Should I Stay or Should I Go?

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Tecna- I dedicate another chapter to you because you are my faithful reviewer. Um is brill a good thing because I used context clues and it seems like it is but I'm going to go ahead and say it's a good thing because you've never given a bad review. And no you rock and your welcome.

The Moment You Have Been Waiting For:

Chapter 3- Should I Be Thinking About My Feelings or Should I Be Thinking About Her Feelings

Raven's P.O.V.

When I woke up from my dream that was filled with images of Richard I thought, " Oh crap what have I've gotten myself into. I mean I can't go on a date with Richard. By all that is evil I know that this is evil. It wouldn't be fair to Kori. But then again neither does Kori. I stopped thinking about my situation because if I didn't I'd probably worry too much.

Next thing I do is go wake up Jinx. She likes to wake up early too. It just so she can get into the shower first. Her attempts never work though. Because before I wake her up I put my clothes in the bathroom so I don't have to waste time looking for them. So I head towards the bathroom. Before I step in the shower I look at my reflection. And I think why would Richard want me. Maybe he just wants to use me like Malchoir.

Malchoir was this boy I met in Azarath one summer. While I was taking the summer off in Azarath I met a boy. I was thirteen years old. He was as hot as a stove pot. But he was as sweet as a lemon. I found that all the hard way. He only used me. He only wanted to be with me so later I would wed him. So, he could be King of Azarath. Well one night I caught him talking to his friends about how I was so stupid and gullible for believe that he would like an ugly girl as me.

I was so hurt. I felt like I was stupid for believing him. He was a stupid arrogant son of a beach.

As I saw my thirty-second flash back end I was still in front of the mirror. I get in the shower and turn on the water to hot. The water feels like it's washing my troubles away, making me forget my pain. After five minutes of scrubbing and washing I get out and put on my robe. I dry myself and change. I brush my teeth, brush my black hair and put in my green contacts.

I get out of the bathroom and go tell Jinx I'm done. I go into the kitchen to make myself some tea and two pieces of toast. And I sit at the island of the kitchen and start to read my book, The Da Vinci Code. About 10 minutes later I hear the door to the bathroom open and I see Jinx dressed and ready for another fantastic and wonderful day of school I think sarcastically. She takes a muffin and we say bye to Nieve.

While getting in my car Jinx starts talking.

"Hey Raven do you think my mom will get me a car?"

"Uh I don't know maybe"

"Yay I'm going to get a car"

"Yeah you keep telling your self that"

Soon after we're on our way to the fiery depths of hell called high school. As you can tell school isn't something I like. Jinx turns on the radio and instantly I hear a Brittney Spears song. I turn my car radio to CD mode and turn it to track number seven. It's one of my favorite songs. It's called "Seein Red" by Unwritten Law. I see Jinx playing with her hair. When she does that it means she's bored. Which means time is going slow. Oh gawd this was going to be one long ass day.

Finally we get to school. I go straight to my locker, trying to avoid any conflict because in the end I'm going to end up knocking somebody out. After three minutes of being at my locker I see the halls swarming with students. First ones I notice are of coarse Kori, Richard, Victor, Gar, and Terra. I try to avoid Richard's gaze because if I even look at him I know I'll probably freak out. It wasn't that I was nervous; maybe it was because I was starting to like Richard. Then I soon replay that thought in my mind. Yeah right and I'll be a monkey's uncle.

And here comes my usual day.

"Hey Ravie" says Terra

"How are you doing weirdo?" says Gar he then pushes me.

"Yeah how are you gothic bitch," says Kori

"You know Raven your day wouldn't be complete with out this" Richard then knocks my books down and she then pushes me when I go to pick them up. Lord I hate my life please just strike me now. Victor then lightly kicks me because he doesn't want to hurt me.

And I will get at least four or more mistreatments today. Yes my life officially sucks. O well. I get to class. Which unfortunately happens to be with Richard. The whole class I couldn't concentrate. I was thinking of him. I really do think I'm starting to like Richard. I'll know for sure when we go out to night. The bell rings and again with torture.

I go to my second class and I sit with Jinx. We sit all the way in the back. She writes me a note and passes it to me.

"Hey Aiden, you seem off. I know something happen so tell me." Jinx is the only one who still calls me Aiden her and my mom. It's a nickname. How I got it is beyond me. I then write I have a date tonight with Richard. Well not me but Jade. She writes back. "Oh ok but be careful Aiden remember what happened with Malchoir."

"Yeah don't remind me" The notes then stop and I go to the rest of my classes. Every now and then getting pushed around, I'm use to it, but one of these days I'm going to blow up.

I go to Jinx's locker at the end of the day. I do this everyday. I wait for her so we can go home. I see her coming down the hall. Looks like she has a band-aid on her forehead. My observations say Kori or her crew probably pushed her. She doesn't say anything and she gets her books and we leave.

By three o' clock we're home. I walk in through the door and greet Nieve who is in the kitchen. I get an apple and go to my room to do my homework. Hours pass by and before I know it it's seven o' clock. I take a shower put on some clothes. By now is seven thirty. I think about the date. Should I go or should I stay. I don't want to hurt his feelings but he hurts mine everyday. In a heated battle with my conscience, I decide to go. Before I left I told Jinx to come down to the club to watch me sing. I really did want to cheer her up.

"No I don't want to go"

"But Jinx I'm going to need some one to drive my car back to the house because Richard is going to drop me off."

"Great, now are you just going to stand there or are we going to leave" I never let any one else drive my car except for Nieve.

We get there by eight o' clock but before we go in I take out my contacts and Jinx takes out her contacts, leaving her eyes brown. She then takes the bands out of her hair makes a ponytail. We walk into the club and I greet Ramon and I see Richard waving like a maniac, which makes me think he's a dumb ass.

Jinx takes a seat in a corner and I take m place on the stage." Hey everybody tonight I can only give a short performance. I will be singing a new song I wrote called My Immortal"

I start singing and I see people are really enjoying it. And a few minutes later I'm done. And I hear clapping and cheering. And I say thank you and walk off the stage. I see Richard and he walks up to me.

"Hey Jade you look nice tonight"

"Uh thanks" I couldn't believe it this man right here could not be the same Richard who pushed me only hours ago. Before I leave I give Jinx my car keys and told her that I would be coming home around eleven.

We walk out to Richard's car. He's opens my side of the door for me. And in my head I'm giggling. Then I think "Oh lord no I sound like a stupid school girl" so we ride off. We stop at a restaurant and we eat. He starts asking me some questions, which I give less then five words response to it. He then asks me a question, which stuck with me all night.

"Jade why wont you answer me in more than five words? And why can't you bear to look at me. Am I that ugly to you? And why wont you smile?"

"Because that's the type of person I am. I'm never really happy but never really sad. And I don't think your ugly. I think your kind of hot, and I wont smile because you have to earn it. And if you don't like the way I am then you shouldn't have asked me out on this date"

"Well Jade I actually like girls like you. You aren't all about into your looks and you may seem cold on the outside but I know your warm hearted on the inside. And because I have to earn your smile it will be worth my effort if I have to earn. It must be heart melting. And thanks I think you're hot too." That comment made me blush. No man had ever said these words to me, not even Malchoir. His words melted my heart. And this is how I knew I was falling for him.

After we ate at the restaurants me went to go see a movie. When we walked in he held my hand. Maybe it was because he saw guys gawking at me, they're eyes almost popped out of their sockets. Well that's what Richard said.

We walked into the theater. I didn't pay attention to the movie. I was to busy thinking about my feelings. Through the whole movie Richard held my hand. He had soft hands. They were bigger then mine but I liked it that way. I had so many I thoughts I would of never had before.

Richard was being sweet. It's a side of him I've never seen except when he's with Kori. Then it reminds me. What about Kori? Did he not feel bad about doing this? I mean he was cheating on his girlfriend. And I know they didn't break up because I would have heard Kori crying in school. So now I'm faced with a dilemma. Ignore my feelings and forget Richard or go with my feelings and have a relationship with Richard while Kori is totally clueless.

I decided that I would figure it out tonight if I wasn't to tired. The movie ended and we walked out of the movie theater still hand in hand. We get into his car and he asks me where do I live. I wonder if I should really tell him. Should I tell or should I keep it to myself. I end up telling him because it was dark out and you never know what can pop out of the bushes. I knew how to defend my self but I wasn't in the mood to be attacked. In a few minutes we arrive at my house. He gives me his number and I record it in my cell phone, which I never use. He gets out of the car to walk me to the door. At my doorsteps he's looking kind of nervous.

So I'm thinking if he's going to kiss me. I would really like it if he did. It would be my first meaningful kiss. But should I think this way. Should I think this way or should I think about something else. He then leans in and…

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Ahhh I made my first cliffhanger. Ha and I know all of you must think duh they are going to kiss but who knows. But any who I hope ya liked it especially Tecna. Well tell me what ya think so review and in the word of The Komodo Komodo Dragon Phoenix: it's a fan fiction crime to read and not review