Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans or the songs

Author's notes: Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I was busy with Christmas stuff and I got sick. Yeah I'm always getting sick. But hey I'm here now with your new chapter.

Thanks To Those Who Reviewed:

ChErRyBlOsSoMs-FlOwErOfDeAtH- Uh what are you talking about. What arrows. But I'm glad you liked my story enough to review it and to tell me to update so thanks.

This Chapter Is Dedicated To:

Lunafan- I dedicate this chapter to you because I like your reviews. Yeah I know I hate it too. How they mistreat Raven well Raven will get her revenge on them but not in this chapter to be more approximate many chapters away. I know sorry.

Tecna- Man I dedicate this chapter to you to because you are so nice. Your reviews are so heart melting and sweet it could make me diabetic. And Raven will get her revenge on them not in this chapter but many chapters away. I know sucks. O thanks for explanation on brill. And I hope you got a good grade on your history exam.

And The Moment You've Been Waiting For:

Chapter 4- Should We Be Together or Should We Stay Apart

Raven's P.O.V.

I can't believe he's going to kiss me. I want it to happen but I'm too nervous. He's leaning in and his eyes are closed. He looks peaceful. I don't want to ruin his night so I lean in to him. And before his lips and my lips touched his cell phone rings. Out of the cell phone I hear Kori's voice blaring from it. So I conclude it's on speakerphone. She's whining on why he didn't call her and where was he. I just look at him like who is that playing into the whole Jade thing because he never told Jade he had a girlfriend.

"Uh" he says. That's all he can say.

"Well aren't you going to talk back to who ever is on your phone" I say making him nervous.

"Can you hold on a second?"

"Yeah Sure I have all the time in the world" I tell him sarcastically. He turns around and walks a few paces in the opposite direction of me. I hear him telling Kori that he forgot to call her and that he's at his house where else would he be. So I see he's lying to her. Well it serves her right. I hear him hang up and he walks over to me.

Richard has this nervous smile on like I can explain. I then say, " You have a girlfriend"

"He says yeah"

"Ok right"

"Wait let me explain I asked you out while I had a girlfriend because I was going to break up with her."

" So why didn't you tell me before. You're making me feel like a complete dumb ass"

" Because I didn't want you to say no"

" I said no the first time.''

" Yeah I know but…." He stammers. It means I outsmarted him.

" You know what forget it because it doesn't matter because if you had a girlfriend and went on a date with me that meant if our date went wrong" And I was interrupted by his lips smashing on to mine.

I felt my knees go weak. I kissed him back. This was my first real kiss. Malchoir's kisses were nothing compared to Richards. And before the kiss started it ended. I felt almost magical. It was so nice, so heart warming. It melted away the ice that surrounded my heart.

He has a smile on his face, as do I. And he starts talking.

" Uh I'm really sorry I didn't tell you I have a girlfriend. You know I was going to break up with her tomorrow and" I stop him and say

" It's ok because you said your going to break up with her right"

"Yeah "

" So Jade today is Monday and I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me on Friday"

" Yeah I guess so but I have to go to the club that night"

"Uh that's ok I can wait" I see understanding and I think I see love in his eyes. He couldn't possibly be in love with me. No one's ever been in love with me.

"Ok so I'll see you Friday night," I tell him.

"Yeah he says" But before he starts to walk away I kiss him on his cheek and go inside. I look out side through my window and I see him smiling. He then starts walking to his car.

I stop watching him and I turn around ready to go to my room. But I bump into someone. I bumped in to Jinx. She has a wide grin on her face telling me that u must spill the beans. I've never been one for girl talking but I did see Jinx sad to day and I wanted her to feel better so I motion for us to go to her room.

As soon as I walk into her room I see lots of bright colors everywhere. It's almost blinding. And here I thought she liked dark colors.

I sit on her bed and she says.

"Well Raven tell me what happened I only saw when you two kissed"

"What Jinx why do you spy on me"

"Because it's so much fun"

"Right" I say. I fill her in on everything. I had to tell her a second time because she wanted all of the details. Which really was annoying.

When I finished talking to her I told her good night and went to sleep. I had dreams of Richard. When I woke up I was feeling so many emotions; happiness, lust, love and wanted. I thought it was amazing on how Richard could awake so many dormant emotions I had.

I got up and got my clothes out for today. I grabbed my towel and knocked on Jinx's door. I heard her stir and I knew she was up. I went to the bathroom. I got undressed and like yesterday I looked in the mirror. I had better thoughts than of yesterdays. Today I was happy because of Richard.

It was amazing how the same man could make me feel like crap and make me feel wanted and loved.

I jumped in the shower. After five minutes of scrubbing and washing I got out, dried my self, changed, and put in my contacts. It was no different that any other day. I got out and let Jinx in. I went to the kitchen and did the same thing as yesterday.

When Jinx was ready to go I grabbed my book bag and car keys. Jinx and I said bye to Nieve and we were off to school.

While driving to school I was so happy. I felt that on Friday I would be able to tell Richard I was Raven. I couldn't wait to see Kori suffer. They were going to break up.

When we got to school I had one of the biggest shocks of my life. I see Richard and Kori still holding hands. And I notice a necklace on her neck. I guess Richard gave it to her. So he lied. He wants two girls just not one.

I'm in pain. It just wasn't fair. I was always made to be everybody's fool.

That day went as any other, being pushed around, laughed at, etc… During study hall I decided to write a song. It named it " Everybody's Fool" I decided it would be the song I would perform for tonight. The school day ended and I was thankful. I couldn't help to see Richard and Kori anymore.

I went home and did my homework. At eight o' clock I went to the club. And did my routine. I went on stage and sang a couple of songs. And the audience's applause made me feel better.

On the drive home I decided I would still see Richard. I mean so what if he had a girlfriend. I deserved to be as happy as any one else.

The rest of the school week passed by like any other school week would. On Friday night I packed my clothes so I could dance. Jinx decided she would come so I wouldn't have to come back to the club to get my car.

When I walked in I saw Richard with flowers in his hand and he was smiling. I walked over to him and said hi. He said hi back and he hugged me but I had to go perform so I left. I gave Jinx my car keys and she took a table near a corner of the room.

I went backstage and changed. I made sure I had my contacts out and my hair was purple. I wanted to make sure because before I entered the club I had pulled up my hood.

I heard Ramon introduce me. And I walked on stage. The music started and I started to dance. I turned and twirled. Stepped here and there moved my stomach and anything that would be in belly dancing. When I was done I heard the crowd cheering and clapping even some whistling.

I bowed and said thank you. I went back stage so I could change. I put my stuff in my bag. I walked out of the club to see Richard and flowers in hand and Jinx by my car waiting for me. I ran over to Jinx and gave her my bag and told her that I would tell her what happened.

I went back over to Richard and he handed me the flowers. They were roses. I was never given roses before. I hugged him and gave him a thank you. We walked over to his car and he opened the door for me. Then he got in and then we were off.

"Richard were are we going"

" I'm not going to tell you cause I want it to be a surprise"

"Ok" I said plainly. I was going to ask him about his girlfriend but I decided against because he would probably lie and it would hurt me because I knew the truth behind his words.

When we got to were we would have out date I was amazed. I didn't think he would take me to a carnival. He saw me smile so he said

"Are you glad I decided to have our date at the carnival"

"Yeah I guess."

We got out of the car and we entered the carnival. We spent at least three hours there. I have to admit it was fun. But the carnival wasn't the only part of the date. Before he took me home we went to this cliff. From there you could see the moon and the stars at their best. The scene was so beautiful. It wasn't till I met Richard that I started appreciating nature.

"So Jade do u like the scene"

"Yeah I do it's nice"

"I'm glad you like it" he then motions for us to sit in the grass. I sit down and he inches a little bit closer to me. I don't mind though. He then seems nervous. I then start talking.

"Uh Richard are you alright"

"Yeah I'm okay I just have to tell you something"

" Ok" I tell him.

"Well I didn't break up with my girlfriend" I stared at him shocked I didn't think he would tell me. This made me kind of happy.

"But why" I ask him.

"Well you see it's not exactly easy breaking up with her. I think she would become one of those crazy girl friend who would stalk me. See so it wouldn't be easy, but I still want to be with you."

"What are you proposing we do "

"We could still be together but it would be more of sneaking around"

"That sounds harsh but I'll go with that"

"Good, I'm glad you're not really mad" with that done we smiled at each other. And he enveloped me in a hug. And we kissed. We now had an understanding. We would be together but in secret. I knew it was wrong but right now I didn't care. I didn't care about anything but me and Richard.