A Child called "It"
One's life is forever changed after living through the eyes of A Child Called "It."
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Disclaimer: Hey all…it's me TLSR. And all I can say is Whoa…I LOVE YOU GUYS! Thank you all for the wonderful reviews. As a special thank you or something…I don't know if you would call it 'special' but as a treat as in I don't do this often I have put together a poem about this story. I would like to thank everyone for the ideas! THANKS! It will be at the bottom of the page. I own so you take I sue! I also don't own that hobo over there in the corner, eating a hot dog. Points at empty corner Oh and the Short poem in the story…I don't own that either…nope I just thought that it would be cool to have It in there. Okay! See ya! Ja Ne
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Summery: She felt that she was unworthy of being loved, she was forced to suffer shame. Tears of laughter, devastation, and hope, all create the journey of this girl dubbed "It" and her unforgettable search for love.
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By yours truly: The Last Shadow Rider
Chapter 10: Somewhere Only We Know
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I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
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I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
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Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
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THE WORDS IN ITALICS ARE WHAT IS GOING ON IN KAGOME'S DREAMS. JUST TO MAKE THAT CLEAR!
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Last time
"Shippo."
The crying lump of flesh looked up at him. "Im sorry, I'm sorry."
"Sorry for what? Your gonna be alright now see?" He said picking up the human child and slinging her over his shoulder. He reached out for the Kitsune.
"I-I- She just stopped breathing!" He cried out the foxfire finally giving out as he fell down on the ground crying.
"No…" Sesshoumaru said eyes wide. He turned to see the lifeless Kagome. "No…"He whispered tears stinging at his eyes.
About a month before I entered the fifth grade, I came to believe that for me, there was no God.
As I sat alone in the garage, or read to myself in the near darkness of my parents' bedroom, I came to realize that I would live like this for the remainder of my life. No. That wasn't right, it's just that God would leave me like this. I believed that I was alone in my struggle and that my battle was one of survival.
By the time I had decided that there was no God, I had totally disconnected myself from all physical pain. Whenever Naraku struck me, it was as if he were taking his aggressions out on a rag doll. Inside, my emotions swirled back and forth between fear and intense anger. But outside, I was a robot, rarely revealing my emotions; only when I thought it would please Naraku and would work to my advantage. I held in my tears, refusing to cry because I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of my defeat.
At night I no longer dreamed, nor did I let my imagination work during the day. The once vibrant escapes of watching myself fly through the clouds in bright blue costumes were now a thing of the past. When I fell asleep, my soul became consumed in a black void. I no longer awoke in the mornings refreshed; I was tired and told myself that I had one day less to live in this world. I shuffled through my chores, dreading every moment of everyday. With no dreams, I found that words like hope and faith were only letters, randomly put together into something, meaning-less words only for fairy tales.
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The pain will never go away;
The wound will never heal.
The evil that was done to you
Is now your eyes, your heart.
The black will never turn to gray;
The blood will not congeal.
The violence is never through;
The past does not depart.
"She can't be dead…are you sure that you were just imagining things?" Sesshoumaru yelled over the fire. He quickly bent over the limp body of Kagome to check for signs of breathing.
It was there…but barely, as if she were almost dead. Her heart rate however seemed normal. Something was amiss. Sesshoumaru was pulled out of his musings as a nearby beam began to fall.
Scooping up Kagome and the two children he ran. Knocking through some burning drywall he collapsed as he fell into a hallway. It was not on fire though. 'Strange.' He thought noticing that the fire seemed to be contained to only that particular area. Fire trucks sirens wailed out side.
Everyone in the building had been alerted to put his or her concealment spell on as soon as the fire was announced. His people knew the procedures. Standing up Sesshoumaru carried the girl and kids to a nearby stairwell. Following the stairs down he watched as the Tokyo fire department rushed up the stairs to contain the fire.
Finally reaching the tenth floor, which he deemed safe, he laid Kagome on the floor, while he took a breather.
"You two go down to the lobby, you'll have to take the stairs because the elevators are not working. Your father should be down there already. I will take care of the Miko."
Rin and Shippo nodded, running further down to the lobby. Sesshoumaru watched them disappear around the corner. Switching his attention back to the girl in front of him he let out a long breath.
"You, girl, are more trouble then you are worth. Just consider yourself lucky." He whispered to no one in particular.
'Why am I keeping her around? Is it because I find her amusing?'
'No. She is not amusing anymore. She destroys to many things.' His inner demon replied.
'Is it because I like her?'
'No. I do find her attractive but that is just a silly emotion.' The inner demon once again spoke.
'Is it because you need a heir?'
'No I-' His brain stopped and rewound itself. Need a heir? Yes of course that was it. He needed a mate. But did he want to keep her around?
'Not if all this keeps up.' He told himself, thinking about how long it would take to rebuild the children's floor.
All he really needed was a heir. Screw the mate. Love was for the weak, and Sesshoumaru Inutashio was not weak!
"I get what I want and then your gone." He said to her, feeling a little bit of guilt in the pit of his stomach. He honestly did not want to hurt her. Gods she had been through way too much already. But he could find a place for her. Maybe set her up with her own home. He'd even give her time with their son.
'And what if it's a daughter?'
'Then we'll try again.' He reasoned with himself. It made perfect sense to him. But to anyone else he would sound like a maniac that was on medication. Definitely not the kind you'd want kissing your baby on the head or autographing your tee shirt for you. Definitely not. Once again picking her up he put on their concealment spell and headed down to the lobby.
Upon entering most of his employees bowed their head respectfully. Using his eyesight he made his way to the lobby's secretary desk.
'What was her name again?' He asked himself. Looking at her nametag he cleared his throat. "Sango. Will you please call for my car?"
"Looking up from bashing one of Sesshoumaru's co-workers on the head Miroku. Sango smiled. Yes of coarse Mr. Inutashio! I'd be happy." She smiled once again, and hit the recovering Miroku on the head just as he was getting up, causing him to fall back on the ground.
'Women.' He thought rolling his eyes.
I had begun clearing the dishes from the table at a feverish pace, when Naraku called me into the kitchen. I bowed my head as he began to babble his time limits to me. "You have 20 minutes! One minute, one second more, and you go hungry again! Is that understood?"
"Yes."
"Look at me when Im talking to you!" He snapped.
Obeying his command, I slowly raised my head. As my head came up, I saw a 3-year-old Souta, who could barely comprehend what was happening, he was standing on the steps with a sorrowful look on his face. The harsh tone of Naraku's voice didn't seem to bother him.
"Do you hear me?" Naraku slurred. Obviously drunk. "Look at me when I'm talking to you!" As I looked at him, Naraku snatched a carving knife from the counter top and screamed, "If you don't finish on time, I'm going to kill you!"
His words had no effect on me. He'd said the same thing before. I was desperate to meet his time limits. I wanted so much to have something to eat. I dreaded going to sleep tonight.
Something looked wrong. Very wrong! I strained to focus my eyes on Naraku. He had begun to wave the knife in his right hand. Again, I was not overly frightened. He had done this before too. "Eyes." I told myself. "Look at his eyes!" I did, and they seemed normal for him half glazed over. But my instincts told me there was something more. I didn't think he would hit me, but my body began to tense anyway. His whole body began to weave back and forth. For a moment I thought he was going to fall. A sharp pain erupted just above my stomach. I tried to remain standing, but my legs gave out, and my world turned black.
As I regained consciousness, I felt a warm sensation flowing from my chest; it took me a few seconds to realize where I was. I sat propped up on the toilet. I turned towards Souta who began chanting, "Kagome's gonna die. Kagome's going to die." I moved my eyes towards my stomach. On his knees, Naraku was hastily applying a thick wad of gauze to a place on my stomach where dark red blood pumped out. I tried to say something. I knew it was an accident. I wanted Naraku to know that I forgave him, but I felt too faint to speak. My head slumped forward again and again as I tried to hold it up. I lost track of time as I returned to darkness.
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Time will merely make you whole,
Consuming what you are:
Part sufferer, part comforter,
Part victim, part new song;
"Now Rin…tell me again. What exactly did happen?" Kaede asked the little girl.
"The lady made Kagome sick!"
"As in Poison?"
" Tadashii…I mean guess so…Will she be alright?" The little girl asked, unaware of the seriousness of this issue.
"Yes Rin, she will be fine, thanks to you. You have helped her a lot." Totosai said ruffling her hair. "Now go get some rest." He said nodding towards the door.
"Yes."
Totosai sighed when the door shut. Things were looking bad. Even though he knew she was not breathing because of poison he didn't know what kind of poison it was, and therefore wouldn't be able to cure her quickly. 'Damn it all!'
"Totosai…How is she?" Came Sesshoumaru's cold voice.
"Not well M-lord…not well…She has been poisoned."
"And why can't you simply cure it?" He asked sounding a bit agitated.
"I do not know what kind of poison it is…I have a hunch it is the thing giving her the dead like appearance, even though she is quite alive. Her breathing has just steadied to almost un-sensible rate. However her vitals are looking fine." He said looking at the small box that displayed Kagome's heart rate, and body temperature.
"Hm…" Was all Sesshoumaru said.
"I have the underlying suspicion that the poison was generated by a demon. I don't know too many humans that would want her dead. If anything it could have been her father." Kaede helped.
"No. The fox child reported it to be a girl. The surveillance tapes did not get anything." Sesshoumaru said becoming annoyed.
"Maybe he could help us with the identity?" Totosai asked.
"Perhaps."
"She had really weird red eyes and she smelled like death and, I don't know if this makes any sense but, the wind."
"The wind? You mean like an elemental demon?" Totosai awed.
"No she wasn't a demon she was like…like the-…wind." He said again.
Sesshoumaru sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose. "That's impossible. It's not possible for a wind element to poison someone with a demonic poison."
"But it is possible for an Elemental Demon such as A Wind Demon to become their element, which in this case is the Wind. Who can then in turn take on the scent and looks of a regular Wind Element by turning to Human form directly from the Element, instead of reverting to Demon form. I have seen this before. It is very rare but is possible. It takes years of practice to get it right." Totosai spoke up from Kagome's bed.
"Demon's can do that?" Shippo asked in awe.
"Yes but only Elemental Demons." Kaede answered.
"So now that we know the problem…what's the solution?"
"The solution is either an antidote, or a quick blood transfusion to give her body enough blood cells to fight of the poison. However the antidote is…how can I say this…hard to come-by."
"What's a Blood Trans-formation?"
"A Blood Transfusion. Is when you share your blood with someone else." Totosai corrected Shippo.
"I'd share my blood with her. Will it hurt?" Shippo asked walking over to Kagomes bed. His question was answered with Totosai laughing.
"No! No my child you won't be able to." He composed himself. " No. She needs blood from that of a demon of the same race, if not her body will reject it."
"But when Rin had one she needed to get blood called AB. Why not just a regular human?"
"Because humans are different than us Demons. Humans have different kinds of blood, where as Demons blood is essentially the same, within their race of coarse. For example if a hanyou with a Panther demon mom and a Tiger Demon dad needed blood he or she would need blood from another Hanyou with the same blood. So that's why you can't give her blood."
"Then who will?" Shippo said cocking his head to the side.
"I will be." Sesshoumaru spoke up.
"I should have known." Kaede smiled. "I'll go get the needed supplies. Excuse me." She said leaving to go to the medical storage room. "Shippo please come with me. Why don't you go play with Rin and Souta?"
"Alright Kaede-baba. Get better Kagome."
After the door shut Totosai turned to Sesshoumaru. "You really do care for her don't you?"
Sesshoumaru seemed agitated for a moment but the emotion quickly left his face. "I have vowed to not let anything happen to her while she is under my care. She is the last of her kind, therefore very valuable, and should be treated as such."
"What do you think the council will do when you see them in a week?"
"I can't say for sure. I will probably tell them that she will become my mate without questions. I discovered her, therefore I should be able to lay claims to her."
Silence filled the room for a moment. Totosai began to dab Kagome's head with a damp washcloth to help with the sweat. She was very pale and shaking. Totosai spoke up. "I hope you don't mind me asking but…why would you want to mate her? I know she's the last of her kind but she seems to be more trouble than she's worth. And you haven't been exactly all too friendly. You're beginning to sound like she's your possession. Do you two even like each other?"
"I have my reasons, for now we will focus on her well being. Not my interests or Sex life with said person."
"Ah…so you do like her? Ne?" Totosai was met with a glare. He fidgeted and looked away.
"I will mate her because I do not want my off spring to be half blood. My empire will be ruled by a pure blood, who will think clearly. Once I get that I do not care what happens to her."
"Not all half bloods are bad…I am a half blood. I am doing just fine."
"Totosai…are you trying to get me to not mate her? Because if you are it's useless." He said angrily his voice dripping with venom.
"No My Lord I simply don't want to see Kagome-sama get hurt. It seems to me that all you care about is-"
"Stop." Sesshoumaru said. Totosai regarded this but then continued. Knowing he would be in trouble.
" All you care about is getting a pure blooded heir. For Kami's sake Sesshoumaru! This girl can't take that much. She's been through too much already. Excuse my rudeness My Lord but, you are-"
"Totosai my patience is wearing thin…." Totosai still continued knowing it had to be said.
"You are only thinking about yourself. You care nothing for the well being of other people. You claim to be the one to have rescued her, but all you did was bring her from one hell hole to another!"
"Get…Out…" Sesshoumaru growled.
"But Milord I need to look after-"
"OUT!" He roared.
"Yes My Lord." Totosai said bowing and leaving the room.
"Send Kaede in with the materials. I do not want to see your face until it is absolutely required that I do."
"Yes My Lord." Totosai said shutting the door behind him.
Sesshoumaru closed his eyes and took heavy breaths to regain his calmness. After doing so he looked up at the sleeping Demoness.
'Is this what you want?' His mind asked.
'Of course it is…why wouldn't I want a powerful mate?'
'Because you'd be hurting the girl.'
'She would be looked after.'
'But don't you love her?'
'No.'
'Don't lie to me. What about all those times before? When you showed that you cared. Like in the fire…you cried for her. Now don't you tell me that you don't care.'
'I don't care. That's the point.'
'Look at us! We're acting like Jackasses!'
'That may be your perspective, I merely look at it as preserving myself, and my companies well being.'
'We are a cold person Sesshoumaru. A cruel, cold person.'
"Now the Medicine I gave you should be kicking in soon. It will make you sleep. I'm gonna go to the washroom to clean up and will be back soon." Kaede said leaving.
Sighing and turning to look at Kagome, Sesshoumaru instinctively wrapped his free arm around her, pulling her close. Closing his eyes and breathing in her scent he once again looked at her face.
'So beautiful.' He thought. 'To bad she'll be gone soon.' He said to himself, thinking about his earlier decision.
"Get better Miko…" He whispered closing his eyes. Soon he unknowingly had his head nestled in her hair, sleeping.
The blackness of night slowly rolled in, covering the blues and reds of the day. Stars started to appear as the inky blackness became greater. Thunderclouds rolled in on the coast, causing the wildlife to become unnerved. As the night aged the Milky Way started to appear in the heavens. Inside the cold, dark walls of The Inutashio mansion all was peaceful. Everyone slept. Everyone that is except for two old servants. Totosai and Kaede. They sat, talking about their lords behavior.
"He is just going to throw her out afterwards!" Kaede said raising her voice to a harsh whisper.
"That is what he told me."
"But what about Kagome? And their child? Has the man gone insane!" She shrieked, throwing her hands in the air. "Sesshoumaru good lord what on earth is wrong with the man? Has he no sense at all?"
"Now Kaede, he probably has a good reason."
"Good reason my butt. Totosai, we cannot let this happen. And you know it to so don't give me any trouble. We both know what we have to do. Those two cannot separate. I can see how he looks at her. He loves her, and I know that is as rare as a blue moon."
"I understand perfectly. Now what's the plan?"
Outside I could hear the sounds of Naraku, Kikyou, and Souta approaching the car. I quickly wiped my tears and returned to the inner safety of my hardened shell. As Naraku drove out of the McDonalds parking lot, he glanced back at me and sneered, "You are all mine. Too bad your mother's not here to protect you." I knew all my defenses were useless. I wasn't going to survive. I knew he was going to kill me, if not today, tomorrow. With that said I wished Naraku would have mercy and kill me quickly.
As Souta wolfed down his hamburger, without him knowing I clasped my hands together, bent my head down, closed my eyes and prayed with all my heart. When the station wagon turned into the driveway, I felt that my time had come. Before I opened the car door, I bowed my head and with all my heart, I whispered, "…and deliver me from evil."
"Amen."
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Part mother of an angry soul,
Part child of despair,
Part witness and part conqueror
Of all that did you wrong.
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
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Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
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So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
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This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
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Japanese Translations
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Nan demo- what ever
Tadashii- Right
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A Child Called "It"
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Lying on my bed.
Trying to forget the things he said.
Now I'm always on the run.
I don't think I'll ever know the true meaning of fun.
How did it end up this way?
Not knowing if I'll live another day…
Where does my life lay?
Will any of this ever pay?
Why can't I find the meaning of love?
Did I do something to anger those above?
Now that he's here
Sometimes I believe I've forgotten my fear
Even though tears still stain my face…
I keep it plastered with a normal grace
I wonder what it might have been like
If I had put up more of a fight.
What if I had learned more about myself?
The powers I contain as like my wealth.
Now I am the last of my kind…
I am as rare as beauty divine.
Sometimes I still feel alone,
Working my way through a forest of stone
Why can't I melt your icy heart into a fire?
One burning deep with warmth and desire.
I'll always sink into your warm embrace,
As your gentle hands cup my face.
Bright warm lights chase a stormy sky…
As I see my troubles and wave 'goodbye',
And I realize that it doesn't matter one bit,
That I've been dubbed 'A child called "It"'
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So…You like? Yes? No? Oh well…………………..REVIEW! Remember it makes me update faster…let's see if we can get 100. Then I'll do something really special! I have been asked what songs or bands I will be using in the future…well…how's Goldfinger, The used, Good Charlotte, Sum-41, Bowling for soup, Nickleback, Rancid, Not by choice, and the All American Rejects…If you have any songs that you think would sound great let me know. I haven't really picked out the Songs; I just listen to the Radio. So if you have any ideas please give me a shout or a review, if you like it better that way.
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POLL
Should Naraku pay for his crimes, by death, an almost fatal 'accident', or should he die but not before he takes poor Kagomes life. (She can come back.) Or should Naraku just be forgiven and go on living without punishment for what he's done?
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Yes/die 7
Yes/but he kills Kagome 30
Yes/almost die 20
No/live happily 5
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Ja Ne- TLSR