burst she broke down crying, breaths coming in quick sobs, as the salty tang dampened the air. To say he was shocked would say the least. Sesshoumaru had never seen a demoness cry. Never. Not even his mother, when she was replaced by his stupid half-breed brothers mother. 'Curse them.' Turning his attention back to the demoness he watched as silent sobs racked her body. Her tiny-clawed hands covered her face and some of her streaked hair clung to her pale face. Kagome's feet were curled into a fetal position and her light frame leaned against the door. Sesshoumaru noticed the western land mark on her head. 'Something so precious and innocent should not be this broken. Especially if she's part of my court.' Not thinking he reached his hand out to console her, brushing his claws through her hair pulling it away from her face. Upon contact with her shoulder she flinched away. "Stop." She whispered, Sesshoumaru barely even herd her.
Reaching out for the handle she pulled it and silently opened the door. Closing it she began to walk away. Sesshoumaru still sat there with his hand extended, staring at the spot she had been sitting. 'I'll give her some time to cool off. Then take her to my hose to see what Kaede can do for her. I'm sure that old Miko can heal her.' He glanced up to watch her.
Kagome picked her foot up, intent only on placing it back down in front of her. 'Another step. Another. One more.'
Her mind was in tatters, mocked by the ragged outfit she shivered in. One step...all her focus was on moving her feet. One at a time, marching carefully through the snow. All her effort was so exact, she kept herself from falling numerous times. To fall would mean death. She knew she could never make herself get back up. Slow...One more...another...again...She knew that things were bad. Things were very bad. But she had no time for thoughts other then to focus on her feet.
The snow was up to her knees, pulling at her legs and threatening her precious balance.
It was cold, but she had long since forgotten that. Kagome was numb, inside and out. She had become an empty shell with nothing to move her except the urgent whispers that told her "one more step." She plunged on, not noticing when her shoe was pulled from her foot. The icy ground had even begun to feel warm against her flesh. The sensation pleased her. It was snowing still...an endless waltz of wet, white, and flakes. They collected even as they rained down upon her, looking more like handfuls of snow then individual crystals.
Kagome tightened her fingers. She could not feel her fingers and was afraid that her blood loss had something to do with it. She had to keep moving. She had to find shelter...though she could not remember what was driving her, or where she would go, certainly not home to the shrine. They would kill her. Suddenly, her precise, though repetitive flow of thoughts was interrupted by a new intrusive idea. "I'm tired." Her blue lips moved soundlessly. It was as if even her vocal cords where petrified and unmoving. "Tired..." She felt a wave of warmth spreading through her limbs. It made her stumble, and sent her sprawling to the ground.
The rhythm of her motions was cut short by her fall. The soft crunch of crusted snow under her cheek never interrupted her new pattern. "I'm tired... one more step." she crawled forward on her hands and knees. The harsh particles of ice began to collect in the wounds on her upper back, which had not stopped bleeding. Now the red of her blood flowed sluggishly from her torn knuckles and her scraped legs. The vivid color against all that white made her giggle in delight.
"One more...another step..."
She lost her focus again and one arm collapsed under her. She thought she heard the sound of a car door, but the sound was muffled and unimportant. "Tired." She buried her face in the soft white blanket; her only thought now was one of rest. Did she close her eyes? She wasn't sure...it all looked the same. It was all an empty blank canvas, painted only with her blood and body. She was the only mark in this perfect pristine landscape. "Tired..."
Then, all the white turned black. The last thing she felt was a humongous tremor running through her body. 'Another Seizure.' She giggled. Then let the blackness engulf her.
Sesshoumaru ran towards the fallen girl as new snow started to fall on her form. Had he realized how bad the situation had been he would had strapped her to the seat in the car, then let her go. He silently cursed himself. Running towards her with his demon speed he noticed her shaking had turned into a wild thrashing. Instinctively he pinned her shoulders down to the ground and straddled her waist. Her eyes seemed to be rolled into the back of her head. This was not a good sign. Her shaking started to slow to the state where he could now pick her up without hurting himself.
Gently he picked her up bridal style and making sure that his car was locked he jumped into the blurry night sky. Going roof to roof he ran towards his family estate. Her small form shivered against him in an attempt to subconsciously keep warm, he held her closer to his warm body. Sesshoumaru had no Idea why he was doing this, especially for someone who had by no means earned it. 'I fell guilty. Whoa where the hell did that come from?' At this thought Sesshoumaru abruptly stopped. Did he feel guilty? 'No, but then why am I doing this?' Kagome moaned and he started to jump once again from roof to roof. Landing at the front door he removed his shoes.
" Kaede! He proceeded towards his room, which was the closest to the entry hall. The old woman rounded the corner and gasped.
"Good lord! What on earth?" Kaede hurried to the bed where Sesshoumaru had laid Kagome down. "Sesshoumaru, I'm gonna need you to remove her shirt so that I can dress the wound. Draw a warm bath, and start the fire. She needs to be kept warm! I'm going to go down to the kitchen to get some medicinal herbs to stop the bleeding and help with the fever."
Kaede left the room leaving Sesshoumaru to do what she had said. He took a deep breath. 'It's now or never.' Silently he lifted her body into a sitting position, her head leaning against his shoulder. Then with one swift move he cut her shirt as well as her bra away from the peeling skin. Sesshoumaru had his dignity and did not look.
Getting up to get spare blankets he noticed that his bed was becoming damp with the demoness' blood. Going back over he wrapped everything below her waist careful of the gash in her shoulder. Then Sesshoumaru started a small fire in the old fireplace. Once the golden flames licked at his face he was satisfied and left to draw a warm bath.
Coming back into the room he walked back over to Kagome where Kaede was now intently working on stitching and healing the wounds with her Miko powers.
"Is there anything else I should do Kaede?" He asked.
" No, I think I can handle it. Go. If I need your assistance I will call. InuYasha is upstairs in your study; a letter arrived from the northern lands. I believe it is about Lady Nashua." With that he left, leaving Kaede to tend to the girl.
Dear Lord Sesshoumaru,
It is with a heavy heart that I write this letter. Lady Nashua of the Northern lands was murdered late Sunday evening. As you know she was the last known Inu-Yokai Demoness left alive. There will be a meeting held later on in the month between us lords to assess the damage and gather. Please attend. You may bring a guest along with your ward and brother. I will send more information as to the meetings where abouts when the time draws nearer. Please pray for Nashua's soul, and that it may rest in peace.
Signed,
Ta shiro Lord of the Northern lands
Sesshoumaru sighed and placed the letter in front of his brother to read. InuYasha picked it up and read. His eyes slightly widening.
"She's dead?" He questioned.
"Yes but she is not the last of her kind as previously thought. Now we truly have a dilemma on our hands. Many Demon Inu-yokai but only one demoness." Sesshoumaru answered. He hated his brother with every fiber of his being but this was an important matter which even though they were rivals it needed to be discussed.
"What do you mean?"
"I know that with your sense of smell you can't smell her, it's also because she is currently in my room which has multiple spells on it including a barrier to smells. But, at this moment the last Female Inu-yokai is sleeping in my chambers." He answered with out any hint of emotion showing.
"Where did you find her?" InuYasha asked ready to jump up and run down the hall.
"I…" Sesshoumaru was stopped as Kaede entered his mind.
'Sesshoumaru come quick! There is something you should see. The girl is fine she is resting, but while I was washing her off I found something that should not be there.' She said.
'I'll be right there.' He answered. Standing up he said. "You can see for yourself, I am needed in Kaede's presence. She found something that needs my attention." InuYasha stood and followed.
Upon entering the two half-brothers found a tired Kaede leaning over a sleeping girl that looked like an angel. She looked up when they entered and motioned them over. Sesshoumaru stood beside Kaede's chair and InuYasha stood in front of the bed.
"Where did you get her?" InuYasha asked.
"That is something I do not wish to discus at this moment. Kaede you called, what is so important?"
"I'm going to go now she is just sleeping but damn, excuse my language m' lord but her Miko powers are very powerful. I was unable to heal the scar because it was made by a priestess. You sure have a handful on your hands." She stopped to breath. " You might want to look at her back. While I was washing her I found she…I could not heal them I-"
"Very well, thank you Kaede for all you've done. I will call if you are needed." With that she left, bowing her head as she left. Kaede was like a second mother to them.
Lifting up the demoness Sesshoumaru carefully peeled the loose Kimono away from her sweaty back. What he saw made him gasp. Yes, gasp. At this InuYasha became very interested. Looking downward he to gasped as he saw…scars. Scars lined her back contracting into painful burse marks. Some wounds were fresh, some where old, and some bled. Scattered a crossed her back as well were black and blue marks and finally a gash in her shoulder.
" So…uh…what happened?"
" InuYasha do not be so stupid. If I knew I wouldn't be here waiting for an explanation. I'm going to wake her, go get me a glass of water I'm sure she's thirsty. You can do that right can't you?"
"Why?"
"Just do it!" He growled. As soon as InuYasha left the room Sesshoumaru looked down at Kagome. 'I wonder what she's dreaming about?' Looking at her face you could tell it wasn't a good dream what ever it was. Using his telepathy skills, (AN: Don't you just hate it when authors do that kind of things? Sorry I just am stupid!) Sesshoumaru pried into her mind astonished at what he saw. The only words that could explain it where these; A broken home, a broken family.
Kagome's Dream
Kagome sat reading her childhood diary. Memories taking every emotion out of her.
My day ends only when Naraku allows me to sleep in my old bed, where my body curls up in my meek effort to retain any body heat. That's the only time I can escape my life. I love to dream.
Weekends are worse. No school means no food and more time at "The House." For years I have been the outcast of "The Family." As long as I can remember I have always been in trouble and have "deserved" to be punished. At first I thought I was a bad child. Then I thought that Naraku was sick because he only acted differently when Souta and my mom was at work. But somehow I always knew that Naraku hated me. I also recognized that I have been Naraku's sole target for his unexplained rage and twisted pleasure.
I have no home. I am a member of no one's family. I know deep inside that I do not now, nor will I ever, deserve and love, attention or even recognition as a human being. I am a child called "It."
I'm all alone inside.
Kagome stopped reading as she heard her mother downstairs. Closing her eyes she took in the haunting voice from her past. 'The voice we never want to forget, in each passing memory. Always thereto guide you.' She whispered the words to one of her favorite songs. It was called "Itsumo Nando-demo" ("Always with me") it was from one of her favorite movies, Spirited away. Kagome sometimes wished she could be like the girl Chihiro and go to a magical place far away from home.
KAGOME POV
Upstairs the battle begins. Since it's after four in the afternoon, I know both of my parents are drunk. The yelling starts. First the name-calling, then the swearing. I count the seconds before the subject turns to me-it always does. The sound of Naraku's voice makes my insides turn. "What do you mean?" He shrieks at my mother, Yuki. "You think I treat 'The girl' bad? Do you?" His voice then turns ice cold. I can imagine him pointing a finger at my mother's face. "You…listen…to…me. You…have no idea what 'it's' like. If you think I treat 'it' that bad…then 'It' can just live somewhere else."
I can picture my mother-whom I miss to no end, after all those years she tries to stand up for me- swirling the liquor in her glass, making the ice from her drink rattle. "Now calm down," she begins. "All I'm trying to say is…well…no child deserves to live like that. My God! Naraku, you treat dogs better than…than you do the girl."
The argument builds to an ear-shattering climax. Mother slams her drink on the kitchen countertop. Mother had crossed the line. No one ever tells Naraku what to do. I know I will have to pay the price for his rage. I realize that it's only a matter of time before he calls me upstairs. I prepare myself. Ever so slowly I move my hands from under my butt. I know I am never to move a muscle without his permission.
I feel so small inside. I only wish I could somehow…
Without warning, Naraku opens the door under the stairs. "You!" He screams. "Get your ass over here right now!" Without a sound I approach Naraku and wait for another one of his 'games'…
Sesshoumaru pulled his thoughts out of her head at that moment, not wanting to see anymore. That Vile creature striking the girl would be enough for him to boil and while he was in her head, losing his control would end with her in a serious comma or worse. Death.
Finally getting over his senses, her noticed that InuYasha had returned. He sat watching him. "So…what did you see?" He asked.
Sesshoumaru sighed. " Nothing anyone should see. Especially her."
"That bad eh?"
"Yes."
"Are you going to wake her? If it is that bad why would you want her still trapped there in la la land? Sometimes I wonder about you."
"Shut up half-breed." Silently shaking the girl he whispered in her ear in his ever present cold voice. "Kagome…Kagome…wake up." Over and over until that it her crystal like eyes opened to the world. Sesshoumaru took time to look over her features, her face was a very pale white, as though carved from ivory as the geishas he had seen a few times before.
Surrounding her face completely flowing around her were long tendrils of black hair, you could see that she had dyed it that color because the roots were rapidly growing back. He would have none of that. Her should've been white hair fell past her back tinted with a layer of silver like a spiders silk caught in the sunlight. With a free hand he reached up and tucked a stray hair behind a tipped elfish ear.
He touched the tip softly causing her to shudder as though it tickled. The ear twitched at the top and he let go when he caught her eyes. Holding out her hands he looked down at delicate almost dainty claws on long slender fingers. On her wrists there was a pair of sparkling silver/maroon stripes that almost spiraled around her wrist. That pattern followed on her ankles. He looked up to her face and noted there were no stripes on her face, except for a prominent silver lining over her eyes. It really was beautiful.
Her eyes caused him to stare. They were the iciest blue he had ever seen before in his life with animal like slits in the middle. Animal. She was no human.
Her eyes were so frosty it made him inwardly shiver. She was the epitome of stoicism, arrogance and perfection. How could she look like that? Why and how did he not notice this demoness before?
Kagome closed her eyes twisting around in his grasp. She grit her teeth balling her fists. This isn't what she wanted. She was just a girl still going through school. Now, even after she was so close to death she was saved, and by the most unlikely person. Kagome knew what it meant, life as she knew it was officially over, Especially if they had seen her scars.
"Let go of me!" She flinched as her shoulder connected with his knee. "Please, it hurts!" She felt the tears well up. No! She would not cry! If God so be it, she would die sooner than cry! Blinking them away the smell of salt disappeared from the air.
" Stop complaining wench! My dumb ass brother saved your frozen ass! If it weren't for him you would've died." InuYasha barked jumping up onto the bed holding her down by her shoulders. This action caused her to cry out in both pain, and surprise. Sesshoumaru pulled InuYasha away, and then pinned her down more gently.
"What makes you think I wanted to be saved? Why couldn't you let me die!" She screamed causing both of the brothers to wince for their ears.
" I do not want a woman to die in my hands. If you quit your racket I might let you go!"
Kagome stopped struggling and glared at him. Through clenched teeth she growled. "I. Hate. You!"
" I know you do, but you dying isn't going to help us any. You are the last of your kind, little one." He answered expecting a question in return. He was not disappointed with a long wait.
"What on earth are you talking about? Are you sick or just talking to yourself?" Kagome asked looking skeptically when he shook his head. "Would you get off me now?"
Sitting up he looked back over at her, then his brother. "You are the last Inu-yokai on this planet. The fate of the Inu-yokai race rests in your hands. So now what are you going to do about it?"
Even though I'd be sacrificed you won't try for
Me not now. Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all-alone.
Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed. I'll bleed. Knowing you don't care.
And if I dream, just to dream of you, and wake
Without you there. Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Ah Evanescence I'm not really sure if that's the lyrics I know it goes something like that. Oh well time to go ram my head into a wall. Thanks for your support. Any suggestions are appreciated. I will try to update on time!
I also want to apologize for the long wait. I told you that it was going to take awhile with my relatives at my house for my fathers 50th B-day. It was so hectic. My grandma's a bitch. She is really! She canceled my grandpa's 70th B-day because she hates him. Man my life sucks.
I say good day to you Sir.
Ja Ne-
Lyoko